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Preface by saying I am happy that I am expecting again - because well, if dd got through diapers I don't think I'd ever want to be pregnant again and go through the stages again.
I'm selfish!! I want to be in good shape and feel "pretty" and look in the mirror with some sense of pride.. That being said here goes -
dd is 4.5 months and I am 8-9 weeks pg -
I still have linea nigra from dd. I didn't get this till 8 months with dd - but yep, it's still there.
My bbs are smaller than they were - which was pretty difficult. You know how some women get nice big ones with each pregnancy? Well mine shrivel up - I'm still a B cup but a super small one.
I can't focus on being pregnant - I'm still reliving the labour horrors of dd.
I feel like I've just been pregnant. DUH!! I have..
Still an extra 10 lbs lingering.. Yeah other ppl think it's no big deal, but for me IT IS!!
Buying baby clothes? Ugh -- I just did allllllll of that..
This is a big one - I'm just going down a list from my tired brain...
I SH** myself. Yep ladies, it's true.. I have pp fecal incontinence.. I haven't been to OB about it, I didn't go to 6 week appt.. I don't have a sitter and I have 2 kids all day so I have NO time for me.. I apparently pulled a muscle or just lost a muscle of some kind during labour and I have minimal control over my bowels - combined with pregnant diarrhea it's been really awesome (sarcasm)..
DH and I don't have sex so you'd wonder how I could have 2 babies in under a year.. DH and I haven't dtd since the ONE time we dtd and got pregnant this time around.. So yeah twice in 4.5 months.. Super awesome... (sarcasm again)
Tired is the name of the game.. I may no longer be tired in ummm, 2017??
Yep these are all first world problems - I know this.. Again, I am happy it's now because I wouldn't want to try again in 2/3 years..
BTW - Getting fixed as soon as baby#3 arrives. I will find the time for that appt..
Last pg I had goals each trimester - if I could make it to 20 weeks, then 25 then 30 etc.. My new goal is March 2015 - that's about the next time I want to focus on this pg..
Thanks for reading ladies.
Edited to add: I'm sorta tired of being ok.. I feel like I "have to" be ok because I keep things running. DH and I don't talk about how I feel - I'm not the sad type but more bitchy than anything. Even still, I feel like I'm expected to just get on with things all the time and there is NO time for me. DH went back to work a week after dd was born (he was off that week due to injury) and since then it's just me. He helps - he is helpful, but I can't help but want to say "you couldn't do what I do for a day".... Add to stresses, first tri kicking my butt in terms of tiredness - but nope, I'm not supposed to be tired.. fake it till you make it..
I'm selfish!! I want to be in good shape and feel "pretty" and look in the mirror with some sense of pride.. That being said here goes -
dd is 4.5 months and I am 8-9 weeks pg -
I still have linea nigra from dd. I didn't get this till 8 months with dd - but yep, it's still there.
My bbs are smaller than they were - which was pretty difficult. You know how some women get nice big ones with each pregnancy? Well mine shrivel up - I'm still a B cup but a super small one.
I can't focus on being pregnant - I'm still reliving the labour horrors of dd.
I feel like I've just been pregnant. DUH!! I have..
Still an extra 10 lbs lingering.. Yeah other ppl think it's no big deal, but for me IT IS!!
Buying baby clothes? Ugh -- I just did allllllll of that..
This is a big one - I'm just going down a list from my tired brain...
I SH** myself. Yep ladies, it's true.. I have pp fecal incontinence.. I haven't been to OB about it, I didn't go to 6 week appt.. I don't have a sitter and I have 2 kids all day so I have NO time for me.. I apparently pulled a muscle or just lost a muscle of some kind during labour and I have minimal control over my bowels - combined with pregnant diarrhea it's been really awesome (sarcasm)..
DH and I don't have sex so you'd wonder how I could have 2 babies in under a year.. DH and I haven't dtd since the ONE time we dtd and got pregnant this time around.. So yeah twice in 4.5 months.. Super awesome... (sarcasm again)
Tired is the name of the game.. I may no longer be tired in ummm, 2017??
Yep these are all first world problems - I know this.. Again, I am happy it's now because I wouldn't want to try again in 2/3 years..
BTW - Getting fixed as soon as baby#3 arrives. I will find the time for that appt..
Last pg I had goals each trimester - if I could make it to 20 weeks, then 25 then 30 etc.. My new goal is March 2015 - that's about the next time I want to focus on this pg..
Thanks for reading ladies.
Edited to add: I'm sorta tired of being ok.. I feel like I "have to" be ok because I keep things running. DH and I don't talk about how I feel - I'm not the sad type but more bitchy than anything. Even still, I feel like I'm expected to just get on with things all the time and there is NO time for me. DH went back to work a week after dd was born (he was off that week due to injury) and since then it's just me. He helps - he is helpful, but I can't help but want to say "you couldn't do what I do for a day".... Add to stresses, first tri kicking my butt in terms of tiredness - but nope, I'm not supposed to be tired.. fake it till you make it..