Hello everyone, i have not written anything for a long time and tried to catch up but this thread is so busy. My symptoms made my days a big struggle and I just could not keep up with all of you, I needed a nap almost every day after work, then in bed again by 8pm. But anyway i will cut it short.
My update, sorry it is so long:
We had a heartbeat 6+1 scan, then again 6+4, baby measured perfect on both days. We then had a specialist appointment this monday (exactly 9 weeks). It was our first appointment with this dr. due to high risk and I still cant believe what happened. I had a very small pink drop on toilet paper night before, then in the morning on monday my breasts did not feel as full, but it happened few times before and I know that symptoms come and go but this time it felt different, its hard to explain but i just knew something was wrong, i started to panic, texted my midwife at 7am, then called GP, then called hospital and they re-assured me that the specialist will scan me if he has concerns (i did not know that as we had never seen him before and did not know what to expect). I had no more spotting, it was really just that one very light pink drop,hardly noticeable. So the words we heard were: 'I am really sorry but I cant see the heartbeat.' We were 9 weeks exactly, the baby and all looked perfect and measured exactly 9 weeks. I asked when the heart stopped and was told: 'It must have just happened'.
The doctor said we should have been able to see him straight away at 6 weeks when we had the heartbeat as he could have put me on progesterone and try other things, he was brilliant, he re-assured us that he will help us to have a baby and even though it was a terrible moment we sort of felt like we r finally getting somewhere. He has sent the embryo for chromosomal abnormalities analyses and wants to see us after we have the results and we will make a plan. He also told us that next time we achieve pregnancy we will see him and get a scan every week from 6 weeks. I took all week of work and was very down, stayed in pyjamas most days rotting on the sofa as you can imagine, it was hard to wait for the procedure which was today, all is over for us but we know that we will have our baby. We have a complete faith in this doctor.
I am sorry if I have upset anyone, i just wanted to share my story and also to say good luck to you all. I must say if at least this helps anyone that symptoms really do not matter. I am not pregnant anymore and my hcg is obviously going down now but my breasts are killing me again.
Anyway ladies look after yourself and I wish you all healthy babies.