Anyone LTTTC Number One?

[pbl_ge]

Hi Ladies,

Is this still an active thread? Over a week since last post, so I'm not sure. I'm looking for a thread like this--OH and I have been trying for #1 for over a year now, and apparently we're going to need some intervention. This is my first month on Femara, and it didn't seem to do anything for me at all. Next month will be a break as I get a lap/hystero. I think the doc will want one more Femara month to see if I get a better response, then it's on to injectables. Who knows after that?

Anyway, seems like many of you have gotten sticky bfps, which is wonderful! I hope the rest of us can follow you soon!

 

[Feisty Fidget]

Hi pbl_ge :waves:

I think we are usually quite active over hear, but we have dwindled down to the last few of us. Most of our original gang have been lucky enough to move onto sticky and although we are over-joyed it is also very saddening and depressing for those of us left behind. Nothing to make you feel like a failure than being picked last for something

Fingers crossed we will all manage to pick ourselves up from being so glum and get back to being more active

I see you've only just hit your one year mark, but guessing that testing has been brought in earlier due to age?

 

[Ella_Hopeful]

Welcome

Yes, recently there has been a lot of good news on this thread... and good news is good news, but it just makes you feel like it's never gonna be you... if you know what I mean...

Anyway, I'm Ella, and I'm on my 21st cycle TTC - 4th month of 25mg clomid. Awaiting a laparoscopy in the next couple of months to find out if I have endometriosis, which I think I do have. After that, like you said, who knows?

Anyway, I hope your stay here is short and sweet!

 

[ickle pand]

I'm one of the lucky ladies who got their BFP, after over 5 years of TTC. I don't post here too often since most of my news is pregnancy related and would be really insensitive but I do lurk so I can congratulate/commiserate with the ladies here.

 

[pbl_ge]

Thanks for your responses, ladies! Feisty and Ella--so sorry you're still here after such a long time. This TTC crap is just not fair. Lovely ladies like Ickle give us some hope, though, yes? Five years?! Congratulations to you!

Feisty, yes they did the testing early because of my age. Within the US, I'm lucky enough to have insurance that will cover I/F testing and treatment, so I went to the RE quickly. The costs are appalling, so I can't imagine having to pay for it all out of pocket. What's your current approach?

Ella, I hope the clomid works for you so you don't have the lap. My first round of Femara (just ending now) was a big bust. However, others who have had the lap keep telling me great things though--if either of us do have endo (or other solvable problems), it can really help bring on the bfp. I'm trying to psych myself up for it.

Since my post a few days ago, another LTTTC #1 thread has been started, which seems like a great group of ladies. Not sure what that means.

to you all.

 

[Feisty Fidget]

Since my post a few days ago, another LTTTC #1 thread has been started, which seems like a great group of ladies. Not sure what that means.

Now that really does suck, we've even been replaced on the LTTTC board! I have to say that this is the one area I never wanted to become a veteran of

Technically both myself and DH are fine fertility wise - all the NHS basic tests haven't revealed a problem. Back in 2010 when we were 6 months in I did OPKs and 21 day bloods which revealed I wasn't ovulating. I was put on clomid and fell pregnant the first month which we lost. I then took clomid for 8 more months - nothing. After a battle with the NHS over further testing (I was only 25 and they don't accept you until you reach 30) my fertility specialist told me to try the clomid for a final time (had stopped taking it for about 6 months before) it worked again, but sadly we lost baba.

We've had to put ttc on hold for health problems for the last year and are starting to look forward to trying again in the next few months. I have one more round of clomid left that the specialist doesn't know about - I'm not sure if I'm going to take it as already at a high risk of cervical cancer due to previous 11 cycles of clomid. We have been ditched by the NHS and told to proceed with private IVF - they suggested egg donating to make it cheaper.

 

[pbl_ge]

Feisty, would you consider something besides Clomid? Femara or injectables? The long-term effects of using Clomid sound scary and potentially self-defeating (lining thinning) to me. Although yours has been spaced out a lot, so perhaps it's not bad? And first months on Clomid do seem to work for you!

Sending you lots of dust!

 

[Ella_Hopeful]

Wooh I had 3 follicles today. First time ever! One was 15mm and the others were 13mm, so I imagine only the 15mm will grow, but still nice to see more than one. Clomid has made some sort of difference then! Lining is a bit thin though, only 5mm at the moment. Was 7mm two days ago :S

 

[Feisty Fidget]

Ella yay for the two follies, but boo for the lining.

