Hmmm still not sure about the pics. Grrr.
Truth.. 1st night was bad.. 2nd was actually ok.. a few hours.. and last night was HORRIFIC. 3 hours isn't a lot either ((SIGH))
Just posted this in my journal~ any advice from you ladies:
last night was verrrrrrry long. I had planned on having Grant slep in a bassinet next to my bed but that isnt going to work out as he wants to nurse or at least be attached to me like 90% of the time. It's hard to even pee right now honestly! BUT I looooove breast feeding him.. makes me happy! I'll be honest~ I had not expected to even be doing it.. figured I would have quit. Sad, yes. Anyway- I don't feel comfortable co-sleeping with him or laying him in my bed and I obviously can't hold him 24/7. So how do you manage initially until they sleep more steady periods?? And I can't give him a pacifier to ease the sucking need in the interim. Stupid me- last night he had a HUGE poopy blowout and he was FREAKING out bc I was bf him and had to stop - its 3am- I'm EXHAUSTED and trying to keep everyone else from waking up- Grant is beet read crying- so I thought MOMENTARILY I'd give him a paci- after 5-10 seconds spit it out and was even MADDER! So after he was cleaned up ~ I went to bf him again and he couldn't latch on properly So HE got frustrated and I was upset bc I thought I had gone and effed up bf- something I KNOW is a challenge- for the 5 minutes of peace in giving him the paci which I know is a no-no. For like the next 2 hours- he couldn't latch on right.
After a VERY restless and upsetting & frustrating few hours- I finally out the blue had some milk start leaking- not a lot mind you but SOME. I can tell he is hungry and not satisfied- all he does is open his mouth and want to eat. Milk should fully be coming in soon, right? And is it normal for it to come in little spurts right now? Bc now I feel like there isn't too much there still.
And what about the natural need to suck in between feedings??? I'm LOVING bf him- truly am- just trying to figure out how I handle taking a shower or 10 minutes to myself ya know??? And do I just co- sleep for now???