Ah bless him that does touch the heart strings, yes you have a wonderful little boy there and I have everything crossed for you. I don't think my 3 year old really knows the word brother although we use it as he plays with our neighbours 4 year old girl and her 9 year old brother. But he often says he likes babies and talks about baby in my tummy. I tell him he's my baby, he laughs and says no big boy. Ah I so understand that sad feeling wanting to give them a sibling and then that feeling of love and happiness that you have them! We tried for one year with him. It was really only 10 or 11 cycles of using opk and feeling we were struggling, prior to that ntnp. But we have doubled that this time, I thought we would do it so much quicker this time as the time we conceived with ds we used preseed and I have my 2nd reflexology treatment, whereas this time we have used it lots of months and I had about 5 treatments but then took a break from trying. Also the first time we had just started seeking treatment so I believed I was more relaxed, but we have started seeking help again and tried relaxed months. Definitely harder dtd with 2nd though as you can't just dtd several times and lay around all day which was me the first time. I know the sa can't be pleasent but I am eager to know whether we should dtd more or let it build up. However most months tend to be every other day over that time, I think there was a bit more the month we conceived ds.