I just went to visit a very well known trusted almost famous psychic and I know what I already suspected and I don't even feel shocked. I already knew it deep down. She said I would get pregnant but not until next year and I will need help, it will not be natural. I had this feeling all along. I have already decided to go to St Thomas and Guys in London and have IUI in the new year and my OH has agreed to this. But he really thinks it will happen naturally but deep down I always had a feeling, an instinct. She said she can DEFINATELY see a little girl but she will not be natural, I will need the help of a doctor. She said she was 100% sure and is well know for visualising.
She told me not to worry because she can see a little girl. I already knew this. I told her I had already had this feeling already and she said sometimes your own instincts are all you need. They usually always are right. So that we go. I don't feel sad, I feel like I have clarified what I already knew deep down. I feel absolutely relieved and like I have just lifted a massive weight off my shoulders. A doubt. In January I am going to St Thomas and Guys and getting IUI or IVF. This is what I had planned all along. This was the first thing she said to me as I sat down. She was no fako. I am 41 years old and I took my rings off and gave her nada info. She would never have picked up on the fact I was trying for a baby. Maybe if I was 21 yeah. So there we go. Such a relief. I can now get on with enjoying sex again and doing it whenever I like and saving up even more money. When this little girl comes she is going to be one pampered little girl!
I am very happy actually that I actually know I am going to be a mommy again. And it's brilliant, brilliant! I don't have to get stressed about the sex thing and doing it on tap and then wishing and praying and then yet again getting kicked in the teeth. I can relax until January and go down the Assisted Conception route which I knew deep down is what I was always destined to do.
January is only 3 little months away and a few odd days. At least I can have a drink of champagne at Christmas and not have to worry about it. haha