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[bash73]

HCG was 8. So not happy about that. Doc said to wait another cycle to "try". Waiting to hear from new doc on Tuesday. I was set to try as soon as AF stopped. The rollercoaster seems to never end.

 

[Kat S]

seems like no hope for me even though I am only 37 (look more like 30) but my ovaries are more like 50 just went to a private clinic and after they looked at my FSh/AMH and the rest of it told me it is beginning of menopause and I have no time to lose if I want to use my own eggs, am so depressed. was also told that stimulated IVF wont work for me it's only natural cycle IVF. now I feel really bad that I wasted last couple of years trying to TTC naturally and improve my health with vitamins etc, nothing worked seems like my ovaries are aging so fast

Oh Briss, I am so so sorry about your situation! I really hope you get a miracle, Honey. We're just gonna keep trying. OK?

 

[Kat S]

HCG was 8. So not happy about that. Doc said to wait another cycle to "try". Waiting to hear from new doc on Tuesday. I was set to try as soon as AF stopped. The rollercoaster seems to never end.

8? Ugh...so close! I remember the closer I got to zero the slower it went. Took me two weeks to go from 8 to under 5. I waited almost two months after AF for my hcg levels to get low enough, but I couldn't try right away because I needed another surgery to check for D&E scarring and to see if my double uterus needed more trimming (it did). About two months after later, we were allowed to try again.

Roller coaster is right. Way up one day and couldn't be lower the next. *hug*

 

[Juniperjules]

Little rant here.. I'm Scottish & naturally quite socialist in my thinking... And I believe in equality for all people... BUT..

Today while shopping I had a woman behind me in a queue with 3 kids.. Ages approx 4, 2 & practically newborn. 4 yr old running a muck, 2 yr old in a double buggy screaming his head off, & newborn babe being clutched by mother.. Mother?? Well, she was kind of a state.. Rotten teeth, some of them missing, greasy hair, very very overweight.. And yelling at the 4yr old girl 'Olivia!! Olivia!! Get back here now!!!'.. Over & over..

God... I was trying hard not to be judgemental.. Bcos who am I to say who should or shouldn't have kids- but seriously- I could be snatched that new baby out of her arms & run with it.

God forgive me but I was looking at the mum thinking 'wot a mess, looks very unhealthy, but bcos shes probably 27 or 28 years old shes lucky enough to have three gorgeous little kids.. & simply bcos I'm 38 I'm struggling'

I know it's a terrible way to think.. She's probably a nice person.... But still..

Rant over : )

 

[Emmi]

Little rant here.. I'm Scottish & naturally quite socialist in my thinking... And I believe in equality for all people... BUT..

Today while shopping I had a woman behind me in a queue with 3 kids.. Ages approx 4, 2 & practically newborn. 4 yr old running a muck, 2 yr old in a double buggy screaming his head off, & newborn babe being clutched by mother.. Mother?? Well, she was kind of a state.. Rotten teeth, some of them missing, greasy hair, very very overweight.. And yelling at the 4yr old girl 'Olivia!! Olivia!! Get back here now!!!'.. Over & over..

God... I was trying hard not to be judgemental.. Bcos who am I to say who should or shouldn't have kids- but seriously- I could be snatched that new baby out of her arms & run with it.

God forgive me but I was looking at the mum thinking 'wot a mess, looks very unhealthy, but bcos shes probably 27 or 28 years old shes lucky enough to have three gorgeous little kids.. & simply bcos I'm 38 I'm struggling'

I know it's a terrible way to think.. She's probably a nice person.... But still..

Rant over : )

Trust me - I think like that all the time - especially at supermarkets! I always see rather rougher than rough women screaming at their children and I feel a pang of anger and how unfair it all is........The need to be a mum knows no bounds and it's heartbreaking what we have to witness......

 

[Briss]

Juniper, I am totally with you, upsets me every time I see anything like this

 

[Kat S]

Oh, Juniper, I'm SO with you! I see that sort of thing from time to time and I have the same reaction!

 

[Kat S]

AFM, I had my CD3 check this morning. I was told I have a cyst and can't try this month. I wasn't even surprised. Somehow I knew. I'm disappointed, but I didn't cry and freak out like I did the last time this happened.

Mixed feelings about Princess Kate having her baby today. I'm thrilled for her and William, but it's put the whole baby thing on the front news 24/7 and it's hard not to think about my own situation with all of the royal baby talk going on.

 

[Emmi]

AFM, I had my CD3 check this morning. I was told I have a cyst and can't try this month. I wasn't even surprised. Somehow I knew. I'm disappointed, but I didn't cry and freak out like I did the last time this happened.

