Anyone TTC #1 and 30 or older?

[MrsRose168]

FX star_e that your follies will be matured soon enough so that you can be on your merry way!

I caved and took another Wondfo today (was only planning on testing every two days till I run out). I've been obsessing over whether it's darker than yesterday and have been comparing it to day-to-day changes on pics that I Google. What do you guys think? I just want to be past the point it went downhill last time.

Your lines are getting darker but those aren't great for progression. Maybe you can get some FRERs? The progression is a lot easier to see and may help give you some peace of mind. Only a few more days til you make it past last time! The furthest I made it was 23dpo, which will be on Saturday so that will be a big milestone for me.

 

[MrsRose168]

My temps are still up there, got a little rise today (instead of staying flat) which was nice. Have a very strong urge to test this cycle, but managed to avoid it this morning. Not sure how long I'll make it though.

Star - hopefully the injections work, but if not then at least you'll be able to start early next cycle. It's nie that you didn't have to wait a whole year before they started you on clomid and injections and stuff. My sister has PCOS and they won't even refer her to the fertility clinic until 1 year, even though she's not ovulating at all and she hasn't ovulated since October. :/


Jezika - looks like they are getting darker. I think there's progression. You're at 14DPO? So it might not get way darker for a little while yet. I can't remember exactly how far along you were last time, do you have far to go?

Glad to see your temps went up a bit! Do you have a goal date for when you want to test? I know it's so hard to wait!

 

[MrsRose168]

Hi ladies, wondering if I can join? I know a couple of you from another thread but here's a little bit about me - I'm 30, DH 34 we got our first bfp at the beginning of Jan on our 3rd attempt. Unfortunately I had some spotting and had an emergency scan at 10 weeks only to find an empty sac. I had an ERPC at the beginning of March and now we are sort of back to TTC.

Jezika - totally understand the line progression obsession. I did the same until I'd used all my tests. Think I got to 23dpo before I ran out! Try not to stress though because they can fluctuate. I was daft and tested everyday, even did 2 a day a couple of times not a good idea as they were fainter during the day! How many do you have left?

Welcome, MrsUnicorn! I'm so sorry you have to be here. I hope you get your BFP soon.

 

[mrs unicorn]

Thanks MrsRose and congratulations to you!!

I'm 7 DPO and soooo fed up of the TWW. I'd forgotten how much I hate it!

 

[Jezika]

MrsRose - I posted today's progression to the December thread and also asked you a question there that you kind of unwittingly answered here, so thanks! And I did look for some FRERs yesterday but the ones I wanted were sold out. Might look in a different place today.

 

[Angel5000]

I'm only 7DPO and I am so annoyed with the waiting. I want to test already!

MrsRose - my goal is to hold off until 10DPO before I test, but I don't know if I'll make it that far.

 

[Jezika]

Angel, your LP is about 11 days? I think 10DPO is a good time to start testing. FX for you!

 

[star_e]

im so sad right now. first off, i am in pain because of the injections. i was exercising yesterday and had to stop because of the discomfort. i thought maybe that was a good sign, thinking maybe the follies were growing. went in today and the biggest follicle that was at 12mm has stayed at 12mm. it did not grow at all with the four shots!

so the RE suggested doing another four injections and told me to come in on friday for another u/s. she said sometimes it just takes a few more days. i was so sad. i mean, i thought it would at least grow a little, at least to 14 or 16. for it to have stayed the same makes me so very worried. i have another set of four shots and will start one of them tonight. its so uncomfortable. i feel very sore, and its just this chronic pain at the injection areas. the u/s was so uncomfortable today.

apparently they have me on a low does of the injections b/c they are worried about overstimulating. in my very negative mind right now, i wonder if my ovaries can even be overstimulated.

i feel terrible. i have to do more injections. and i really do not believe i will be reporting good news on here on friday. i really dont. im scared right now. im scared that something is just seriously wrong with my follies, that they just wont grow.

