~ Anorexia, Bulimia & Eating Disorder Support Thread ~

[_laura]

Yeah living at home made it so much worse, I'd get my mum going 'dont eat as much, youll get fat' then 2 days later going 'youre so fat laura, stop eating so much'

god my mums hardly slim.

 

[Sarah10]

Mine made me huge meals then moaned if i gave it to the dog, though that wasn't really the cause of this, it was because i was bullied at school for other reasons kids can be cruel, and they didn't give a shit, found out i s/h and told me to kill myself. yayy go parents!!

 

[_laura]

haha i know i wont raise LO the way i was raised when it comes to food

 

[Sarah10]

Lol yep, i was brought up on so much junk, i don't think i ate a piece of fruit/veg for about 10years lol. Btw i added you on fb

 

[Rin731]

another shat day, just binged.

 

[Rin731]

Ugh. Why do I do this? I think probably we all do at some point, but i have a bunch of Medium and Large shirts in my dresser. And I am a 1X. In an attempt to lose weight (and save money!) I have only gotten 5 or so 1X shirts...and they are all in the dirty hamper.

So now I"m dragging SM/MD/LG -es out of the dresser trying them on and freaking out. I was so thin this time last year. I am having a really rough time.

We also found out we can't get a house for 1-3 yrs, plus we're NTNP and DH says if it doesn't happen, even if he gets a promotion and insurance, I have to wait til we get a house and/or he's done with grad school (2 yrs) to go get bloodwork and really TTC.

So all in all I've been pretty down and triggered. My DH says he feels so helpless, and asks what he can do and all I can say is "Love me." I feel even more like a loser and failure then, and triggered to not eat, or cut. :/


Sorry it's so long and moany.

 

[Sarah10]

You aren't a failure hun, how are you now? xx

 

[Rin731]

You aren't a failure hun, how are you now? xx

Alright. Looking at photos of thin women online, and beating myself up on purpose...and thinking about how much I'd have to lose to look like that....and planning on restricting...so maybe not so alright...

 

[Sarah10]

Alot of them are airbrushed though xxxx

 

[Rin731]

Alot of them are airbrushed though xxxx

I know. I'll be okay. I hate when my self loathing takes control.

How are you?

 

[_laura]

I actually sit there in class and airbrush women to look like that then still beat myself up that they look so damn gorgeous!

 

[rockys-mumma]

 

[Phantom]

I just had my LAST therapy appointment. I graduated University so they will no longer provide care for me.

Can I do this on my own? After 10 years of help from various people... this is definitely the most challenging time in my life ever. It's all for you, little one.

 

[Rin731]

I just had my LAST therapy appointment. I graduated University so they will no longer provide care for me.

Can I do this on my own? After 10 years of help from various people... this is definitely the most challenging time in my life ever. It's all for you, little one.

 

[annawrigley]

I just had my LAST therapy appointment. I graduated University so they will no longer provide care for me.

Can I do this on my own? After 10 years of help from various people... this is definitely the most challenging time in my life ever. It's all for you, little one.

You can do it

 

[9babiesgone]

i hate feeling fat

 

[louandivy]

I just had my LAST therapy appointment. I graduated University so they will no longer provide care for me.

Can I do this on my own? After 10 years of help from various people... this is definitely the most challenging time in my life ever. It's all for you, little one.

Its going to be really difficult but you can do it! I was in and out of inpatient and outpatient treatment for years but I only started making real progress when I knew my beautiful little girl was growing inside me. Eating disorders and parenthood do not mix, I just know I can't give up the fight because if I let anorexia become my whole world again then when will I truly have time to focus on my daughter? Eating disorders are just too all-consuming, I found the more weight I lost the more of my life I lost too! Sorry for rambling, but I have every faith that you CAN do it. Feel the fear and do it anyway

 

[Drazic<3]

Edit.

 

[Rin731]

i hate feeling fat

I AM fat, which is worse. I honestly have at least 50 lbs to lose, honestly more like 70. I am so scared of being fat, cause I am, and I hate it!!!

 

[9babiesgone]

awee sweetie you are not fat! we all have our feelings of "fat" but they arent accurate! You are beautiful!! *hugs*