hey girls, not too bad but not too good either, the way things look at the min the hospital can't decide if its an ectopic or not? had my levels done for the last few days and they are rising, 96. 293,753,1618 and then had a scan today.
ok so i went for the scan but it was a different girl who did it today rather than sylvia who i have been under for the last 3 years, she has been through it all with us but is off this week, so i get a different girl who to be perfectly honest couldn't be arsed! she said she thinks she can see a GS but isn't sure, also if it is its about 3mm (for my gestation it should be at least 6mm) which means its not growing as it should but i should be grateful i got a positive pregnancy test and stop moaning as most women don't even get that, talk about making me feel like shit! she then said "well at least you're prepared" when i asked about ectopic and my levels...........no reassurance nothing!!
so i was obviously in tears at this. so i have to go back monday for another scan but i only got that because i lost the plot and kicked off as i was first given an appointment for in 3 weeks time!! i have a"cysty" left ovary and thats all she was interested in? whenever i tried asking her anything she just kept saying "well at least you got a positive test....."so i tried to explain to her that after what we have been through we are obviously very anxious but her response was," i can't see why"?????????????????
so she said she was going to see a doctor to see what they thought but then said as there was a waiting room full of people she didn't have time and i would be fine but if i have any pain to contact them on monday.
so i then went to see another doc for my Graves Disease and the nurse walked up to me who used to do antenatal when i was pg with LM and she says, " oh my god look at you, you had the baby, come on then where is she, oh i bet she's lovely, is she in the waiting room?" i don't need to explain what happened then really do i, i was in tears and everything just came out. poor woman, you could see she just wanted the earth to swallow her up and i also wanted it to swallow me up too.