Bellys to Bumps

[lovie]

good morning

I bet your hair will look fab zowie! just sit back and enjoy all the gossip magazines at the hairdressers! what was your iphone app called? altho i probably shouldnt do it as i am such a worrier!

tarkwa your poor hubby having the stress of being a director, at least he knows its worth all the energy that he puts in! I hate baby related dreams, I dont mind actually having them if they are nice but i hate the bit when you wake up and the feeling kinda stays with you, i find the feeling decreases through the day and then when i go to bed that night it all comes flooding back to me

my poor OH has worked 12 days in a row now (he had a course both days at the weekend) so our BD sceadual has really suffered, we HAVE to do it tonight because we will be away with my family sharing rooms for the next 7 days!

Im so excited to see my family i skyped with my sister and mum last night my mum has baught me evening primrose oil and something to do with a cactus (she couldnt find soy) my sister is so excited she is super sweet, I hope when i have my baby i will be able to bring them up to be as amazing as eve!

my temps went up again today to 36.9 (highest so far apart from after wine on cd 2ish...) FF says im 7DPO ideally i would have liked to be able to test before we went sking (the 1st day of sking is monday and if i have no AF by then it will be 10dpo) i dont like the idea of falling over so much if i did have a tiny little bean (v-unlikely) this is my 1st month temping so im not sure how many days before AF my temp is supposed to drop, does anyone have any idea?

have a lovely day to all of you xxxx

 

[zowiey]

Sorry you had such an upsetting dream tarkwa, I hope you have a better dream tonight

I've just noticed your ticker, Me and my hubby have been together since June 99, it must have been a good year for finding true love!! I totally understand about the "bonking" ( we say love squeezings! It's off the mighty boosh!) after so long together it doesn't have the same fireworks! I still really fancy my hubby, but sometimes it would be nice for the mood to develop naturally rather than me saying, I'm O'ing this week, we NEED to have sex!

 

[StrawberryTTC]

Just been on the NHS website (hoping that they have found a miracle cure for infertility !) and think I need to be more relaxed about . I probably try to time it around ovulation too much which is causing me to stress out. But does anyone else feel that bonking every other day is...well, tiresome???

I just had to laugh at this one. Tiresome is a good word for it! Though I don't find "bonking" every other day tiresome, but we've done several cycles with bd'ing every day around o, sometimes 5 days in a row, and THAT gets a little tiresome!

I'm starting to think relaxing about the sex part is something I need to focus on too, hence no temping and only a few opks around when I think I'll o. And I think we won't be doing any "schedule" this cycle, just bd when we feel like it (AND when I think I might be fertile!). Last cycle I told my dh we'd do every other day - and we did! lol I see lots of ltttc ladies get pregnant on cycles when they bd'd only once around their fertile time. We did do that one cycle and no luck, but I think relaxing about it all is the best idea - if it doesn't get me pregnant, I would at least be less stressed about that part of the whole ttc thing. If you ladies know what I mean?

Traskey good luck on the hsg! Like Tarkwa said, many ladies seem to get pregnant after having one done, so fx that's the case for you.

lovie it varies a lot from person to person as to how long before af your temps go down, and of course the length of the luteal phase varies as well, so you could still have several days of high temps ahead of you. For some people their temps don't go down before af at all, they go down once af has arrived. So you'll have to chart a few cycles to know your pattern.

For me today is a rest day from exercising, had reflexology again. Trying to plan what to make for lunch/dinner during the weekend, starting to be quite hard as we're cutting down on carbs. Any suggestions, ladies? =)

 

[Lisa84]

Hey Ladies

Sorry you had a sucky dream tarkwa. I hate having bad dreams. A while back i dreamt i was pregnant and David's mum was shouting at me saying i was ruining her sons life and all sorts. Totally irrational as she knows we are TTC and couldn't be happier for us

Lovie do you mean Agnus Castus? I took that for a while as it is supposed to help regulate you hormones. I stopped as i started Clomid and you can't take them together so can't tell you if it worked.

