April/May IVF buddies?!?

[JViti]

if i go into labor before they put me back on heparin then yes, i would have to be put under.

We told Anthony after the first ultrasound. I wanted to wait, but hubby didnt...well couldnt lol.

I have my appointment with MFM on Monday and I am so nervous about it. IDK what to expect.

I ended up in the ER the other day for dehydration. It was awful...i had to get 3 liters of fluids. I am hoping the worst of everything is over and that I can start enjoying the pregnancy I tried so hard and long to get. 4 1/2 years of hell to get pregnant, i would like to actually enjoy the pregnancy part and not be fearing for my life ya no?

How are things on ur end? Its almost time to start up again right????

 

[Plex]

oh my! What a crap start to pregnancy ur havin Things have GOT TO get better from now on!!! Theres only so much one person can take - im praying for things to get better for you!

It sucks that ur reliant other factors as to if u have to be put under or not Im not sure how a future pregnancy would pan out for me - i have aps clotting disorder and strep b, so wouldnt know what to expect id be scared though

I love ur new scan picture btw - i bet Anthony was over the moon! Bless him - is he getting excited with you?

What does the MFM stand for? Not heard that abbreviation before - i think u did tell me but ive forgot

Im still on my northisterone and will continue to take it till thur next week - hoping to get af by the 27th Oct then i can start 29th! Im sick of taking medication and sick of waiting and soon to be sick of injections all over again lol xx

 

[JViti]

MFM-Maternal Fetal Medicine...aka High Risk Specialist

The scary thing is that if I have to be put under, my baby will be born under anesthesia as well and they will have to breath for my baby until they can wake the baby up. I am definitely NOT liking the sound of that.

Anthony is definitely getting excited. He was bummed at the ultrasound cuz the baby was sleeping, but he enjoyed it anyway. He talks to my belly everyday. And he tells anyone who will listen that hes gunna be a big brother.

OMG you could get AF in 10 more days! That is so exciting! (Never thought I would ever say that until infertility struck!) I cant wait til u start injecting and getting ur scans!! I am so excited to hear about ur follie growth and retrieval and transfers!! AAAHHH Its so exciting!! ANd I see from ur ticker thats its been almost 3 years of TTC for u...3s a charm!! I believe this will be it for u! I really do! I will be praying so hard for u!!!!

I will also be sprinkling u with dust from now on at the end of every post! For good luck! THIS IS YOUR TIME!!!

 

[Plex]

oh, i dont like the sound of u being put under for a section either Lets hope it doesnt come to that though hun. Hopefully u'll get some good plan of action from ur mfm meeting on monday. Ill be interested to know what they say.

Its lovely to hear about Anthony getting excited, hes at just the right age to enjoy a little brother or sister

Yeah only 10 days or so left for us think im getting excited now lol really nervous though! I wont loose those nerves till we get that all important fert report then get those lil embies back with their momma!

I think a good result would be, if not a positive, then at least getting a frostie or two would keep me sane lolol

Im impatient now lolol xx

 

[JViti]

So just got back from my appointment. Everything is looking good still. And....ITS A BOY! (most likely)

We have our anatomy scan on Nov 25 which will be the ultimate appt. and we have to have his heart checked. We have an echo for Dec 18 to check for heart defects. Because its an IVF baby, he is a higher risk for cardiac issues. So, were still not out of the woods, but we can at least see a light.

About a week left for you!! WOOOHOOOO!!!!

 

[Plex]

Whoop whoop!!! Exciting that u could be having another little boy Soooo pleased that everything looks good with bubba and its awesome that they are covering all bases by checking everything - i didnt know that ivf babies are at a higher risk of cardiac issues.

