Hi Ladies! How was everyones weekend? I must admit, I am REALLY discouraged today. I sat there this AM and cried the whole way to work. I didnt exactly have the best wknd anyway (backed my FUCKING NEW CAR into the side of the garage and smacked the side view mirror off! Its getting fixed Tuesday, but thats what I get for rushing for being late for a pedicure, WTF) and I started having really bad cramps yesterday (which is 9DPIUI) and just fucking lost it. I mean, truly LOST it. Cried and cried and was the biggest, most evil bitch to DH known to man. We have a conference call on Tuesday (tomorrow) with Dr. Morris to discuss next steps and I am pretty sure she is going to do a lap prior to IVF, which I couldnt agree more with because this endo pain prior and during my period has gotten progressively worse. Since I was never officially diagnosed with endo, I know she told me during monitoring last time I saw her that although surgery is usually something she doesnt like to jump to, she is leaning towards it so she can properly diagnose whats it, etc. I think it has to be done prior to CD 12 so it doesnt interfere with ovulation, etc and that the recovery time is really quick. I think (I will update tomorrow when I know for sure after I talk to her at 1:30pm) that she will do the lap in about a week (around CD 5-7), then start me on BCP or BCP alternative for 2 weeks at the end of the cycle to prepare for IVF.
I know this is the longest post ever, but I just feel like its never going to happen. We have been trying since August and I feel like I am being punished. WTF!