Hi ladies!
It's been a packed couple of days. Went to the Endocrinologists office yesterday. Good to know I wasn't the only hormonally charged gal on the block.
I got to the office and it took me 15 minutes to find a parking space. They "asked" the Dr. if they could get me in and basically started turning me away. I was LIVID!! I told them I was stuck in the darn parking area and had already dealt with the nurse practitioner a month ago who tried to make me out to be a liar and demanded I stay on a drug that would have caused birth defects in a baby had I NOT taken myself off of it. They got me in with a different Dr. whom I didn't understand at ALL language wise and when he put me in with the Diabetic educator, I started to bawl.
Oh heavens! Me crying like this has to stop. At any rate, the Dr. I couldn't understand kept making me feel like I never pricked my finger enough for the data to transfer from the glucose monitor to my pump. I looked at his sheet and saw it was almost blank. I was dumfounded KNOWING I had taken my glucose readings. HE made me feel like I never gave them enough data to change anything. When I went to the diabetic educator we found out WHY. I DID in fact take readings. However I had to just input them myself and override because my numbers were so darn high. The monitor saw this as problematic and not something the monitor automatically does. NOW two things. One, I got this pump when I was pregnant with Jackson. I got a quick 1/2 hour how to but no more. So I really had no idea how to use the pump more efficiently. I was inputting data on my own which was like using a syringe instead of the 10k pump that was meant to read numbers and adjust itself with the readings its given. Two, the dumb dr. I couldn't understand NEVER TOOK my glucose monitor reasons. He said I didn't do my part with my pump so why should I waste HIS time. Dumbarse! Had he seen my pump, he would have noticed I was manually entering my numbers into the pump hence the reason they weren't showing up on the pump in the first place.
I walked out of the Diabetic educators office feeling MUCH better after I spilled my heartache about canceling two cycles in a row for fertility treatment (not all because of my numbers but because of Dougs issues too) and the fact that I GAINED 12 of the 15 lbs I lost because of this damn insulin. Sorry for the swearing here but the weight gain REALLY depresses me because I fight so hard to lose it and gain it all back once I'm back on insulin or hormones.
After that, I figure I'll have my numbers in order for treatment in March. I'll look at it this way, at least the next baby will be a winter baby. Jackson was October and Amelia is Sept. Waiting a couple months to get my insulin under control will be better for both me AND the baby.
What the diabetic educator told me was instead of crying about the weight gain...take something that will be a POSITIVE CHANGE and do it regularly. Walk with Amelia each day for a half hour......Eat healthy (which I'm mostly doing) and I DO need a protein at night to keep my sugars downs. Which means no vegan for me. I can't have soy protein. Plant based is REALLY hard transitioning when there are a million other things I'm trying to focus on. I feel like I'm in the center of a circle that's racing around and around and around not knowing how to make it stop.
Another positive thing that happened is we have new living room furniture!! :yay: We had a hole in the top and my butt was sinking too low. Now we have a sofa, overstuffed chair and a BEAUTIFUL fabric chair from germany that we got for a GREAT deal. WE even made it 200.00 UNDER budget including tax and delivery (which the guys took the darn sofa and put it down the basement which took FOREVER because it's shaped odd. Now Doug has his man cave.
Oh, did I tell you that he now has a guitar too? He's been wanting to learn acoustic guitar so he can lead family hymns.lol After 4 years I figured he could have one if he wanted. He ALWAYS puts us before himself. It was time to get him something to release some tension himself.
So everything is working out well. I feel better since being reminded about the vitamin D. I AM taking a prenatal vitamin with DHA in it too. It's making a lot of difference. I'm even waking up earlier than usual the past two days.
Anna,
as far as staph infections go, everyone is a carrier of mrsa. It's a bacteria on the skin. Most people are resistant to it however it IS a bacteria that can get into cuts/wounds or areas which secrete bodily fluids. If someone has MRSA infection and doesn't keep it covered or does not use the proper cleansing techniques then touches anything at all, it is possible for others to contract the full outbreak.
Doug got it from working in a hospital. Unfortunately it's a risk that most medical care personnel take. In fact, most nursing staff and Dr.'s have MRSA...they just are resistant to it. It just so happens that Doug caught the outbreak because he had poison ivy this past summer/fall which was open and pretty porous. The bacteria got in through the wounds even though they were covered and ended up wreaking havoc.
In going to the infectious disease Dr., we found out that Doug's immune system was already compromised from the poison ivy wounds that once he contracted the bacteria in his wounds....it just caused all kinds of havoc leaving him getting the HUGE wounds chronically. Some get MRSA and never get it back, others get it once in awhile, and some get it chronically.