Oh my ur 14 weeks! Do u have a bump yet???

ooo by the 26th November i should have my beta results x

 

[JViti]

oooh so that will be an exciting week for both of us!! There will be Thanksgiving, my ultrasound, and ur beta!!! Which WILL be positive

Sorry took so long to reply, my computer is broke and my husband is always either at work or school with his So i have been computer-less which has made my googling and worrying so much harder...which is a good thing but it still makes me crazy lol

i have a bump, but it just looks like im fat lol. i mean im kinda chubby anyway but now i look like i ate one too many big macs. lol i tried to dress up my belly for halloween but it didnt look right...it wasnt big enough.

today was a lil scary tho...thankfully my son wasnt in school today due to his acid reflux, but there was a suspicious package at school and his school was on lockdown. Thank God he wasnt there, i mean, it ended up being nothing, but i would have gone down there and freaked out.

Hows things going with u? What was ur little one for Halloween. Mine was Ghostface from the movie scream. He has never seen the movie but he wanted to be a grim reaper and that was the closest thing to one, but he rocked it and rocked the voice too lol.

 

[Plex]

Aaaaaggggghhhh!!!!! Id be lost without my computer and laptop at work (not that i use it there for forum browsing obviously lolol)

I hate that inbetween not quite bump type feeling, you and i know its a bump but strangers may think otherwise

My boy was a little vampire looked so cute! I have to say lots of people were dressed up and its not really a uk thing but its getting more popular year by year

Oooo lucky ur son wasnt at school i wouldve totally freaked out! No-one wouldve stopped me barging in and scooping up my kid and running all the way home!

Well, im on day 4 of injections today, really dont feel ANY different at all I was hoping to feel some form of bloating or niggling by now - maybe im immune to it all now???? Either that or im used to the weird feeling of growing ovaries/follicles that i dont feel it anymore only my next scan will tell me owt! Im in again on wednesday. Start cetrotide 2moro too xx

 

[JViti]

I didnt usually feel that much different until after a week of injections. And with my chemical pregnancy, I had millions of symptoms...this pregnancy I had none until about 7 weeks.

So excited ur on ur injections!! aaahhhh!!!!!!

So, a lil on the psycho preggo side....my cousins are both pregnant as well. One of them is having a c-sec on Dec 23. SHe had a baby girl last year (Feb 2013) and she is having another baby girl. SHe is also having ANOTHER baby shower next weekend. As mean as it sounds, I dont really wanna go. She doesnt need anything. She has everything. I mean it would be different if it were a boy, but its another girl. And its a huge shower at a hall and everything. I have absolutely NOTHING for my baby right now cuz its been almost 9 years since i had my son. and everything he had has been recalled, broke, or given to another relative for their baby. I feel like, if Im gunna buy baby stuff, its gunna be for my baby...since ihave nothing and she already has everything. I mean her registry...its crazy. She wants everything brand spanking new, which isnt exactly a bad thing, cuz i do too, but her stuff is A YEAR OLD!! and she still has everything. Am i nuts to think that shes being a lil greedy???

Also, my other cousin is preggo too. I was hoping that because it took so long to get preggo, that i could enjoy it with my family and be the only one preggers (at least after my other cousin popped hers out). For it to be a special occasion. But no...we have THE EXACT SAME DUE DATE! April 21. And we are both possibly having c-sections. So instead of just letting everything happen and not having to worry about planning dates and stuff, we have to try and schedule our c-secs on different dates...our announcements are ALWAYS on the same days so its like its not special. Maybe im being crazy and a lil selfish. but it took me 4 1/2 years to get pregnant...it took her 2 months. Also, my mom is throwing me a shower just because its been about 9 years AND because of our struggle. Well, this cousin had a baby 2 years ago, and shes having another shower as well. So now i have to try and plan my shower around hers. i was hoping to be the center of it all (i no it sounds selfish, but if anyone would understand, its us LTTTC ladies!!), but i have to share the spotlight. And i reeeeeaaaaalllllly dont want to.

OK done ranting and raving about me me me. Its just that no one else would understand how that feels...but im sure u would! If not, then, well, maybe i am a selfish psycho bitch lol.

 

[Plex]

Dont think ur being unreasonable at all about ur cousin, she totally sounds greedy! I would imagine she may need somethings new like another cot and pushchair but not clothes or other stuff. Maybe a few small items especially for the new arrival but going all out when the little one u have is only a year old is a bit much!

