awww. I'm glad you got your OH out of that.
I don't think I'd go to the babyshower, but sending a gift seems like a nice idea.
OH added me on myspace, I accepted, but didn't pay any interest in him, he sent me a message, I took one look and didn't like what I saw so I ignored him, he sent another with his msn address in it, I ignored him. (he doesn't photograph well haha) One night after a horrible day at work, I added him because there was really no one else online and I was bored. He wasn't online either so I signed out and forgot about it. a few days later he talked to me on msn, I thought he was the most irritating person, hyper and stupid. haha (he had been nervous). anyways, just because of where I was in my life at the time, I decided to try to hang out with him, took a week of consistant asking for him to finally agree. (I had been rude to him because he had gotten on my nerves so he was skeptical about meeting me). Anyways, we met and I was absolutely shocked. he still laughs and tells me he remember the look of surprise I had on my face when we first met. he was not only extremely attractive, he was sweet and interesting and quite funny. we hung out almost everyday after we met, and I ended up telling him I liked him, his response "I feel bad for leading you on". I was upset, but I figured it was karma. it didn't stop me from hanging out with him, I figured it was for the best seeing as I still cried for my ex. OH and I finally started dating, 1 year and 6 months today actually.
but we had our problems, I can't count how many times I cried in his arms over my ex. it upset him to know how much I loved him, but he held me and comforted me. he cried to me when he found out his ex had ovarian cancer, she's doing well atm though, he wasn't very open to sharing. but he did talk about her and it destroyed me, he loved her so much and she wasn't willing to TRY to be with him. yet she can't let him go.
Anyways, he had gotten his ex pregnant when they were 17, he said he had been really happy when he found out, but she ended up having a miscarriage. he says it still haunts him, he blames himself for having second thoughts about it. he thinks the baby could sense it. I try to tell him otherwise, but he's stubborn. This always bugged me, more than anything, it drove me mad. when he told me, I don't know why it upset me so much, but it made my skin crawl, I wanted more than anything to get far away from him. but I laid there silently, and supressed my nauseous feelings. it bugged me a lot because of the fact that it took me almost 3 months to get him to have sex with me, because he was so terrified of getting me pregnant on accident. so the fact that he was happy to get this girl pregnant at 17, but couldn't even touch me at 19, I didn't understand, I felt horrible about myself. we've discussed things and I still remember when he told me he thinks about getting me pregnant as a good thing. it wasn't long after we that we decided to start ttc.
I tried to keep it nice and short haha. hands cramping, using sidekick. its 5 a.m. OH just left for work, poor guy.
I'm making you a ttc buddy Kita!
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