I shouldn't be up right now since it's the middle of the night in CO but AF came and reared her ugly head at 2 this morning. Now I am on my couch wishing I could rip out my uterus because the pain is sooooooo bad. I hate the first day of my cycle! But of course I need my uterus but seriously why does being a woman an TTC have to be so freaking painful??? If this happened to men, they couldn't handle the pain.
And then on Tuesday I will have to get blood work done for what seems like the millionth time this year.
muscle relaxers arent even helping and they usually do. So much for my planning to walk for an hour tomorrow. looks like a movie marathon with a side of doing dishes will be all I can handle.
I must keep telling myself all this is worth it. All the pain will be worth it one day. After almost two years of TTC, I want it to be my turn. This cycle I will not only face bloodwork at least twice but I will have to get injection fertility meds and I HATE SHOTS! I avoid them at all costs but if it gets me a baby, I will suck it up.
Sorry for the rant but it does take my mind off the massive cramps I am having right now.