CD 4 (1st Aug) buddy? :)

[Mrs.B.]

I like your thinking

4 days until I test ... OMG I'm getting so excited so must that I just know I will be let down this month as I want it soo bad.

Hope your appointment tomorrow morning goes ok x

 

[TrAyBaby]

4 days eeek. Im getting massivly excited for you too. Have you stocked up on hpt's yet? Did you know that suerdrugs own brand are uber sensitive, they say on the info sheet that it can detect hcg from 10mlU/ml and dont worry if its -ve remember that it could just be too early. Whatever the outcome i'll be here

Crap starting to get knots in my stomach. 40 mins till my appointment. Have the nurse at 9:30 but not seeing the doctor till 10:20 gonna be a long morning. Will update you later

Have a good day chick x

 

[TrAyBaby]

heck its not 4 days now is it its only 3 aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh

 

[Mrs.B.]

I have a few early hpts that read the 10ml, so hopefully they'll pick anything up but there ICs. All my symptons have stopped except having stupid hunger when I wake but I'm probably genuinly hungry. I couldnt resist a test today, knowing too well thats it mega early and wouldnt see anything but I just couldnt not lol !!

You'll be in with the nurse as I'm typing... hope they tell you what you want to hear and you all clear to go again xx

 

[TrAyBaby]

Hunger good sign

Finally someone took my blood woop. They gave me a quantative beta hcg test, twas kinda funny cause the nurse who was taking my blood didnt know the name of the test she needed to select on her computer so she had to go get another nurse. When the new nurse came in she asked what test i needed and i told her the name of the test i wanted and she said 'oh are you a nurse too!' LOL i said no i've just been through this all before many times with my ectopic that i know what i need done. Then the ditsy first nurse couldnt even spell ectopic, i had to spell it out for her but its done now and i get the results tomorrow lunch time.

I then saw the doc and she wants to see the results tomorrow. If hcg is neg (which is more than likely what they are) it means everthing is gone, no chance of infection and i can go ahead and try again. If there is still hcg i will have a repeat draw done on fri to determine if they have dropped, staying level or rising. The numbers from that one will determine if i need a scan to check further. she is also looking into possibly refering me to a gyno/fertility specialist to see if there is a reason that i keep having losses.

So the ball is rolling, think im gonna be on B&B for the next 24hrs till i get my results

 

[Mrs.B.]

Aww, all so much going on! That must be so frustrating when you know more then the medical professions you have to see! Idiots lol. At least you may get the the bottom o it all then hey hun?

I have such a bad headache today, maybe a mixture of dehydration and boredom, as I am off work this week and I never drink enough :s x

 

[TrAyBaby]

OMG headache another classic sign awesome.

My house looks like a bombsite Im off work too as technically my holidays finish on friday. So to keep myself busy while i wait for my results ive decided i want to completly move every room and piece of furniture around. A few reasons it needs done is that im getting my new sofa delivered in 2 weeks and i want to start to get a nursery ready!!!!! I know i know too early but i dont give a crap, im going to have a baby so im going to get my house ready for one.

My poor DF is currently consumed in the middle of a pile of his crap in our bedroom sorting (em chucking!!!!) out rubbish thats been hiding in boxes and the like for ages. cant wait to have an organised house Its actually really theraputic and it will take ages to get it the way i want it so hoping it will help pass my tww after i ovulate in a few days

 

[Mrs.B.]

Thats brilliant, I would love to sort a nursery out, you'll probably think I'm mad now, however, I live in a one bedroom house so we dont have room for a nursery. But I figure that as we have a big bedroom I have room for a cot in there until we move to a bigger house. I'm sure it will work out, but if we wait I know i'll never happen, you know? I have a list as long as my arm with things I want to do to our house but then I think I dont want to stay here so that loses my motivation. Is your DF off work too? Good that he's mucking in with the clearing out x

 

[TrAyBaby]

yep he's off till the weekend too. We started with such motivation. Have cleared one cupboard, few boxes, under the bed!!!! and started a few other things BUT now hunger has kicked in so we've come to a stop and OMG there is shit everywhere. Never mind we still have a few days to go through everything, then i can potter for a few weeks. Heh heh heh looks like my nesting has kicked in already and i aint even pregnant yet.....oh no wait i am pregnant. Im 1 week and 3 days pregnant, i love saying my cycle days this way.

