HAKing, I love that picture of your little bub!
DueJan, your kiddos are so cute, and yay for your ultrasound picture!
Well if you girls don't mind, I think I'll just stick around here. This is the group that I feel I belong to, though I clearly am not NTNP or TTC anymore.
I've been thinking about these questions:
1. Does he still love you? Yes, I'm sure he does. And I still love him. Or I love who I thought he was, the illusion he was putting up for me.
2. Is he truly and deeply sorry about what he's done? Yes, but he didn't tell me till he basically got caught. Not by me, he told me himself because he didn't want someone else to tell me first. I never for a second thought my husband would do this to me, I wasn't suspicious at all. And I'm worried that has forever changed.
3. Do you feel like he would ever do it again? Ah, this is a kicker of a question. I would like to say no. I would LOVE to say no. But it happened multiple times, so I'm told. And I can see now that there has been a culture of lying to cover it up.
I'm waiting on the Lord to give me wisdom and clarity. I'm meeting with the husband today, and we'll talk, and I'm meeting with a marriage counselor tomorrow. We'll see how I feel after that, I guess. It's only been 5 days though. I want to give myself plenty of time to think things through, feel what I need to feel, so I don't act rashly.