Are you taking supplements to help thicken it? It's been a few years since I was doing it, but I'm pretty sure I took EVP and starflower oil up until ovulation for lining

 

[Ella_Hopeful]

It's the first month the lining hasn't been good. Should have known because AF keeps sticking around for less time. Which I kind of enjoy! Used to have 7 heavy days, now 4 and a half normal days... I feel like a different person!

Good to know about the supplements! I'm going to be taking a break from clomid for my lap. next month so hopefully my lining will build up again, it used to be too thick... 15mm by ovulation..... but will keep the supplements in mind if I take clomid again!

 

[fisher640]

Welcome Pbl!
Like Ickle I also continue to lurk because the ladies on here are the best group ever! DH and I were LTTTC about 4 years and finally had luck with our 5th IUI. I wish you the best! Feisty is the founder of the group.

 

[Feisty Fidget]

Nothing like having the originals to spur us on x

 

[OperationBbyO]

HI to the newbie! I lurk here but I don't post much anymore since I did get my BFP. I was on the middle dose of Femara (7.5 mg I think? I've blocked it out.)

Anyway, it took us several cycles on Femara and we actually had an appointment with a new RE and bam, preggo 1/1/13.

I still cheery everyone here on but I do so in silence!

 

[Ducktales]

Hiya
After nearly 4 years of TTC we had ivf and icsi and I am 12 weeks pregnant
It feels so much more special knowing the path and misery it has taken to get us where we are today
Good luck to everyone it can and it will happen
Lots of love
Xxxxx

 

[Tasha16]

Hi everybody and welcome to the newbie I also don't post very often anymore I am now 38wks pregnant after 4 years of trying with 4 mc's and 1 ectopic. I also couldn't get pregnant for the last two years and was referred for ivf but then found out I was pregnant naturally after our first consultation so please don't give up hope xx

I'm so sorry Ash, thinking of you and I have sent u a friend request on fb my name is Natasha Marais and my profile pic is my fiancé and me (if anybody else wants to add me) xx

 

[pbl_ge]

Wow, lots of success stories!!! So happy for all of you!

 

[Feisty Fidget]

I feel very encouraged

 

[ESwemba84]

I used to post here a while ago, but somehow I got unsubscribed....

Anyway, I'm currently in the TWW of my first Femara/Ovidrel/Progesterone cycle. I test in 6 days!

Lately I've been having an issue. And I hope it's ok to put it out here, as the group name is LTTTC #1, and I feel like those moms who have already given birth to a child tend to get offended when I bring this up.

So, I understand secondary infertility must be hard, no doubt. I really am not discounting their struggles to conceive. BUT, I feel that those of us who have not had the experience of a full term pregnancy, feeling the baby move inside, all those milestones during pregnancy, and then the experience of having a baby, and taking care of that baby, and experiencing the unconditional love of that baby, we have this extra void and emptiness inside. I have just longed for over 5 years to know what that's like, and each cycle I lose a little hope that I'll ever know. I feel selfish for even thinking moms with secondary infertility should already be grateful for what they have, but I do think that. I guess the reason I'm having this issue lately is because I got kinda put in my place by a mom with 2 kids who has secondary, letting me know that secondary infertility hurts too after I said I felt uncomfortable with babies in the waiting room of my infertility doctor, and I just felt she had no place to tell me that, because she has no idea what it's like to not even have one.

I don't know, I'd like your input on this. Maybe I could use another perspective.

 

[ickle pand]

I'm currently pregnant with number 1 and I totally understand this. Not having another child to complete your family is understandably painful but it's nothing compared to the pain of never having your own child. I think she was really rude to have a go at you for that. If you've never been in the situation then you can't begin to understand how someone might feel. Taking kids to a fertility clinic is really insensitive, and you'd hope that most clinics would discourage it.

Good luck for testing. I hope this is the one for you.

 

[Ella_Hopeful]

I know what you mean... it's like something is missing that you've never experienced. Like a whole world you can't be a part of... a whole word you're excluded from... and not because you don't want to be included... it's like trying to get into an exclusive club that all your friends and family got into easily, but you're left outside it...banging on the door as hard as you can but not being allowed in.

Secondary IF must hurt, I'm sure.

But not knowing anything about what it feels like to grow a baby and nurse a baby... it doesn't compare... not that the other doesn't hurt... but that feeling of never knowing if it will happen and wanting it so, so much...

Sorry I can't encourage you out of it, I feel the same way. Especially as my sister-in-law is 6 months pregnant and spends every day talking about all she wants is to be a mother, and there is nothing like it... and nothing like growing a child that looks like you and the person you love...

Good luck with your TWW!