Oh i did an opk this afternoon but no smiley yet but still gonna do some BDing tonight to start storing up the that is if we can find the bed

And i wouldnt worry about your house, remember a baby is just little they dont need much room. Im planning to have our one in our room till at least 3 months, maybe up to 6 months before we put them in their own room. So your home is perfect x

 

[Mrs.B.]

So today is results day.. good luck xx

I thought I'd give you a laugh with my strangeness of dreams the last 4 nights

1) I was working or something on a gypsy park! Chatting up this bloke that looked like Robert Pattinson - I don’t even like him lol, seemed a long dream but that about sums it up

2) dreamt that all my FF data got deleted off my account on my phone, was really panicking, had to check the one on the computer too, that had been swiped too, I was so upset I had lost it as this month it shows I ovulated

3) In my dream I was arguing with a bloke who was saying I had ginger hair (I am brunette) he was adamant I was ginger and I just couldn’t change his opinion lol it made me angry! (I have nothing against red heads BTW lol)

4) my car got stolen and then in the afternoon it was returned but it had been stripped down and returned looking like a greek carnival float!!!

Very bizarre at the time, not so bizzare written down, but still odd dont you think?

 

[TrAyBaby]

heh heh i would love a car that is a green carnival float, that would be amazing and um erm IM A GINGER!!!!! Nothing wrong with being a redhead, i love it. People are so envious of the colour and my hair is really long too, its like a lions mane

Your dreams sounds ace, i rarely remember mine, except those few i posted you. Have you looked any of them up yet? What could they mean? Actually i know what they mean......they mean you could be well on your way for a BFP

OMG my house is such a state. Last night we never managed to clear our bedroom and dig out the bed. SO rather than sleep in the double bed in the spare room we opted to sleep on the pull down sofa bed in the livingroom (gave away our sofa weeks ago in preparation for getting new one so are using an old double seater sofa bed as our actual sofa right now!). So we basically had ourselves a little slumber party last night. We watched old movies, ate popcorn and BD'ed

Phoning after midday for my results - will let you known x

 

[Mrs.B.]

No nothing wrong at all, thats why I dont understand the dream... one of my best friends is red head and her hair is ygorgeous ... I want it! lol
Just been onto google lol
I read that to dream of red hair is to go through some major life changes mentally and physically! Haha we will see
apparently, If you dream of a gypsy or gypsies, it is a suggestion that you should follow your dreams, even if others don't believe in them.
To dream that your car has been stolen indicates that you are being stripped of your identity. This may relate to losing your job, a failed relationship, or some situation which has played a significant role in your identity and who you are as a person. - thats doesnt sount great!!


I be that was so much fun, I think sometimes the best evenings are the relaxed ones where you have a giggle x

 

[TrAyBaby]

wow the meaning of your dreams sound so interesting and they could all relate to being pregnant

I called for my results at 12, they told me they were in but the doctor hadn't looked at them yet and to call back at 2. So called at 2:30 and was told that they still weren't ready to be discussed and that the doctor would call me back this afternoon aaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrggggggg i just wanna be told i have the all clear to try again.

do you have any big plans for your birthday yet? x

 

[Mrs.B.]

Oh no! I'd be down there in their faces I hope they feel bad for messing you about!