 

[Jezika]

Oh, Star_e, I'm so sorry you're feeling defeated and in such pain with the injections. I can only imagine how disappointing it must have been to hear that they've no grown at all, and then to have to do more of those uncomfortable injections. It does sound like maybe they were being a bit conservative to begin with, presumably because overstimulation would be bad, and maybe now that they know that there wasn't any growth the extra four days will do the trick? If the RE didn't seem surprised about the lack of growth and said that it sometimes happens, hopefully that indicates everything is still more than fine. It's horrible to have to keep going with the injections, but hopefully it will make the difference and you will be pleasantly surprised by Friday. It's probably impossible right now, but try to remain positive! I feel like a lot of this is trial and error so the RE has been playing it safe, but if they're confident that it'll happen in time, I'd trust that. Lots of hugs for you

 

[MrsRose168]

im so sad right now. first off, i am in pain because of the injections. i was exercising yesterday and had to stop because of the discomfort. i thought maybe that was a good sign, thinking maybe the follies were growing. went in today and the biggest follicle that was at 12mm has stayed at 12mm. it did not grow at all with the four shots!

so the RE suggested doing another four injections and told me to come in on friday for another u/s. she said sometimes it just takes a few more days. i was so sad. i mean, i thought it would at least grow a little, at least to 14 or 16. for it to have stayed the same makes me so very worried. i have another set of four shots and will start one of them tonight. its so uncomfortable. i feel very sore, and its just this chronic pain at the injection areas. the u/s was so uncomfortable today.

apparently they have me on a low does of the injections b/c they are worried about overstimulating. in my very negative mind right now, i wonder if my ovaries can even be overstimulated.

i feel terrible. i have to do more injections. and i really do not believe i will be reporting good news on here on friday. i really dont. im scared right now. im scared that something is just seriously wrong with my follies, that they just wont grow.

I'm sorry your follies didn't get bigger But, it sounds like your has a good plan of action and has your best interests at heart. As Jezika mentioned, sometimes doctors have to play around with different dosages and meds to figure out what works best for you. I'm sure you'll get there soon!

 

[star_e]

she has actually kept me on the same dose for the the next four days. and if it does not work we will cancel the cycle and start fresh with next cycle. apparently some people need 14+ injections. I read a thread where some had to do them for 20 days. it depends on what protocol the doc is comfortable w. some want to start slow and do it for a long time and others start high and then scale back. from what I've read the problem is that they can be dormant and then suddenly wake up and too many are matured so the cycle is cancels. right now I can't imagine that happening for me. if Friday no growth I might just suggest starting w a higher dose next cycle. I hope I am able to O at some point. I hope I can have a chance. it's terrible that I have no chance bc I can't O.

thanks for the support! I really appreciate it.

 

[Jezika]

Star_e, do you know what the failure rate is? As in are there some women that it just doesn't work for, or is the worst case scenario that you have to have many, many rounds of injections?

 

[star_e]

that's a great question. I haven't asked. I've done research on response time and found out some people are just very slow responders. I'll ask the doc on Friday. I hope that I respond and that I don't eventually find out I just can't ovd. trying to stay positive but it's hard

 

[star_e]

today I went to bathroom and I saw what appeared to be ewcm. had I not had an us yesterday that showed only a 12mm follow I might have been excited. but I seriously doubt my one injection last night made that follow grow. as the four prior had done nothing. anyway I then realized it might be the ultra sound gel from yesterday coming out

I only saw it in the morning. it's completely gone. it was probably the gel. If on Friday they still haven't grown I'm going t be so very sad. will report as soon as I am able on Friday.

 

[Jezika]

Honestly, star_e, it sounds that, like most women in your boat, you will get there eventually. I absolutely understand how easy it is to feel hopeless when things haven't gone as planned (since my **one** CP, I am convinced my current pg will eventually end in an MC and that I can probably never have a successful pregnancy ever, even though I'm at 16DPO and have had very nice dark lines). But the route you're on has worked for many women in your situation (I'm guessing most or almost all, but it's worth checking), and a lot of those women went through the same thing as you, by the sound of things, i.e., having to go back for more. I'm willing to bet a LOT of money that you will ovulate sooner or later.