So far Doug's wounds are all starting to heal. The one on his arm from this past fall is closed but you can see where he had it. Using that bactrum wash has been successful. Once his wounds have completely healed he'll take a clorox bath and we're told that should "hopefully" be the end. Of course this all pends on whether or not someone else comes back in the mrsa and recolonizes my husband. How we're working it is by him taking his clothes DIRECTLY off and I put it in a HOT wash right away which kills bacteria. He goes straight in for a hot shower after work and then takes another one before work. He is down to two antibacteria washes because when used too much, he can become resistant to antibacterial washes AND the oral meds. Which could leave him with only one other med later on which can only be taken interveneously(sp). So we're very careful not to overuse any kind of bacterial soaps and meds for fear of resistance.
Beth, glad to hear all is well on the baby front dear friend!
Angela, glad the kids are somewhat better today. Yes, I've taken that break from fb. I'm not sure the likelihood I'll be back on. I may restart my blog again just to jot down things and keep fb open to post articles I like and chat with those I wouldn't otherwise see via private message. Otherwise, I really would rather be in an environment like this where we converse and are friends here. I learn from each of you and the conversations we have are meaningful. I'm just sick of all the negative media and believe it or not, as political as I am (I most likely would have been in politics had I not gotten married and wanted a family more) I'm also sick of politics too. I'm Independent by choice and all this politicking has caused people to be divided not united. Not to mention I was sick of some vulgar junk I've seen. I wasn't on any of the other social media either. What most stood out was blogging with like-minded women about family life, homesteading, cooking, etc. I learned from that environment.
NOW, that's not to say Beth didn't give me something to think about. I think I what I've always been afraid of is "preaching" to people. I don't want to come out as "turn or burn" to anyone. It's the opposite of Christ. There ARE times however where I get quite irritated and would like to throw the book at some. It's hard for me to be an "example" when I'm honestly the first one to tell anybody that I am such a broken vessel myself.
Over and over again I've looked at Moses who said HE couldn't be used by God ((feeling lowly)).....when God said I WILL use you. God spoke through Moses. It's encouraging. I think making mistakes or facing my own imperfections just gives me the fear that I may not be the best ministering tool in the tool box so to say.
I'm not really sure what happened to me over the years. The once carefree happy girl turned into a fearful depressed woman. Much of which happened when we faced the loss of our son. If I could only get that carefree JOY back...life would be so much better. Only through God will that happen of course. Not by MY might.
Okay enough about me.
Steph, Did you go to Disney or is that happening this weekend??
News one the baby bear front...She's decided to climb stairs now. Time for another gate at the bottom of our slippery stairs. She's trying to put her own shoes on, she also lifting my leg up to go under it like a bridge. She gets made if I don't put my leg "just so". She's snuggling with us more and is teething again since yesterday. ((sigh)) Oh, caught her humming to herself several times today and LOVES our pekingese. She points, touches and speaks softly to her.
Well, that's all today. Lots going on and finally had the time to post. I have some chores to do now that someone is down for the count. lol I get them done throughout the day. Gramma and grampa are coming by tomorrow (Dougs parents) Can't WAIT to entertain them on our new living room furniture.
Love to you all!!
Edited to say..Holy Cats! If you got through all this then your a SAINT! I wrote a flipping book!
it is SO hard when all Ethan wants is to be held (which of course I'm doing) but then I'm terrified he will infect the baby with whatever is causing this fever. He is just pitiful. Was up all night and finally got back to sleep at 6:30; is still sleeping now. He has an appt at dr this a.m.( and hubby will take him) for a CBC, and if bacterial profile they will write an antibiotic. This has been the longest week of my life. 
I hope Ethan gets on the meds soon so the risks of passing anything passes. I hope you guys are all right! That was a high fever, I would have been so scared too!!!!!!!!
One week is a long wait sometimes!!!
sigh. Wile wonderful news, of course his temp bounced right back up over 101 literally within the hour, but while it was 97 hubby called and canceled our dr appt. :Bangsheadagainstdoor: he said he thought Ethan was "fine" this morning. Big argument and lots of tears from this exhausted and frightened mommy. Hubby thinks (as always) I'm just over emotional... Well, I'm not apologizing for that, because HE did not spend all day yesterday dragging these poor kids to the dr. And then seeing how pitiful and sick and clingy Ethan was and how miserable he was. I was just trying to do anything I could to make sure we don't miss anything and get him some relief earlier if I can. Anyway, he has had some more Advil and temp is still 101...but apparently we are waiting it out. Hubby has promised to take him to urgent care if needed later today. I could just smack hubby right now but don't have the energy; I feel like I'm getting the flu (despite my flu shot). Hopefully just a migraine but th crying didn't help. Just so frustrated and worried and exhausted right now, thanks for letting me vent, 
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