Mixed feelings about Princess Kate having her baby today. I'm thrilled for her and William, but it's put the whole baby thing on the front news 24/7 and it's hard not to think about my own situation with all of the royal baby talk going on.

Big hugs to you Kat.....I am really hoping that next month will bring you better news.

Agree on the mixed feeling about the Royal Baby - so happy for the lovely couple but I can't help but feel sad too.......All so fairy tale for other people yet here we are struggling away......Very hard

 

[Briss]

kat, I am so sorry you cant try this cycle. can you still TTC naturally? Did they tell you why you cant do IUI with a cyst? is it to do with ovarian stimulation?

do not get me started on the royal baby paranoia, I am trying my best to ignore the whole thing but it's just impossible.

 

[Kat S]

Briss, yeah, I have to go on birth control in order to shrink the cyst, which is feeding off my high estrogen levels. Talk about going backwards!

Well, at least now I can use the Royal Birth as an excuse to drink as much as I want. Champagne for all!

 

[Emmi]

Ahhhh - enjoy the champagne - am desperate for a glass

 

[Briss]

I also have a cyst but no one told me anything I even had a lap and they left it in said it was too small to be bothered it was about 2 cm but it was a year ago not sure what it looks like now

 

[Kat S]

Briss, your cyst was likely reabsorbed by your body a few weeks later.

 

[bash73]

I was told I had a cyst on my ovary due to the hormones and it should go away, but doc dummy never rechecked...i'm writing in my notes for tomorrow's visit. Thx

 

[Kat S]

Good luck, Bash! I'm sure your old cyst is gone I only had to go on BC because my cyst was too big and it appeared was not going to be reabsorbed as usual. I have a paratubal cyst on one side that's there always. It doesn't bother anything, i'm told, and we don't do anything about it.

 

[Juniperjules]

I'd like to have some bubbly too!! But AF is due in 2 days so better hold off. I make a deal with myself that the first weekend of AF arriving I let myself have a wee drink with my mum on the Friday nite.. Am not a big drinker so usually only 1-3 drinks depending on what it is. That way I feel like I'm drowning my AF sorrows & not depriving myself completely.

Have to get myself back in check a little bit..my eating/snacking hasn't been fab the last few weeks & I feel like I could b putting on weight.. Clothes still fit the same but my mind is telling me I'm eating too much naughty stuff like white potatoes, white bread & choccie biscuits!! It's winter here so the motivation to exercise is very low. I like to bike ride to keep my weight down, but can't be bothered when it's cold or raining. OH wants me to buy a dirt bike so we can go riding the dirt tracks but am trying to b careful with my $$$ at the moment.

I put on about 8 or 9 kilos a few years ago, mostly bcos I was quite depressed for about 12mths after a death in my family... Felt like crap & was miserable in my own skin for years, then lost it all about 2 years ago... So when I feel like I'm putting weight on again it kind of freaks me out a lot!! Need to start being more disciplined again & take control.

Just got a call from the new FS office with an earlier appt!!! 9th August! Yikes!!! Am really nervous now... Crapping myself actually. This woman is known as 'the baby whisperer' here in australia... Am so nervous of what the appointment will be like & what she'll say. I think I'm gonna go by myself first off... Speak with her & get her first impression & then take OH next time. I know this might sound stupid but my OH is very like my father in that he's no good with 'official' people, he starts trying to be funny & make jokes probably bcos he's uncomfortable, but then I get uncomfortable for us both & stressed out!! So i'd prefer to just go to the first appt with all the results I have in tow, see her. Then take him when he's needed. His sperm analysis is fine so he's def not the problem anyway.

 

[Emmi]

We have both given up drinking in preparation for IVF/ICSI over the summer...I have been the only one sober on many occasions at the moment!

I know that feeling about knowing that you are eating the right stuff......then you get worried and depressed about it.....I am just very anxious about everything that I get depressed and then eat more - total vicious circle.

Think of the appointment as something positive - and get as much info as possible. Funny you should mention about your other half - my hubby tends to just look like a rabbit in the headlights and not say a thing which is not very helpful!!!!!

 

[Kat S]

I've put on a few pounds, too. I think it has to do with the change in crazy hormones. I didn't used to be such a huge snacker. Now I eat all the time! And dealing with my miscarriage the past 6 months hasn't helped, either.

Juniper, your new FS sounds really promising! I hope this is the answer for you!

 

[Briss]

they first saw the cyst in November 2011, the lap was in April 2012 and it was still there and then another scan in July 2012 and again it was still seating there so I doubt it was absorbed by my body, most likely still there I just hope it is getting smaller. I also have a different type of cysts that come and go, they can be quite large but they disappear in 1-2 cycles.

Juniper, best of luck with your appointment, 'the baby whisperer' – sounds great!