Well, another BFN for me. It's honestly gotten to a point where I'm not sad to see the negatives anymore - I'm angry. Angry that it's taken so long. Angry because every month I wonder why I'm still trying if it hasnt happened by now. Angry because I always expect to see that negative now but so desperately wish a test would finally take me by surprise.
I still don't know whether to consider myself 8 dpo or 12, since the peak OPK and my BBT say different stories, but despite the fact that my boobs are super sore and heavy and I'm feeling tired snd crampy, I'm leaning towards 8 as that's what would be typical for me. So for now I'm waiting for my next cycle to give it yet another go.
I know, its not over yet, the red witch isn't here so there's still a chance this cycle could take me by surprise.. and I really want to believe that..but my fellow LTTTC ladies know how it is, you just know when it's once again not your turn. With my previous 3, I've always just had that feeling of knowing before I even tested, and I'm not feeling that right now, so to me that's just one more confirmation that it hasn't happened this cycle.
Until my husband is ready to try IUI, I really don't know what more we can do at this point, other than trying the ovulation stimulation meds, but idk if that will help since I do appear to ovulate on my own. Still worth a try! You never know.
I keep praying for a miracle, hoping I won't forever be left grieving the missing pieces of my heart.
Good luck to you ladies, I'll continue to check in and hopefully won't have to see you all in May's thread.