Well I went to fat club this week and lost 4.5lbs I was very happy as i didn't think i was going to lose that much coz i went to the inlaws for Sunday dinner (the works) and valentines day involved cheesecake. The 4.5lbs is only what weight i have put on over the past 2 weeks but i'm chuffed i managed to get it off all at once xxx

 

[Traskey]

Ladies, I am having the worse day so forgive me for letting it all out here.

I don't know what the heck my period is doing but it's driving me nuts. Sptting for 2 days. Light bleed day 3 then almost zip. Hardly anything this morning, then light. It's normally got going by now so i'm getting stressed about whether it will be all over by Tuesday. Just get on with it already! I had my day 2-4 bloods done at lunch but whether it's the right time I have absolutely no idea. I can't get the results either, as I asked the nurse for the day 21s and she said they dont have them and it looks like they were sent straight to the clinic. So no news until April then!

Got on the scales and i've pretty muched stayed the same. It varies about .1/.2 of a kg. I have tried so hard and am getting thoroughly fed up of this WW diet. At this rate I have absolutely no hope in hell of getting my BMI low enough for IVF. I am 39 next week and I can't think of any birthday I have wanted less. I am just so out of time and it breaks my heart. We won't be able to afford private IVF, I already pay for the majority of the bills and car, I can't see how I can find any more money.

I'm pretty much ready to stop temping (my temps bounce about) after one month, I'm sick of POAS for ovulation and bonking on demand for 14 months. We dtd every other day during ov but the rest of the time nowhere near as much. Especially during the week when I am shattered from working all day and marking/prep all night. Dh has a son already so if we just said enough already then he wouldn't be missing out. Also if something comes up on the HSG then DH won't feel so bad about the SA and mentally I can move on.

Sorry, rant over. BAD DAY. Apologies for the downer but i can't talk to anyone else about this. They don't know we are having problems. It'll pass but right now it's just

 

[Traskey]

Well I went to fat club this week and lost 4.5lbs

That's fantastic, well done Lisa!!!!!!!!!
That's a fab loss in a week.

 

[Lisa84]

Thanks and sorry you are having a shitty day hun. Diets can get repetitive after a while. I have felt like that since xmas so got all my SW books out to try and get some inspiration. I also found that if i planned my meals for the week then i could add more variety. If i don't then i tend to stick to the same quick easy things

Don't worry bout ranting hun we all need to vent every now and again xxxx

 

[EmmyReece]

that's a fab loss lisa, well done hun

Traskey how about trying a new diet like slimming world? maybe that would help to kick start the weight loss again? don't apologise for having a bad day hun, that's what we're all here for to help each other through the good and the bad days

I'm doing loads better with food today, I had beans on toast for brekkie, then a nectarine, a ham and salad wrap for lunch followed by a morrissons cheapo choccy mousse Not sure what to have for tonight though lol

Oooohhhh and something I wanted to show you all, I "think" we've decided on a hotel for next year, it's having a major refurb and has been taken over by new owners and should be up and running by the summer season this year Here's some piccies

 

[lovie]

hello

to you trasky, Im so sorry its all getting on top of you at the moment never apologise for a rant that is what we are here for! How anoying that the nurse doesnt have access to your 21day bloods that really sucks, at least there is chance that a good doctor is looking through them and will have all the information when you go in April.

its rubish that the weightwatchers diet isnt working for you at the moment, when i did it i loved it because there were so many conveinience foods with the points allready calculated but i too found that i stayed the same for quite a few weeks in a row aswell.

it breaks my heart to read you saying you are out of time, i cant tell you i know what you are going through but im thinking of you hun and id be happier to see your bfp than I would my own

I know what you mean about bonking on demand, I think that that intimate time with my OH is how i used to forget things and just be happy because we are together and now it is more clinicle and I do feel my heart sink when i say "no it has to be missionary remember we are TTC!"

temps are a nightmare! I think once you know you are OVing then they are a little pointless anyway because by the time you get a temp rise Ov has allready happened and its too late to BD, as for POAS just yuk! I look forward to the time when i dont have to have such an intimate relationship with my wee!