 

[star_e]

Honestly, star_e, it sounds that, like most women in your boat, you will get there eventually. I absolutely understand how easy it is to feel hopeless when things haven't gone as planned (since my **one** CP, I am convinced my current pg will eventually end in an MC and that I can probably never have a successful pregnancy ever, even though I'm at 16DPO and have had very nice dark lines). But the route you're on has worked for many women in your situation (I'm guessing most or almost all, but it's worth checking), and a lot of those women went through the same thing as you, by the sound of things, i.e., having to go back for more. I'm willing to bet a LOT of money that you will ovulate sooner or later.

awwww thank you! seriously this made me feel better!

i am sending you tons of positive energy so that you carry this baby to term. I completely understand your feelings. its scary to think of mcs. is your doc having you do progesterone suppositories. I've heard that's helpful to secure the pregnancy. though I may be mistaken. I sometimes get info messed up. when is your next appointment? do u get bw done soon? my fx that everything goes well for you. glad those lines are nice and dark!

 

[Angel5000]

Today when I checked my Cervix and CM I found some pink again. Not enough to really see on tP so I'm not calling it spotting, but it was def there when I checked cervix. This evening i checked again and there was nothing. So I'm not super concerned, but it is odd.

Jezika - Yeah, about 11 days, give or take a day. The last few months it's been a little inconsistent. I will probably test tomorrow, because, well, I will. But I'm going to TRY not to test until Friday or Saturday.


Star - Sorry to hear that they aren't growing. I agree with the ladies, sometimes doctors have to play with the dosages so hopefully they'll find the one that works for you.

 

[Jezika]

Star_e - I'm not planning on seeing doc for another week or so. They'll probably do bloodwork then but I didn't want to jump the gun and go to all these appts if it was gonna end in a CP anyway. Doc won't do anything to help me till I've had at least two CPs, though usually they wait for three. Seems so cruel. I did ask about progesterone cream, which is available OTC, but she advised against it because they don't know whether I actually need it or not. I was doing okay until tonight, when I started having lower back pain. I read a few other people's accounts of CP recently where it was preceded by lower back pain, just line mine had, and thought, "Gosh, I'm so glad I don't have that this time," and here I am the next day with lower back pain. Needless to say I feel really down and like it's definitely going to come to an end. This whole TTC journey is so damn hard...

 

[star_e]

Star_e - I'm not planning on seeing doc for another week or so. They'll probably do bloodwork then but I didn't want to jump the gun and go to all these appts if it was gonna end in a CP anyway. Doc won't do anything to help me till I've had at least two CPs, though usually they wait for three. Seems so cruel. I did ask about progesterone cream, which is available OTC, but she advised against it because they don't know whether I actually need it or not. I was doing okay until tonight, when I started having lower back pain. I read a few other people's accounts of CP recently where it was preceded by lower back pain, just line mine had, and thought, "Gosh, I'm so glad I don't have that this time," and here I am the next day with lower back pain. Needless to say I feel really down and like it's definitely going to come to an end. This whole TTC journey is so damn hard...

so i guess they think that helping or doing the progesterone could do more harm than good? wish there was a little security blanket of some sort they could offer you. this journey is definitely hard. i am hopeful for you b/c lower back pain could potentially apply in the reverse case too. maybe there are people with bfps that do not end in cp that have lower back pain. maybe its a positive sign. the waiting sucks and it seems like the days are 3x as long. my fx for you.

 

[star_e]

Today when I checked my Cervix and CM I found some pink again. Not enough to really see on tP so I'm not calling it spotting, but it was def there when I checked cervix. This evening i checked again and there was nothing. So I'm not super concerned, but it is odd.

Jezika - Yeah, about 11 days, give or take a day. The last few months it's been a little inconsistent. I will probably test tomorrow, because, well, I will. But I'm going to TRY not to test until Friday or Saturday.


Star - Sorry to hear that they aren't growing. I agree with the ladies, sometimes doctors have to play with the dosages so hopefully they'll find the one that works for you.

thanks for the support and good luck for friday! fx for you!