I totally think the money u spend should be on ur baby not hers. Like u say with 9 years passed since uve had ur last anything u did have has long gone - theres only so much we can hold onto after all.

Oh my! Ur other cousin due the SAME DAY as u?!!? I think if she had struggled as you have then it may be nice to share but as it only took her 2 months, well - i totally agree about not sharing the special time. Totally agree with ur mum though that urs is so much more special as its taken u so much longer and a lot of heartache

Cant believe ur cousins have totally taken the limelight away from you Im angry for you!!!

I dont have any female cousins that live near me or that i keep in touch with, my sister in laws are all older except one whos my age but she is struggling too bless her. My ex-sil has 3 kids the 3rd concieved by literally one night of doing the dirty so jealous! All this trying kinda takes all the romance outta it

Well had to take my injection tonight at work and had to rush outta a full office to mix it all up - all the time i could hear my phone ringing, i couldnt go fast enough - i stabbed my finger then the needle fell outta my stomach and onto the floor glad i took spare needles!!!

Will be glad when im off and not having to inject at work thats for sure!!

Im hoping to feel some bloatedness in the next day or so. Not sure if we should do a fresh transfer or a fet? I just want this to work and everything is so uncertain it awful! xx

 

[JViti]

Ugh I would hate to do it at work. I work at a hospital in the pharmacy so it would look like im stealing drugs lol. but if i drop a needle i would have millions of spares in the IV room, same with sterile water, but like i said, it would look like im stealing drugs lol.

My honest opinion would be to do a fresh unless doc says otherwise. Hopefully youll get enough eggs to fertilize that you could do a fresh and have some to freeze. Fresh usually gets better results. Then if the fresh doesnt work, you can do a fet. Its just the embryo not only has to survive long enough to freeze (none of mine hatched so they couldnt be frozen), but then it has to survive a thaw. With fresh, it just have to survive 2-5 days for transfer. I know people who got pregnant with a 2 day transfer, a 3 day transfer, and i got pregnant with a 5 day transfer. I would do whatever your doc says, but i always opted for a fresh...higher likelihood of success.



We are sooooo hung up on names. We have the name Nathan right now, but the more I say it, the more I dont like it lol. I mean, I could just stop saying it and move on, but yeah thats not going to happen. grrr.

I'm thinking and praying hard for u. I really hope this works. You;ve been through enough heartache. This IS the time for u!! You WILL get pregnant this time!!!

 

[Plex]

thanks hun Im trying not to get too optimistic and just hoping for some frozen embies although thats a lot to ask in itself Still really dont feel anything at all - hope this is working!

I feel like a drug addict at work, so many people watching then asking questions, its unbareable! At least i have no more injections at work now *phew* talk about a relief!! Im lucky as i can say its due to a clot and i need the injections as ive already told them that i have a clotting disorder and they dont know what those needles look like right?

I like the name Nathan, it just sounds like a good strong name. I think itll all come down to when u see him lol our lb (Sam) i wanted to call him Tristan but when he was born he just didnt look like the name then i was stumped!!

Im due to go in for another scan on wednesday so at least ill know more then, hate waiting though! xx

 

[Plex]

Had my scan yesterday - i have 11 follicles which is up on the antral count of 8, so not bad

I have 5 that are 13/13.5mm, 2 of 10mm, a 9.5mm, an 8.5mm and two 8mm ones.

