Hi Guys-
Nothing really new to report, just want to vent about something that I know all of you can relate to.
Just having one of "those" days......
Had dinner with my fam, my (YOUNGER!) pregnant sister-in-law and brother were there with their one year old. Dont get me wrong, I LOVE my niece and cant wait to meet baby #2 this spring, but sometimes it's all I can do to keep from bawling at the table. And it only gets worse when it seems every conversation is about babies......and tonight we found out another family friend ( married for 6 months and 5 years younger than me ) is pregnant. I dont want to be jealous and bitter but sometimes I just really feel that way.
My family doesnt know what we are going through at ALL, but I'm sure they assume something is wrong, as it's been 3 yrs married and nothing. No one is trying to be mean but sometimes I just want to hide from everyone for a while.
I'm at the very start of my 1st IVf cycle and KNOW I'm on my way, some days it just feels SO hard and unfair and SO far away.....and it's nice to know that you guys understand. It just all seems so, so, so unfair sometimes ya know???
So, I feel better already for venting. Thanks for "listening"/ reading. I know y'all get it. And I love you for that.
OUR TIME IS SOON![]()
Hey Sunshine... I remember all too well what that feeling of the whole world is pregnant but you. It was like the universe was throwing pregnant ladies in my face and I wonder this one morning when I was riding the subway to work, I was literally surrounded by pregnant ladies on the train! I kept switching cars and there would be another one and even 3 in one car at one point. It was like the pregnant lady zombie apocalypse!
It's also not easy to see family and close friends have babies while you're still waiting for your turn. Is there a particular reason that you aren't open about it with your family? It can be a difficult situation to discuss with anyone and it's definitely a personal decision. I was open about it to my immediate family and close friends only. I met a former employer of mine for coffee after I had been TTC for about 8 months after not seeing her for a couple of years. The first thing she said to me is "I thought you would be out to here by now!" (while motioning a pregnant belly with her hands). "You love babies and I thought you would have had a couple by now." I didn't tell her that I was struggling but just kind of laughed nervously and said something like "So did I!"
Well I hope you are doing okay and that you are taking good care of yourself. Just remember the light is almost at the end of the tunnel. Hugs!
Hi girls so I had MY new RE appt yesterday and it went well I have a cyst on one ovary which is no big deal and he is referring me to a doctor to do the laporoscopy and hysteroscopy surgery to check for scar tissue or endometriosis although he said most likely won't find anything. I couldn't get an appt. to meet with that doctor until March 6th and then I will have to schedule the surgery. The RE basically told me if everything comes back fine with the surgery then I should move onto IVF. If it comes back that they did find something then I would try a few more IUI's and see if that would work. He didn't agree with my previous RE only getting me 1 follicle for the 3 IUI's I have already done because I can get that on my own anyway. The doctor said there is something going on but just don't know what. Oh and also my lining was a little thin which could be the issue which is weird because the other clinic told me I had good lining. I hate this waiting game and it looks like I will be doing IVF in a few months because i'm sure the surgery will find nothing. I am so scared![]()
Hi girls so I had MY new RE appt yesterday and it went well I have a cyst on one ovary which is no big deal and he is referring me to a doctor to do the laporoscopy and hysteroscopy surgery to check for scar tissue or endometriosis although he said most likely won't find anything. I couldn't get an appt. to meet with that doctor until March 6th and then I will have to schedule the surgery. The RE basically told me if everything comes back fine with the surgery then I should move onto IVF. If it comes back that they did find something then I would try a few more IUI's and see if that would work. He didn't agree with my previous RE only getting me 1 follicle for the 3 IUI's I have already done because I can get that on my own anyway. The doctor said there is something going on but just don't know what. Oh and also my lining was a little thin which could be the issue which is weird because the other clinic told me I had good lining. I hate this waiting game and it looks like I will be doing IVF in a few months because i'm sure the surgery will find nothing. I am so scared![]()
It's ok! Don't be scared. You're making all the right decisions and moving forward. I had a lap and hyst last month and it was a breeze. PLUS they found moderate endo and removed it and said that was probably the trouble all along. I never had any signs of endo either.
Because I am anxious to keep moving forward and they cant ever say with 100% certainty that they got all the endo, we are choosing to do IVF next to get as quick results as possible.
You will be okay. A lap is a GOOD thing, and even if they dont find anything, I have heard from multiple sources that after you have one done fertility increases for 6 months following.
Plesae feel free to reach out to me with any questions about the lao and starting IVF, I'm only about a month or two ahead of you in this whole thing.
Best of luck honey!
Chris this sounds like a great plan. Yes the thought of surgery sounds scary, but like Sunshine and many other women I have spoken to say, it's a breeze. I met someone on here who did both the lap and hysteroscopy after ttc 14 months and got a BFP after BDing one time 2 weeks post surgery! This was after removing stage 5 endo and numerous cysts.
If IVF ends up being the route you go, I'd also be happy to answer any questions about the process.
Sunshine I'm glad you have some close friends IRL to confide in. My SIL struggled and did 4 IUIs to conceive my niece and she was my rock during the whole thing!
Another update on me, as promised.
I start the 2nd phase of my IVF cycle tonight, Lupron injections.
I do Lupron in addition to the BCP I am on for two nights, then stop BCP and continue just on Lupron, and then when AF comes ( they suspect it will be around Feb 18th or so ) I call the office, go in for baselines and enter phase three---stimming + Lupron ( which will last approx 10 days... ). THEN! Trigger, Er and transfer and hopefully BFP.
So far, so good, it seems like time is going fast. Im staying busy, eating healthy, and getting in a good mental place to undergo these next steps....
Thanks for your support ladies!
Hi girls so I had MY new RE appt yesterday and it went well I have a cyst on one ovary which is no big deal and he is referring me to a doctor to do the laporoscopy and hysteroscopy surgery to check for scar tissue or endometriosis although he said most likely won't find anything. I couldn't get an appt. to meet with that doctor until March 6th and then I will have to schedule the surgery. The RE basically told me if everything comes back fine with the surgery then I should move onto IVF. If it comes back that they did find something then I would try a few more IUI's and see if that would work. He didn't agree with my previous RE only getting me 1 follicle for the 3 IUI's I have already done because I can get that on my own anyway. The doctor said there is something going on but just don't know what. Oh and also my lining was a little thin which could be the issue which is weird because the other clinic told me I had good lining. I hate this waiting game and it looks like I will be doing IVF in a few months because i'm sure the surgery will find nothing. I am so scared![]()