30 yo and TTC #1

[DosPinkies]

See, I'm not used to it anymore. I grew up in a small town and then got the eff out after high school. Now I live in a substantial town in a very urban part of Arkansas and have for 12 years...no noseyness, no small-town gossip....just a bunch of liberal hippies kinda like myself (though I don't smell like patchouli...lol) who mind our own business and walk our dogs to farmer's markets to buy tomatoes. Buuuut, I teach outside of town in a small rural school... and so it creeps in. It's not too bad though...I love everyone I work with at least, so it doesn't bother me that much if they know my business. I just didn't miss that part of small towns is all. And most of my students are appalled that I hate country music. Hahaha.

 

[ladders]

Dos that would really stress me out so I'm very impressed your taking it in your stride and I hope you get some good results soon. Iv also read about people getting their bfp after hsg dye thing so could be just the boost your body needs, I really hope so.

Af due today and usually comes in the afternoon so I'm currently knicker checking every 5 minutes, only got creamy cm at the moment but sure I had that last month before af arrived, only thing keeping me positive is I have a small amount of stomach cramping and stomach muscles sore and I never normally have that. Agh going to be a long day

 

[lsd2721]

Good luck ladders! Really hope this is it for you!

Okay, so last night I ended up drinking a bottle of wine mainly by myself. I didn't drink the last bit and my sister had a glass herself so not too bad but I also had a few ciggies (which I worked so hard to quitting last year!) and now I feel HORRIBLE!!! UGH. If it was one glass of wine (which was the plan) I wouldn't feel as bad but 3? And cigarettes on top of that...why did I allow myself to do that. I don't want to jeopardize anything if I am pregnant!

 

[ladders]

I have tried and failed miserably to give up the wine, I think this ttc process is hard and draining enough without taking away things you enjoy and that help you to relax and take your mind off it. If someone could say that if I went teetotal I would get my bfp I would do it in a heartbeat but they can't so I'm not making this process anymore miserable than it needs to be.
Don't feel guilty Isd just think when you are pregnant then you definitely have to give it all up so enjoy while you can.
Right off to knicker check it's been a whole 20 minutes

 

[lsd2721]

Any news ladders?

 

[ladders]

Well af officially a day late, I'm 15dpo today and have never.ever got to 15dpo. Boobs still sore and stomach muscles ache like I've done sit ups with some cramping which is unusual. Trying to not get too excited, failing miserably. Man I'm going to be devastated if af comes now

 

[fairyy]

Well af officially a day late, I'm 15dpo today and have never.ever got to 15dpo. Boobs still sore and stomach muscles ache like I've done sit ups with some cramping which is unusual. Trying to not get too excited, failing miserably. Man I'm going to be devastated if af comes now

I really hope that witch stays away. When are you testing ?

 

[ladders]

Well af officially a day late, I'm 15dpo today and have never.ever got to 15dpo. Boobs still sore and stomach muscles ache like I've done sit ups with some cramping which is unusual. Trying to not get too excited, failing miserably. Man I'm going to be devastated if af comes now

I really hope that witch stays away. When are you testing ?

Well I'm on night shifts at the moment and have to go round to see family today as they have had some bad news so will either be tonight or tomorrow morning at least tomorrow morning can be fmu. To be honest I'm scared to test because I don't think I will be that lucky and at the moment I still have hope

 

[fairyy]

You are @15dpo without AF. You have a good chance for BFP. Good luck and I will wait for your POAS update.

 

[ladders]

Thanks fairyy I appreciate the support, don't think I could ever or have ever wanted anything more!

 

[fairyy]

Any update ladders ?

 

[JCM]

Oh ladders I hope this is it for you! I think AF is on her way and it's only day 22! Booooo!!! I was so happy about my 26 day cycle last month. Ugh. I want to eat pizza and cookies in bed...and wine

 

[ladders]

So I caved and took an Internet cheapie test and not sure if I could see a proper line, dusted off the clearblue digital and after nine months I finally have my !!!

Thank you all for keeping me sane through all of this its been a real help to have all of you lovely ladies to talk to. I am sending massive baby dust your way!

 

[ladders]

And I would really like to lurk around and see how your all doing if that's okay x

 

[fairyy]

Yay congrats ladders.

 

[lsd2721]

yay! ladders...that is amazing news!! Congrats!!

 

[lsd2721]

Ladders, I'm not thinking that once next cycle starts I am going to go get acupuncture done as well! Maybe it will relax me!

 

[ladders]

I honestly think that made the difference because I'd been so stressed and obsessed and the acupuncture really chilled me out. Had my first session the day before positive opk and that weekend was the first time we got loads of bd in without me worrying and praying dh would finish or feeling the need to tell him how important that this bd was. I honestly think that's what made the difference

 

[trumpetbeth]

Yay ladders!!!

 

[ladders]

Lsd I'm going to keep going acupuncture I found it so good. Definitely recommend it and the lady I go to specialises in fertility but mostly to help people through ivf so think it's worth finding someone who knows what you want it for