I have 5 days of stims left so am hoping that the others catch up and contain a mature eggie! Dont feel much different still im taking that as a good sign lol

Hows things with u hun? Eek ur 4 months now!!!! x

 

[JViti]

aaah yay!!! Hey I only had like 5 follies, they got 15 eggs, only 6 fertilized, and only 2 made it...one of those 2 is my Nathan...so ur numbers dont need to be high! I also didnt feel much different with the injections and I had no pregnancysymptoms until 7 weeks. It made me koo-koo

so yeah im 4 months now. Didnt realize i was showing until the other day. I wear hubbies shirts cuz they are more comfy but they are big so u cant see much of a belly, but when I wore on of my shirts to the doc yesterday...holy shit! My belly already sticks out further than my boobs...which are a size C!!! I'm gunna be quite a wide load! lol

So I had an appt yesterday. We heard his heart, had a hard time finding it, I was worried but my doc wasnt...we kept hearing thumping noises like someone was tapping the doppler, and she said that was the baby kicking at us...lol. He was very active according to the doppler, but we were finally able to hear it. Little bugger. We are definitely having a c-section. She thinks its better cuz she can control the environment better and the circumstances. If I bleed, they can control it better with a c-sec than with a vaginal. We are going for it either on April 14 or April 17.

I got my glucose drink. I have to d it Monday...then again at 26 weeks. Bleh...gross. But whatever. Fingers crossed for NO GD!!!

So do u have a retrieval date??? I never had a date ahead of time, my doc wouldnt have me trigger until he was satisfied with the number of follies so we would never know ahead of time...all depended on my response. Im so excited for u!!! yayayayayayay!!!

 

[Plex]

Wellllllll.......... Had my second scan yesterday and got the following -

14 follicles now!

Rt side - 17mm, 15.5mm, 15mm, 13mm, 8mm, 12.5mm, 7mm
Lt side - 15.5mm, 17mm, 12.5mm, 8mm, 8mm ,12mm, 14mm,

doc says to disregard the smaller ones (8 and under) so 10 are a good size! Really happy with that!

Yeah my collection date is set fort he 12th November - think my doc could do that as it's the same length as my last cycle which went pretty much perfect cept for the zero fert so she can be 90% certain it'll be then which helps getting the time off work

Still like the name Nathan lolol about wearing ur shirt to the docs - im thinking there is some truth to the myth that u show earlier with ur second baby. Does it feel more real now u can see u have a proper bump?

Gosh i bet that made ur heart skip a beat when the doc was trying to find the heartbeat good that the lil bub was kicking about a lot! How do u feel about the planned c-section? Do u find it weird that u have a definate date that u will meet ur new addition?

Really hoping u dont get GD hun!! I had that horrid drink when i was pregnant with Sam - blegh! really not nice AT ALL!

Hows ur back doing now ur pregnant? xx

 

[JViti]

OMG OMG OMG LOTS OF FOLLIES!!!!! AAAAAHHHHHH!!!

I will be thinking of u soooo much on the 12th!!!! Cant wait to hear how many eggs retrieved and how many fert!!!!

Its startin to feel more real, i just cant over how big I am. A friend of mine is 25 weeks preg and she still barely has a bump, she posted a pic yesterday, then told me I had to as well since I hadnt yet...I did and everyone was like...Are u sure it aint twins?? Which yes, we have had about 5 or 6 ultrasounds so far already...we KNOW it isnt twins, which just means im huge. lol.

When I was pregnant wth Anthony, I did the same thing with his name. I started to hate it about mid way through the pregnancy. But when we talked about other names, I realized how much I still liked Anthony...or just how much I hated other names lol. Boys names are hard, you cant be cutesy with them like with girls. They have to be like, strong names.

My heart did skip a beat or two, but as soon as she placed the doppler on my belly, she said she heard him kick it, so she knows hes ok in there, it was just a matter of him staying still long enough to get the reading, I still freaked a lil tho.

I am a lil nervous about the c-sec, cuz the biggest surgery I ever ad was my wisdom teeth removal lol. So I am nervous about it, but I am glad that my doc is confident that I will be better off. With Anthony, he had to be vacuum extracted, I bled so much that hubby said the room looked like a mass murder crime scene, I became anemic due to all the blood loss, and I tore sooooo bad...like my vag hole and my butt hole were almost one hole

It is a little weird to have a definite date. I like the surprise of NOT knowing when he will come, and having him choose his birthday and not forcing him out, but its good to know that I wont be pregnant after April 14 or 17th! I will have him by then. Which makes the countdown better!! I get to shave a week off lol. I want the 14th, hubby wants the 17th. I want the 14th so i can meet him sooner obviously, hubby wants the 17th cuz its a Friday and more people can visit and he wont have school and can stay in the hospital with me the whole time. I dont care about more visitors...the less i have, the more I get to hold him lol. Besides, I will be a hot mess, so whatever lol.

