Thank you ladies. It's definitely been the most challenging thing I've ever dealt with, but my husband has been incredible and I really credit him (and therapy) with how I'm doing. Honestly looking forward to TTC has helped a ton too, giving me something positive to focus on.
So I *think* my PP bleeding has finally started to stop (fingers crossed!). I'm actually wondering if the bleeding I had this last week, light as it was, was my body's feeble attempt at a period. My OB had said it was possible for my body to roll right from lochia into a period so who knows.
Anyway, my husband and I talked last night about TTC again, and he's been a nervous wreck about it which is really out of character for him. Although my OB has said that physically we can try again whenever we feel ready, my husband admitted that he was really scared that he could have lost me too when we lost our daughter (despite my having a relatively uncomplicated delivery). So we spoke about it and I cried and explained that I have this need to be pregnant again and (hopefully) bring a healthy living child into the world this time and he was very understanding, so we agreed to wait 3 months (from the delivery). He initially said 6-8 months so this was a major compromise on his part and I'm so grateful.
So, I have 6 weeks left until we can start TTC, which I've decided I'm going to focus on working out - I've already been eating really healthy but have yet to lose anymore weight. I've been temping and my bbt is allll over the place so hopefully this will give my body time to regulate hormones and then we'll just have to keep our fingers crossed that it happens for us sooner rather than later.
Rubysmom - I feel your pain about the comments from people about waiting. Since my daughter was stillborn, people seem to think it's their business or place to tell me to wait, and I understand it comes from a caring place but until anyone (and I hope they never have to experience it) loses a child, I can't imagine them knowing what I feel. It's so bizarre to me that people think they can jump in with opinions on things that are literally none of their business. I guess one thing I should be grateful for is that since this happened I have more of a backbone and am not as shy as before to speak my mind and tell people to back off
and it's been in the high 40's and up in the high 50's the past week so we've been playing outside as much as possible. We all have spring fever for sure! 
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