~ Anorexia, Bulimia & Eating Disorder Support Thread ~

[9babiesgone]

I hope the same for you!!! xxxx You are very much cared for.

 

[Sarah10]

You just made my evening! xx

 

[9babiesgone]

I am glad I could have made your evening. You deserve only the best in life. xxxx

 

[Groovychick]

For the first time in ages today, I actually felt happy. It felt weird!

 

[9babiesgone]

OMGosh glad to hear it groovychick, hope you have a ton more happy feelings. : )

 

[Sarah10]

Yayy for happiness!! Doing ok, but o/h took a pic of me and jayden and my god i look horrendous, so it was triggering. hope you both are ok xx

 

[louandivy]

Is it fucked up that I make myself feel better by promising that I can go back to the anorexia once Ivy is at an age that I can guarantee that I've done everything I can to prevent her from having eating issues? I miss my eating disorder like its an old friend. Its so hard to remember all the awful things about it, all I can think about is the way it made me feel light and free.

 

[Sarah10]

Is it fucked up that I make myself feel better by promising that I can go back to the anorexia once Ivy is at an age that I can guarantee that I've done everything I can to prevent her from having eating issues? I miss my eating disorder like its an old friend. Its so hard to remember all the awful things about it, all I can think about is the way it made me feel light and free.

no i think it's normal, you know, when you are have 'recovered' there may always be that voice that returns telling you that you can go back to it..

xxx

 

[Drazic<3]

Is it fucked up that I make myself feel better by promising that I can go back to the anorexia once Ivy is at an age that I can guarantee that I've done everything I can to prevent her from having eating issues? I miss my eating disorder like its an old friend. Its so hard to remember all the awful things about it, all I can think about is the way it made me feel light and free.

No, it's not bad hun. I am so scared of Melly getting sick too, and getting messed up with her eating, but I don't know that I'm strong enough to save myself for her. I miss my ED too. I felt secure and focused and free. But I think you get rose tinted glasses too, because a big part of me knows that it was actually fucking horrible being so utterly obsessed, it never being enough, being so scared and so hungry. I think remembering it as special is part of the problem. Sending chick -x-

 

[Sarah10]

You're wondering why you're exhausted, exhausted from using these lies
I'm sure you'll regress again

why do these lyrics stand out..

 

[Groovychick]

Fight those feelings hun.

 

[9babiesgone]

really really hungry, hate being this hungry. Makes me feel like crap!

 

[Groovychick]

Why not try a piece of fruit hun?

 

[9babiesgone]

yeah I think I will eat an apple!!

 

[Sarah10]

Such a shit day, i cut, and although it's not ED related as such, i've fucked up big time, i haven't done it since 2009, it all got too much, i nearly stopped o.h going to a gig because i couldn't handle jayden crying. He went anyway so i feel better, though he got there 1/2 hour later than when it started. I'm scared he's going to leave me, he said i'm boring lately. I'm dying for a new set of scales, mine are broke and ive no idea how much i weigh and its really getting me down, but i have to fork out for Chase's vaccinations (dog) and we are going away in 5 week so i need every penny i've got. AHHHHHHHH i give up.

 

[Sarah10]

another shat day, just binged.

 

[rockys-mumma]

chin up hunnie I bet your still beautiful xx

 

[Sarah10]

Thanks hun, hope you are ok xXx

 

[9babiesgone]

its ok sarah!! You are beautiful!!!

 

[Sarah10]

Thankyou xxx so are you