A group for TTC#1 and had more than one loss?

[Neversaynever]

I'm sorry I am going to try and reply but can't remember exactly who these things relate to sorry

AJ I think...I'm sorry that DTD has added issues becuase of his health. If it is any consolation (althiugh I am sure it isn't) me and OH battle EVERY month when it comes to DTD. We have never been quantity more like quality and since we met, I have put on 4 stones in weight (14 pounds per stone) and lost three babies this year. He has back, knee and ankle issues and is due to have a knee op on the 5th of December so you can see how that has killed any of his desire to want to have sex with me. Along with the pressure to perform

We have tried OPK's and me not telling him...didn't work. We have tried me putting it on the calendar...didn't work. The last two time I got pregant I didn;t OPK, I just went with the flow and thought f**k it and it happened but they didn't last

I just hope you find a solution that works for you both

Lexi...how's the hag treating you?

RM...good to see you being positive

Lady...happy anniversary and I hope you had fun

Beach...good to hear all on track

Tweak..good to see a positive OPK and get

Mpepe..how are you getting on?

JW..start of the TWW good to see you holding up ok

NTAT...

Pink...

I am sure I have missed people sorry

AFM...still waiting for it to actually happen, my beta on Tuesday was 100.8 and progesterone was 75.2 or 72.5 so Iit's just a waiting game now. I tested with a HPT yesterday morning and the line was barely visible...one you would be jumping up and down with at 10 DPO

Next step is to go and start the ball rolling for testing, rebook in for counselling and lose more weight. TTC is going on the back burner for a while.

Thank you for all of your support

XxX

 

[patiently]

NSN how many weeks are you? your progesterone levels are great!!! you never know things can still be great...you cant really base how things are on one beta result you need to do another to compare...even slow rising betas turn out to be healthy pregnancies...dont give up hope..fingers crossed or you

AFM ladies i give up i have been stalking this thread but all this ttc is driving me insane and im constantly stressed out...i am going to take a break from it all just cant cope anymore and i believe my aunt is pregnant too just want to run away from it all...

wish you all the best of luck hope you get your bfp's and have healthy pregnancies...ill probably check in now and then to see how you all are..good luck x

 

[Neversaynever]

Patiently...I have had bouts of bleeding and cramping the entire time and the HPT's are negative so although I still am waiting for my other beta numbers..it'll only be to confirm the obvious

I'm sorry you are struggling with all this, it really is a stress unlike any other

Take all the time you need, please be kind to yourself and you can always PM me if you want

XxX

 

[mpepe32]

hi everyone

patiently - totally understand everyone needs breaks

Never - ur prog levels look great though, f'x for you still

AFM -I'm pretty bummed out today as well, just thinking about another Christmas without a bean DH asks why things are so hard for us all the time and I no longer have the answers. Watching the news last night, heard a little girl 3 years old fell off a balcony and dies. DH said if she was with us, that would never have happened. My dad has parkinsons and I really wanted to give both my parents the joy of a grandchild bc I'm the only one. And plus my grandmother who lives in Rome, Italy is not doing well - granted she is 106 but I would be devastated if anything happened to her

 

[Tweak0605]

patiently - I'm so sorry you're struggling. A break might be good - I've tried taking many breaks but always come back. I hope you can take the time away to feel better about it all.

mpepe - I'm sorry I'm starting to struggle more that its the holiday season. Knowing all the 1st we should be celebrating right now (Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas) is really hurting sometimes. I have good and bad days. Hopefully we can both get our BFPs before Christmas. I have a great-grandmother who's in her 90s, and I was really hoping to give her a great-great-grandchild. She's not doing as well as in the past, so I hope I can still give her that

 

[mpepe32]

patiently - I'm so sorry you're struggling. A break might be good - I've tried taking many breaks but always come back. I hope you can take the time away to feel better about it all.

mpepe - I'm sorry I'm starting to struggle more that its the holiday season. Knowing all the 1st we should be celebrating right now (Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas) is really hurting sometimes. I have good and bad days. Hopefully we can both get our BFPs before Christmas. I have a great-grandmother who's in her 90s, and I was really hoping to give her a great-great-grandchild. She's not doing as well as in the past, so I hope I can still give her that

thanks tweak. I hope we get sticky bfp's by Christmas. But I do admit to loosing hope. I'm 36, I have MS, depression, endometriosis and when tested, my antral follicle count was low, dr. said my eggs are older than me. I just don't know or understandwhy things happen the way they do. Trying progesterone a few days after O is my last chance, after that I give up.I really hope ur great great grandmother gets to meet your rainbow baby soon

 

[lexi374]

Hey ladies every1 seems really down at the mo and im no different, must be the joys of xmas!

I feel so moody and fed up at the moment and im snapping dhs head off at the least little thing. I had to take myself of for a walk into town earlier just to get away and get out, and ive barely spoken since i got back! Im just so angry and i dont really know whats triggered it?! Bloody hormones i suppose and that fact that its yet another year i can write of as being shit!