tomorrow is another day, oh i often find that having red wine means i will wake up with full blown heavy AF instead of those anoying spotting days! masive hugs and rant away that is what we are here for!xxxxxxxx

emmy your food today sounds both healthy and yum! have you decided what you will have for dinner yet? the holiday place looks AMAZING!!! I wish we could all magically teleport there right now!

lisa for your weight loss!! you must have been super good all week to sneak in a roast dinner and valentines day! mmmm roast dinner thank you for the advice about agnus catis, worth a try i think

strawberry thankyou for the temping advice! im thinking of giving temping a break from monday onwards, my family might think it odd that i do it every morning, im have a little bit of an anxiety issue and they would probably think it was because i thaught i was ill! I havnt got any low carb recipy idears im sorry, let us know how the planning goes!

my day has been normal, i weighed myself when i came home and i had lost 6 pounds I am sure i will have gained them all back by the end of this week with my family! im only 1 pound away from loosing a stone and i can really see it around my tummy

im anxious about next week in a way i have never really been open with my family about dieting, they are mostly very athletic and slim, my mum was bulemic and has a real issue with weight, so i feel kinda like a let down if i aknoledge i need to loose weight (really silly and im sure its all in my head!) my mum gave us a very strict vegetarian diet as children, if we had brown pasta and a sauce with beans in we were never allowed chease on our pasta because a grain and a puls makes a full protein (apparantly im not so sure!) my step dad has said to my (not very slim) 7 year old sister "there is no such thing as being to thin" me and my older sister (who has also suffered from bulimia stepped in and told my sister she was perfect and there was such a thing as being too thin and it is really dangerous! and told our step dad that he is compleatly out of order) he has allso said to my sister (infrount of me) that you are supposed to be able to see your ribs.. well actually i dont think you are supposed to be able to see the ribs of an active 7 year old girl! My mum knows im "healthy eating" and i might just say im having a break for the week and dont want to talk about dieting (she is allready planning soyamilk poridge ugh!)

anyways I hope you are all well, special hugs for you trasky xxxx

 

[Lisa84]

oooo looks lush emmy. I'm not jealous at all!! haha

Where abouts is it? xxx

 

[Lisa84]

wooo they are definately not healthy thoughts to be encouraging a 7 year old to think especially in our modern celebrity perfect body obsessed society xx

 

[Tarkwa]

Well done Lisa - you should be really chuffed with yourself! 4.5lbs is mega!
Emmy, those pictures look amazing - I really need a holiday, I am soooo jealous!

Traskey, you are not alone - I have no idea what my period is playing at either?! So much so that I have just done another test (BFN). TMI ALERT it's just brown goo, no period at all. I'm sure the clinic will understand if you have to re-arrange Tuesday because the has flown in properly - I'm sure it happens all the time and they should hopefully understand how stressful it all is. Because I was having a crappy morning I met DH for lunch and looked round some garden centres with him but when it came to eating in the cafes/restaurants I just wanted to be alone and felt bad that his lunch break was over-running (you know how it takes ages to get something in these places and I didn't want to make him late). So we got in the car and I burst into tears! Uncontrollable tears, sobbing my heart out - he had no idea what was wrong and I just kept apologising but he said he didn't care if he was late back so what was the problem?! He said we can talk when he gets home which he's never done before so that was comforting (he's really not a talker). I said I'm not going to temp any more (you all saw my chart!), do OPKs or anything - we are just going to bonk every other day (kinda takes the passion away a bit but if it get us what we long for then so be it - we will of course try to enjoy it !). So you're not alone - I'm having a shitty day too and I've managed to stuff my face with a big bag of chocolate eclairs (cadbury ones - DH bought them for me to cheer me up ), two packets of crisps and several squares of plain choc (if there was any more left I would have eaten it!). I just feel like curling up into a ball and wishing the ground would swallow me up.
xxx

 

[lovie]

oh tarkwa im so sorry to here your day has been rubish (thank goodness your husband is amazing!) I hope that taking a break from temping and opking helps you feel a little better, im so sorry your hpt was negative forget the diet for today i beleive that your day to day happiness is so much more important than anything else! so if some chrisps and chocalait are going to make you feel better then go for it! (and dark chocalait is healty! loads of iron!)