I really hope I wont have GD...I mean this baby is picky enough with what I eat...I cant imagine having to cut out the only foods that I dont have a problem eating. Theres a lot of things that, regardless of the meds, will make me puke...and I always have a backup plan....pasta. I dont puke that up and it helps with the nausea. If I have t cut that out of my diet...well, this will be a looooong 5 months.

My back is dead. Not sure if its the pregnancy, or because we had to take the matress pad off my bed...Anthony puked on my bed, and it went through the sheets and got on the mattress pad, we tried to wash it, but it wasnt happening, so we had to throw it out. And my matress is old so it has the springs and all. And my sciatica decided to come back 10-fold...I will prolly be getting a nerve injection sometime soon, just trying to hold off on it as loong as possible.

 

[Plex]

heya hun - loads has happened since the last time i posted.

Had my collection on wed, they got 7 eggs, all mature

5 fertilized with ICSI. Told to expect a day5 transfer and i would get a call today to tell me when to go in on monday for the transfer. Well, no call for me today. Have no idea whats the hell is going on AGAIN. Fed up. wanna cry. gunna eat loads of crap to make myself feel better

Considering what to do on monday - do i go in anyway or stay at home? will i get a phone call or not? do i call them/ email them really after paying an obscene amount of money for this treatment we shouldnt have to do the running about after them have been crying and moody, angry and everything else in between. The worst part is not knowing after being told i would recieve an update call today and its not arrived

sorry for the entirely ME post but im so upset about this all. Another cycle failed. I can only work with the information i have been given and when they give me none i panic xxx

 

[JViti]

OMG. That is absoutely ridiculous!!! Is anyone there tomorrow? At least an on call doctor?? I'm sure some people have to have Sunday retrievals and tansfers. Someone shoud be there!!! I would be livid!!

I have been thinking about u sooo much! Love ur egg count and love the fertilization rate!! Much better than last time. Now lets hope they dont screw it up by forgetting to tell you when to come in. If they screw this cycle up, I would demand ur money back or a free cycle. Its just ridiculous. This journey is heartwrenching enough without having outside people screwing it up.

So I have yet to feel Nathan move. It is starting to make me nervous about a possible anterior placenta. My doc isnt nervous yet, she said some people dont feel movements until after 20 weeks. Ive just had so many problems this pregnancy, and since right now there is nothing going on, i feel like something is bound to pop up.

I hope u get ur answers soon. Not fair that you have to go through this as well as everything else. Hopefully this is just a bump before you get ur real bump. Sometimes the cycles that seem like everything is screwing up is the cycle that works.

 

[JViti]

Hey hun, ive been thinking about you. Did u ever get a call back? Did u have a transfer?

I have an US tomorrow morning for the anatomy scan. Im worried because of medications I was given in the first trimester during my whole blood clot situation. Fingers Crossed.

 

[Plex]

Heya chick, ive been offline for the tww so i could keep my mind completely off everything ttc related, which worked thank god!

I did get to transfer but they only put back 1 cavitating morula on day 5 all the others had perished

Had my beta today but it was negative. Dont, cant, unable to process it had to see it for myself so tested and saw a faint line so i mustve had a chemical again. We're completely outta funds now so no more treatments for us unfortunately think id keep going forever if we could afford it!

Im now looking into adoption. will fill out the forms next year i think but its another option for us, not the path we had originally chosen but it seems like the path for us.


I really hope everything goes well for u and bubba 2moro huni, im sure it will loads of girls have those blood thinners throughout pregnancy and have completely healthy babies. I know u had a clot so had to have more but im totally of the belief that it will go really well for you Really not easy to stop worrying though I'll be looking out for your update hun, what time do u go in? xxx