When are we gonna get a break!?!

Mpepe im the only 1 too, my parents are getting on as they had me in their late 30's and dad has just started dialysis, so i can relate to what you are saying x

Patiently if you are lurking i get where you're coming from x

Tweak lets hope next xmas we have that baby! x

AJ i also use fertility friend and temp x

Lady, raspberry, beach doin ok? x

pink, momy, jw, ntat, fili, and any1 i missed sorry x

Nsn xxx

 

[filipenko32]

Neversaynever, I'm so sorry you're going through all this again, I know your pain. We just have to keep trying and keep going we WILL get there!!!
x x x

I don't know if I mentioned this on this post, I get confused! The chromosome results for the last fetus were normal. It was a boy that got to nearly 9 weeks in the end. For my next pregnancy I am going to have the works in drugs so blood thinning injections and steroids (to supress the immune system). I was devastated to learn that I lost a normal pregnancy though

 

[filipenko32]

pepe32 please don't lose hope!!! If you've still got eggs you can still get pregnant. I have heard every story now of low afc, low AMH, high FSH women who have ALL this and are over 40 and have healthy babies. You are no way too old at 36. You're getting pregnant and you just need a bit of luck. Have you had any tests done?

 

[filipenko32]

lexi you have a brilliant memory, I can't remember where I've posted!! Wish it was 'pregnancy brain' but sadly no... not yet anyway!!

 

[mpepe32]

pepe32 please don't lose hope!!! If you've still got eggs you can still get pregnant. I have heard every story now of low afc, low AMH, high FSH women who have ALL this and are over 40 and have healthy babies. You are no way too old at 36. You're getting pregnant and you just need a bit of luck. Have you had any tests done?

Thanks filipenko for your supportive words, I had all the testing except karyotyping. Dh and I decided we didn't want to do genetic testing bc firstly, I have heard of women that despite genetic issues, still carried healthy babies, second, even if there was a problem, pregentic screening would be usless, bc I'm not going through ivf and would not be able to take fertility drugs bc it would make the endo worse and lastly, ignorance is bliss at times and dh and I have enough on our plate to disappoint us.
It saddens me to know you lost a normal baby I hope the additional meds next time around give you your forever baby

lexi - ditto for me too for another sh*t year, hope u feel better soon

 

[justwaiting]

Hi ladies,
we all seem a bit low at the moment. Christmas is hard when we all planned on holding a baby in our arms or in our belly at this time.
This year has definetly sucked for all of us and only 5 more weeks until it's over, thank f*ck.

Patiently - take all the time u need, we will be waiting when u get back with open arms! xx

Thinking of you all.

afm - 2nd edd today. not doing so well but I'll do some crying and some sleeping and a good dose of feeling sorry for myself and I'll be ok.

 

[filipenko32]

awww just waiting it is tough, really tough when the edd comes round. I blacked this out in my diary but i can still see the blackout and know what they are. Sending you lots of hugs x x x

 

[RaspberryMini]

A quick update, despite heaving my guts up this morning I've also started bleeding, no cramps yet but the blood flow is fairly heavy.

Think I need to step out of all this for while, it's emotionally too difficult.

Going to see if I can get in with my GP tomorrow - I don't want to go to my local EPAU as I had a horrendous experience there last time. Just going to let nature take its course, it's going to be a long day.

Hope everyone else is ok.

 

[Neversaynever]

RM...massive I know the dread you are feeling and I'm not going to pretend that everything will be ok...I am just hoping that maybe this is just a bleed and nothing more hun. I know what I mean, hope it hasn't come across harsh

XxX

 

[lexi374]

Raspberry thinking of you xxx

 

[lexi374]

JW hope you are doing ok today, dates are hard.... just another reminder for us, as if we need it!

 

[Ladyfog]

Just popped in as I'm still at my sisters in Brighton. Massive to everyone - we all sound like we're in a sad place at the moment.

RM - I really hope all turns out to be OK. Hopefully your experience at the EPAU will not be as bad this time and fingers crossed it will be good news, but we've all been there and know how awful it is. People do bleed and it can be OK, but if not just know that we're all thinking of you .

NSN - Glad your holding up OK, and thinking of you lots too .

JW - EDDs are so hard. I stopped putting anything in my diary after the first MC as I just couldn't cope with the reminders. It's a hard day to get through, but you'll feel better when it's passed hopefully .

Everyone else . Christmas is such a hard time for us but we will all get there and have those Christmases we all dream of one day.

AFM, scan tomorrow. Dreading it and just wish they could do it without me being there! It will wither be the best or worst day. Either way, I think I'll just be glad when it's over. Still feeling icky though so hoping that's a good sign, but know there are no guarantees.

 

[lexi374]

Good luck for tomorrow lady x

 

[BeachChica]

Oh no RM - I am hoping its nothing.

Lady - Good luck tomorrow. Keep us posted!