Thanks Kyla, Heather, Greats, Wonder, mrs.hudson..
I think I got depressed more because of the ruined cake than the gender itself. The gender reveal is the only thing we're doing for this baby, no photos, videos, gimick.. And I found out I may have to give birth alone this time. The midwives told me that my son cannot be in the hospital during birth and there are no childcare facilities nearby, so DH will have to take care of our son while I give birth. We don't have any family here and not many friends who live less than an hour away..
Anyway, cleared my head right now and I know I'm being silly feeling down when I saw that pink frosting. I'm not a girly-girl so I was scared how I will react when my daughter ask me about girly stuffs. Well, it's probably years away, so I can still learn. Now, I'm really excited finding a name for her, initially thought of Keegan cause it sounds very gender neutral, but I'm unsure how masculine it really sounds.