Hey guys. Sorry I've been MIA. Lots going on with me and I wanted to sort them out before I jumped on here.
Squirrel your chart is looking amazing! CH's coming at ya!
Bee - yay for positive OPK's! Those are so satisfying to get.
Texas - So sorry about DD. Hope she does ok with the surgery. Poor baby, I hate when babies are sick. It just breaks my heart.
Hello to all the other ladies who popped on to say hi and check in! I hope you're all having great pregnancies. I know we all love when you stop by to shake off some of that baby dust on all us TTC'ers
AFM: I'm in a terrible terrible place. In January when we started to TTC I started to have some minor pain on the left and as you do, I thought it was O pains. They continued and I was sure I was pregnant. Of course, I was not. Anyway, the pain hasn't gone away and this last cycle its been really bad. So I called my gyro after getting yet another BFN since I was a little worried I might have a cyst or something.
A short background story here: Last year in March I was having heavy irregular periods that lasted 2-3 weeks and they discovered a very large polyp that was of major concern since there was worry it would rupture and cause me to hemorrhage so they rushed me to get it out (3 months.... this is "rushed" in the medical world)
Anyway, I called, couldn't get an appointment until May and so the receptionist who is lovely told me to go to my GP and request an scan and if anything pops up to call back.
So thats what I did. I had the scan yesterday and got the results today. Another polyp. ANOTHER ONE. Smaller... but there. And definitely causing the pain.
Initially I just accepted it. And then I realized what that means. I'll never conceive if its in there, and I certainly won't if they keep popping up back (less than a year to return).
I left the doctors office and started to drive home and had to pull over when reality hit me. I sobbed. And sobbed. I finally made it home and completely broke down. I've ranted, raved, cried, blubbered, hyperventilated and sobbed until I couldn't breathe. The reality is still there. It's in there. It will grow as large or larger than the other. Its causing me pain and will have to come out no matter what and it will probably take 3-5 months to get the surgery booked and even if we get it out another might come back and I might never have a baby.
And that's where I'm at.
My gyro is on vacation for March break. He's back on the 22nd so I'll call his office then and try to get an appointment.