I'm secretly hoping she doesn't have the baby until tomorrow.
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ME TOO. Lol.
And I dont look at any pregnant women with envy at all! I am so super excited for my cousins who are pregnant, although I am not happy that my brothers girlfriend is pregnant as I KNOW she did it on purpose (not a good thing) and I hate her.
I am happy for DH cousin because they are excited about it but I still think what she is doing is stupid.
I understand about making things harder for myself but I dont actually think that I am. This is frustrating on its own and just having all these pregnant women thrown in my face makes it that much harder. I dont envy them for being pregnant and me not being pregnant. I just dont understand why for literally my entire family, it was easier than hell for them to get pregnant but for me I have to take medicine and get poked and prodded during my cycle. That just isnt fair! However, life isnt very fair. I am really happy for women who are happy to be pregnant and for women with babies and I dont look at them with "well, it should have been me." I look at them like "I hope my time is soon." if that makes sense.
Sometimes we all just get those days where it feels like it isnt going to ever happen and that pregnant women around you just suck. Lol. I'm just having one of those days!