Im going out Friday night and Sat night for meals with two groups of friends, driving both nights so no drinking without having to have another reason I only really feel comforatle having a drink once AF has got me, then I know its ok x

 

[TrAyBaby]

2 nights out for 1 birthday nice

Well finally got a call from doctor at 4:45 my results showed hcg at 1 which means i got the all clear, everything has passed and im not at risk of infection or another ectopic. She would like me to have 1 period before trying again but i think thats more to do with dating my next pregnancy so i dont care about that. I had to wait 3 months after my ectopic because of the chemo medicine they gave me wiped my body of all natural folic. I havent drank alcohol since april either because my liver couldve been damaged too, actually after the miscarriage last week i had 3 bottles of beer on saturday night and was a little boozy. The doctor is gonna either call me or send me a letter next week with the details of who i need to see when i get pregnant next time as im classed as high risk and will be 'fast tracked' as she put it. I will need to be checked over by the hospital and have early scans. So i guess that means i will get to see the baby a lot earlier than most people so thats a positive.

Now to get busy making a baby.

oh when i was in Asda getting some shopping tonight i caved and bought a really cute 7 pack of babygro's Well i dont care that im not actually pregnant yet cause one day i will be so i might as well start stocking up now so i dont have to buy everything all at once x

 

[Mrs.B.]

Thats great news (as it can be) glad to hear your out of risk of infection!

Its also a great thing that they will pay more attention to you in the future, my sister was put on high risk with this pregnancy and I swear she has had about 8 scans instead of the normal 2! Her baby is probably the most viewed prior to actual birth I have ever known lol!

Sounds awful what you have been through, both this time and the time before, your really deserve your :BFP:

I got two seperate groups of friends that I thought would be better keeping seperate so great excuse for 2 nights out.

I went to docs today, Im being booked in for a minor op, but if I'm pregnant they wont do it. So maybe nows the time for my body to decide to be pregnant... always happens when somethings coming up doesnt it? Its not any surgery that cant wait tho so it probably wont lol. Also, Im due to see them in November about fertility if I'm not pregnant by then, but im really dubious as I am over weight and I dont think they will look past that before looking at anything else, but we will see.

get making that xx

 

[TrAyBaby]

hey hon hope the ops not for anything serious (thats my worried face for you)

just finished a massive dinner and some icecream so me thinks the bding will have to wait a few hours till i digest this food baby first

 

[Mrs.B.]

No nothing serious, just need a few moles removed. But due to skin elasticity properties changing during pregnancy the scars wont heal apparently so they wont do it, esp as one will leave a bad scar anyway apparrently. Thanks for the concern tho lol

mmm, I'm not really into Icecream but I could eat a bit now... too late for me tho x

 

[TrAyBaby]

mawning

today is my last day of holidays boooooooo. Have been up for a while pottering around but DF is still asleep. Just went for my last pee of the morning (cause do opk's between 2pm-3pm so need to bulid up pee) and checked my cm while there and holy smokes im certainly in my fertile period, loads-a ewcm So woke up DF and told him im giving him a few hours advance warning that some BDing will be happening very soon. I have a friend coming round for lunch at 1 and the dancing will need to be done before then. He basically said 'ok babe, whenever you need me' and rolled back to sleep. Think if he's not up in an hour im jumping him

So happy-day before-birthday to you. Hope you have an ace time tonight and keep thinking 'positive' thoughts for tomorrow.

Very sensible of you to drive, brillaint excuss not to drink and for no-one to question it. I know when i go out (not)drinking with friends, if there are people there that don't know my history, or people that i don't want to know my history, or even if i just wanna pretend to myself that im having alcohol, I'll order cranberry juice in a wine glass - looks just like rose wine and fools people. Or i'll order a lemonade in a short glass with a little straw and a slice of lime - looks like a vodka and lemonade

Ok chica enjoy your friday x

 

[Mrs.B.]

Morning

Yes my last day too but yes looking forward to tonight.
Hehe, you just put a smile on my face hope you have a good day

Unfortunatly have lost a bit of hope for testing tomorrow, my temp is on its way down and has been for the past 3 days, not a good sign... least Im prepared

Great drink ideas, even though my close friends know we are trying I dont think they'd understand me not having a drink until we were actually pregnant, so driving is the best excuse

Have a great day xx