Hi gals!
Congrats Holliems, I'm so happy for you, I know it hasn't been easy
I just got a chemical pregnancy again, cramping and pain, visited the hospital to get some blood tests, not much could be done.
It just makes my body so tired, I've missed my alarm twice already last week.
Otherwise, I just need a bit of a pause. I really wish to relax, get my body back to where it was, without stressing about avoiding pregnancy or trying to maintain it (I get pregnant even with condoms sometimes, so the only way to prevent is to avoid the fertility window. Really requires effort and concentration for weeks). I've had a rate of about two m/c per year, and even though my bf thinks it's just bad luck... Well... The statistics are against us.
I'm thinking of going to see a new doctor, some fertility specialist, now that I'll be in Finland for Christmas. Maybe a bit of progesterone cream or baby aspirin or something could be enough.
Also, I'm craving a pause, just so could freely BD whenever felt like it, even for just a month or two, no need to check cervix or count days, so I started the pill (haven't been on it for 7 years). I know it's not especially good for fertility, and it's recommended to take it long term, not just for a month or two...
We'll get Christmas over with, my new company will be in a better state (my finances too), our wedding is in less then a month (and I haven't even sent the invitations yet), I guess there's just a lot on my plate, I mean most days I only have time for breakfast at 10 and dinner at 22 (when had symptoms I took it easy though, half day in bed, ate as much as I could). I should admit I'm just human, wait for a better moment. I feel sorry for my guy, he really likes children, really wishes he could have one (or five), he's always wanted to be a young dad but he's already 35, I just have to find our issues and fix them.
I dunno, my life would benefit of a kid but it's not my life goal, but for my guy, it's just really really important, it's his life dream to have a family, one reason I chose him because he would even enjoy being a stay-at-home dad. But if I can't do it, get even one out alive... Maybe I'm not in the most positive of states, should just 过度过度, step by step get past this.