Hey girls. So I would like your guys' opinion on something... I went to see our dr on Friday and we ended up talking about Derek because it is time to renew my Met. She kind of explained herself a little better. I guess she really believes that he might have a blockage because of his weight... That is why she was pushing the surgery so hard that day. Also, I told her our feelings about going to the specialist and that we want to know sooner rather than later if there are any viable sperm. And that if IVF is our only way that we would have to save for a few years... She suggested that we start talking about a sperm donor. That they do an IUI with doner sperm, you don't have to have IVF. So now I am wrestling with this idea of using a donor if it is not possible for us. Weirdly, Derek is far more ok with it than I am. I feel like I chose to spend that rest of my life with Derek and I want our relationship to be happy and equal. If I do something like this, will it be equal? Will Derek grow to feel resentful towards me because our baby is biologically linked to me and not him? Also, Derek is who I love. I want to have a baby with HIM, not anyone else. I want to see our traits mix, see his characteristic in our baby. I want to know if our baby would have red hair... If I used a donor, all of that would change... I would have a baby, but she will never have her dad's eyes or his freakishly strait hair. So, what I want to know is, are these feelings valid? If you were in this situation, what would you do? How would your dhs feel about it?