Pie, have fun looking at houses! I love looking at potential places to buy, it's so fun!
The visit went ok. He stayed longer than I thought he would, although he suggested leaving before my family arrived. Said things like "if we get divorced, I won't have to see your family anymore". Don't know how it's gonna work since I'm planning to move onto the same property as my parents. If we stay together, he'll have to live there too. They've been nothing but nice to him and yet he still has moments of anger. I think he's angry with himself and is taking it out on other people. I don't know what to do with that. He hates feeling like people look down on him, or think they're better than him, or think they know more than he does. So this is his worst nightmare, having lost all respect. And he's getting frustrated with me that I'm taking my time deciding which way I'm going to go. So the visit went through a whole range of emotions: anger, frustration, depression.
There was some happier moments. Colin was happy to see him. And my husband was happy to see his son. My parents seemed pleased enough to have my husband visit. As for me, I'm not really feeling anything towards him. It's as though all the anger and sadness has covered up the love and admiration I had for him and they've canceled each other out and I'm left with nothing.