39 and trying to conceive:-(

[trying4four]

Great news Bonnie!!!

 

[PositiveUs]

Hope everyone is well. Miracles do happen everyday.

 

[BabyBean14]

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[PositiveUs]

And sushi !!!!

 

[Bonnie1990]

All the coffee I want!

 

[BabyBean14]

And lox!!

 

[trying4four]

and Coke!!

 

[PositiveUs]

Omg. I have been waaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiitttttiiing for FF to give me my freaking O date!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And it finally showed up today. Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez that took a long damn time!!!!!!

O was on CD20 (usually CD11) which was 9 days after they cancelled my cycle and meds were stopped. I wish that my tiny 2 and 4mm follicles from back then grew over 9 days and that one was released. We bd'd on CD17 and CD19. My doc did a pap on CD19 and said to bd that night; apparently cm is good to go! At least I have that going for me. I need some hope in the 1% chance world I apparently live in (screw statistics!!!).

So now this is finally 5DPO. Tender boobs at times, couple pimples, moody as hell but what's new (moody since birth). These meds reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaallly screw with your system!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! making OH hard to deal w me. I'm even more child like than ever. I called him fat last night more than once (he's not fat, lol), I was mean. I told him if he want to hang out so much w his guy friends that maybe he's gay. It never ended. I am ridiculous (he spends most of his time w me). He is so patient with me that it's hard to believe. But I can't keep pushing it.

Hope everyone else had a better weekend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Bonnie1990]

Lol at the mood swings-they are nuts

I am 10dpo and just insanely tired since Thursday. Sleeping 8-11 hours and just dragging ass!
No other ss. Nothing. And bfn
Who the hell knows. Lol

 

[PositiveUs]

Bonnie- good luck.

I cannot help but believe that I would just "know" if I was ever prego. These charts are so hard to deal with. I don't want to spot for a stupid implantation dip that only happens in such a small percent of women! I just wanted to know when O was. Now that I know, perhaps I shouldn't even temp?

I wonder if I have to wait an extra week for AF since O was a week late? I have been having AF like cramps since yesterday; not nearly as bad as real cramps, but something.

More waiting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Turn 40 Saturday, then next Thurs is my friend's baby shower and my best girlfriend has a 6 week old that I see at least twice a week. My other friend has an 8 month old I just saw over the weekend at 2y/o birthday party!!!! OMG..
Guess I have to wait until at least 10dpo to test. I didn't test last month. The only reason I have any hope is cuz of taking fertility meds. I am holding onto a string.

 

[Bonnie1990]

Yeah. I turn 40 in 3 weeks.
I never imagined myself TTC again let alone at 40.
Not that that's a death sentence or anything.
Just weird

Yes your lp is based on ov soooo yup still a TWW

I have up on temping. I know now when I ov for the most part and I can't stand these "pretty" charts. It gets my hopes up too much.

 

[BabyBean14]

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[Bonnie1990]

Ooh good luck!
Almost time to catch that eggy!

 

[BabyBean14]

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[PositiveUs]

Kismet- good luck! You probably don't even need preseed. If I had I used preseed, there would have been waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much (sorry for tmi).

Bonnie- I never had a really pretty chart but I bet some women who don't O on time would kill for one. But I can see what you mean; you might even have a supposed implantation dip every time but it turned out to be nothing! How frustrating!!!!!

Let's all be thankful for what we do have. This is what I've been practicing. Reading Three Majic Words really helps me too.

 

[BabyBean14]

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[Bonnie1990]

How can anyone use an entire applicator full of that stuff!
Yikes it seems like overkill!

 

[PositiveUs]

I cannot believe my bitchiness lately!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have got to chill the f out. Holy crap.
I need a freaking vacation!
Funny thing is I live 10 min away from an awesome beach but I don't find it relaxing; anxiety.

The problem I have with preseed is that I never know precisely when we are going to do it and you are only supposed to put it up there 15 min prior. I'm not gonna stop in the middle of making out just to kill the mood and say "oh, wait a minute, let me get my preseed". Besides, I don't need it at the moment. If I was on a clomid cycle that might be different and then I think I would stop for preseed or what's the point!

This is me:

 

[Bonnie1990]

I had zero issues with cm on first round of clomid.
Just remember its only the meds. Things will level out soon!

 

[PositiveUs]

I can only imagine what actual pregnancy hormones will be like if I feel like this already!

I don't even want to know what post pardom depression is either!! Holy crap!