I couldnt imagine your hubby not being a talker because your so chatty, but actually its the same with my OH im the chatter and he likes to listen (thats what i tell myself hehe)

xxxxxxx

 

[EmmyReece]

6lbs is fab lovie there is definitely such a thing as being too thin, and I hope that you and your sister can teach your younger sister about eating healthily

Lisa it's in a place called Marmaris in Turkey, we went in 2009 and had such a fantastic time ... we only went self catering, so I'm sure all inclusive will be even better

This is probably going to sound really pathetic, but I phoned home to my dad a few times while we were there and I felt closer to him than I had done for years ... he died about a fortnight after we got back, and I'm determined to go back there, even if it's just to get that feeling of closeness back

Tarkwa don't beat yourself up about food today hun if you want stuff like that then you eat stuff like that Hope you and dh get a chance to chat properly tonight

 

[lovie]

awww em i hope the holiday brings back some lovely memories of your dad.

luckily my little sis is strong willed and just kind off ignores her dad, she is really active and strong and she absolutely loves food she says she thinks she might be a hobbit when she stays with us she insists on having elevensies and afternoon tea along with all her normal meals!

 

[EmmyReece]

awwwww bless her, she sounds lovely lovie ...

has anyone ever used the clearblue digital ovulation sticks? I've just done one because my temp went up this morning and I've have some stretchy cm and it's come up with a faint line ... it was still negative, no smiley face ... but when I ejected the stick there's a defo light blue line there ... do they always come up with these?

https://i55.photobucket.com/albums/g126/emmyreece/PICT0003-18.jpg

 

[StrawberryTTC]

Em on the digital ones the other line measures estrogen, the other LH. I always get a bit of a line, on regular opks or digis, that's true for a lot of us. So looks like in your digi that your estrogen line is fairly dark, but LH is hardly there, so definitely not a surge going on. Then again, once your temp goes up -and stays up- you have already ovulated, so you won't get a positive opk then anymore. Fx that your temps stay up!

lovie woohoo congrats, that's a great loss!

Tarkwa, Traskey I so know how both of you are feeling. This ttc business is so awful when it takes a long time. Add in the fact that you're not losing weight on a diet you *should* lose weight on, and you desperately need to get it off - much too stressful and frustrating for words!

 

[EmmyReece]

thanks for the advice hun ... have never used a digi opk before

 

[Traskey]

Thank you everyone for you all! I can not tell you how much your support means to me. I had a very good cry and feel a bit better. Thank you all for the positive thoughts and encouragement.


Tarkwa ~ sounds like you needed that cry. Your DH sounds marvellous and I am so glad you have the chance to talk things through properly tonight. I am a real chatter box too whereas DH will happily sit for hours and not say a lot. He will talk about all the tests and things though when he feels he wants to. It was probably all the frustration that came pouring out. Don't worry about the food, you've done so well already.


Emmy ~ your holiday looks fabulous, I am sure you will have a marvellous time there. I hope it brings you positive thoughts about your dad. I am sorry that he has passed away. Places are great at evoking positive memories.

Lovie ~ 6lbs is amazing!!! Welll done you. Diet and weight are a personal thing but i'm not sure you should see the bones on a 7year old either. Sounds too thin to me. I hope that you are able to enjoy your time with your family next week and not worry about food too much. We will miss you!!

Strawberry and Lisa ~ Keep up the weight loss. I don't know many low carb recipes either but i did find this. https://www.low-carb-recipes.co.uk/

 

[lovie]

em i have not used those opk's before but as strawberry said your likely to have allready had your surge if your temp has jumped... id BD just incase and miss eggy is still dancing about in your tum!

I will mis syou all when im away, i will have so many pages of bellies to bumps to catch up on, I hope i come back to loads of good news

xxx