Sorry to here that bnporter.
No symptoms to discuss, other than Im still tired, Im still irritable, and I just dont want to go to work...like at all.
so last night OH goes, "you should plan a trip to duluth or something to get out of town alone."
I was like "i cant go to duluth alone, my family lives there and they will want to see Jaxon" and his response was "so, they'll get over it."
I really could use some time away, Im so tired of doing the same shit day in and day out, with no fracking help. I work 40 hrs a week, and come home to clean and cook for another 3-4 hours, and Im still not fully done with what needs to get done, I just give up.
I never get to sleep late on my days off, b/c OH sleeps until 12 noon and refuses to get up with Jaxon. Which means I cant get crap done in the monrings when I have the most energy to do stuff.
Then nearly every week OH gives me crap about how I dont put his clothes away and leave them in laundry baskets for him, so he just leaves them till the next week when I need the baskets sO I will put it away. So more fracking work for me. I NEVER GET A FRACKING BREAK!
He wont put the dog outside to go to the bathroom b/c he hates the dog and wants to get rid of it, even though its not OUR dog its Jaxon's, and Jaxon loves her to peices. So I have to worry about getting her outside to pee, while Im doing all this other shit too.
Then last night Jaxon wanted daddy to read to him and he was like "I need a smoke, mommy will read to you" so I didnt get any dishes or anything done, b/c I was reading books for an hour before bedtime with Jaxon (I love reading withhim, but IM already stressed about the constnt mess and constant work in the house).
I also forgot to mention, how OH doenst like how I do dishes (by hand, not the diswasher, bc I hate unloading the dishwasher), he hates how I fold his clothes (screamed at him and told him to wash his own god damn clothes then).
Right now all of these hard feelings are coming to a head, I feel like OH is taking everything I do for granted, as he NEVER HELPS! But he expects me to go outside in the cold and help him shovel, which by the way we got fined by the CITY b/c he stll hasnt snow blowed or shoveled the sidewalks since the blizzard two weeks ago. I guess its just more fucking work for me to do.
I guess I'll have to give Jaxon mcdonalds tonight after work, so I can shovel, as it needs to be done, so we can get mail which we have bills coming that need to get paid. Obvioulsy OH is to fucking lazy to do a damn thing.....URGH...still pissed off...wished this rant helped.
I better be pregnant. or this is killer PMS
My 19 month old is a terror! Nonstop getting into stuff and making messes everywhere she goes! Jaxon has always been so neat and clean and sweet. He can be a handful too but Ruby.....oh, she makes me want to rip my hair out!
afterwards and then af ew minutes later had to again and when I wiped there was a tiny spot of light pink? i was thinking, no damn it i'm only 9dpo and my lp is at least 11, mostly 12 usually and i checked my cervix, it was high, little bit of creamy white cm, and no pinkish tint to be found. I don't know, hope if it is a line it gets darker in the days to come. Now I don't know if I will try to test tomorrow or not.
I'm not even going to bother to test. I wish everyone else a lot of luck and baby dust.
