Oh dear, I've been gone a while it seems!
to those the
got, GL to those waiting, and fx'd to those who have upcoming tests/labs/cycles to do
SA was done and the numbers aren't great, but I keep trying to rationalize it: It's the holidays so it's stressful anyway, he's been working like 55-60/week which is stressful, the SA was put back 2 weeks so
that was stressful, his job is transitioning (the company got bought out) so
that is stressful too! Not to mention just the whole ttc business anyway
So I'm hoping that his results being not great are just an extension of the stress that's been happening and not an actual problem...
I still have to call the insurance company
I'm just afraid I'm going to call and they will still say 0% (though yes, yes I know that it just puts me back in the same position, but it's nice to hope). Though I talked to my mom (
finally) that we are ttc and actually ltttc/having for realsie issues with it and she was quite a bit, scratch that, LOT more understanding than I would have assumed she would be
but it is nice to talk to her and I also found out she had secondary infertility (took 2 years to conceive my sister which is one reason we are so far apart in ages: I'm 23, she's 15 next month). I am quite relieved that I told her though, it's nice chatting on here and such (you ladies are SUPER supportive) but it's something different actually talking in person with someone. Annnnd she said to call
her insurance company because I might be covered under hers since I'm on it (or double covered if both cover it).
As of right now though, DH and I have (semi) decided that I will finish my two rounds of Clomid left (I mean, I have the rx, might as well use it lol) and then we will move onto ntnp until a later to be determined date when we can get the HSG done and also do a retest on his SA.
I honestly never thought I would be at this point; contemplating expensive procedures, getting ready to duke it out with the insurance companies, buying books on coping with infertility, telling your parents (in a very melodramatic way) they may never have biological grandchildren from us. This time last year I was so hopeful, I knew it would happen soon and I was actually scared I was going to be pregnant on my honeymoon, Oh how wrong I was.. This month marks 1 year/17 cycles... sighhhhhh..
Sorry for such a depressing post it's just everything decided to happen all within the last month and it's all a bit overwhelming