Clomid Testers needing TWW Sanity

[Breaking Dawn]

Hope...sorry AF got you

 

[DecemberWait]

Just got back from vacation yesterday...I am CD6 today I knew it wouldn't work in my heart but it is still so disappointing. I guess we are doing another unmedicated cycle since it's too late to start anything. I am going to make an appointment with my OBGYN because I started spotting on 8DPO this time which is WAY too early and my period only lasted for two days though it was extremely heavy and painful. It is so annoying that my periods were always perfect when I was younger and now that I am trying to conceive they are all messed up...someone said it could be stress related but last month I was FULLY relaxed and I had my shorted LP ever. Ugh. Might be time to see a fertility specialist soon...I think I will qualify for my insurance relatively soon because we have been trying for over a year...

Anyway...anyone else testing soon? We need some BFPs around here!

 

[J_Lynn]

I'm not testing until June 25th. Started femara today though, and go in next Friday for an ultrasound to see what the follies are doing. Keeping my fingers crossed this femara stuff is going to work

 

[jcr1988]

tww starts today after 50mg clomid on day 3-7 and an IUI today with 2 large follicles and a post wash count of 49 million swimmers!!

 

[Breaking Dawn]

Jcr....goodlck with the iui....numbers sound great!!

December....sorry Hun :hugs

Lynn....I prefer femera....no side effects like clomid



AFM....unmediated cycle...around 5dpo I think.....no testing until next weekend

 

[IsaacRalph]

Hey girls not started taking clomid yet but will do next month if no bfp! I am also about 5dpo and wanted to wish everyone good luck in tww and upcoming cycle

 

[mommy1309]

Hi everyone I started 100mg of clomid May 11-15 cd 3-7 on my very first cycle without medicine to help me have one! Not exactly sure what cd I ovulated but day 21 progesterone test said yes I did also a first time ever!! Progesterone was 28.4 im now cd 24 and took a test yes early and it was BFN but I have very high hopes that I am as I've had symptoms I've never had so Im waiting until cd 28-30 if af doesn't show to test again. Wish me luck!! This will be my first miracle! ***Baby Dust***

 

[DecemberWait]

CD8...prob 10+ days until O...not that it matters...I have pretty much given up...everyone else in my group of friends gets preggo in a month...not meant for me...gotta focus on other good things

 

[J_Lynn]

CD8...prob 10+ days until O...not that it matters...I have pretty much given up...everyone else in my group of friends gets preggo in a month...not meant for me...gotta focus on other good things

We're all in your group of friends - and not all of us get prego in a month. We are right there with you. Hold on with us, and don't give up.

 

[DecemberWait]

CD8...prob 10+ days until O...not that it matters...I have pretty much given up...everyone else in my group of friends gets preggo in a month...not meant for me...gotta focus on other good things

We're all in your group of friends - and not all of us get prego in a month. We are right there with you. Hold on with us, and don't give up.

Thank you. I do appreciate that...just had another friend tell me she's pregnant and it is getting hard to understand why everyone around me gets pregnant immediately and I can't even with fertility aids. My husband wants us to go to a FS soon...even he is getting tired of waiting. This month I am not doing ANYTHING no OPK, no supplements other than my regular multi-vitamin...nothing. I need a TRUE break and then after this month I will reassess our situation.

 

[J_Lynn]

CD8...prob 10+ days until O...not that it matters...I have pretty much given up...everyone else in my group of friends gets preggo in a month...not meant for me...gotta focus on other good things

We're all in your group of friends - and not all of us get prego in a month. We are right there with you. Hold on with us, and don't give up.

Thank you. I do appreciate that...just had another friend tell me she's pregnant and it is getting hard to understand why everyone around me gets pregnant immediately and I can't even with fertility aids. My husband wants us to go to a FS soon...even he is getting tired of waiting. This month I am not doing ANYTHING no OPK, no supplements other than my regular multi-vitamin...nothing. I need a TRUE break and then after this month I will reassess our situation.

I'm right there with you on that, too. It is hard to understand why some people can just get pregnant looking at a pregnancy book - it's just mind boggling. I used no preventives with my ex husband and years later - nothing, no even possibility of a BFP. It was weird, so now after 2+ years of actually going to the dr with my current husband still not even a chemical ... anything ... showing that my body can even get pregnant, I am deflated most days. It's getting harder to get out of bed, I have to constantly see his kids and know that he has no problem having kids and his horrid vile disgusting POS tramp exwife had no problem having two kids ... but me .... here I am, all alone with no one. There is no one will visit me in the nursing home, who will take care of me when my husband is gone, no one will be there to come see my at my 90th birthday. I won't have kids, grandkids, great grandkids. It will just be me. And my dog. If I even have a dog. These are the things that I think about and that eat my soul. It drives me to a maddening depression that is so dark, deep, never ending that sometimes I don't think I will ever break out of it. I mean, when it comes down to it - I don't even have anything truly bonding my husband and I. He has kids with a past life - that will always take priority. I always have to know that when push comes to shove - I am nothing. And that sucks. If there was the bond of a child between us, it would make us one unit instead of two people just being together. That's how I feel anyway. It's a very empty feeling 99% of the time.

But, there's no reason to live life like that .... I am just going to keep pushing through and hope that it will happen soon. And if not, I have to change the above way of thinking - I will adopt, I will have my baby. I will have my grand kids - there is a light at the end of the tunnel, no matter how dark I want to see it as now. And that's what we all have to do ... we just have to keep pushing through it and some day we will be where we want to be. It just takes time, hope, faith, and sometimes professional prescribed medication (hey - I'm not ashamed of my xanax!)

 

[DecemberWait]

JLynn. It is so hard sometimes and then other days I hardly think about it...I think it is just tough to be reminded of all of the fertility around me while I can't stay pregnant...plenty of chemicals though. I have an appointment for the 24th which is ironically my best friend's due date...my dr will be doing further testing and perhaps trying a different medication for a cycle or two. My AF should be due right around then which will work out well for timing in regards to a new cycle.

 

[J_Lynn]

JLynn. It is so hard sometimes and then other days I hardly think about it...I think it is just tough to be reminded of all of the fertility around me while I can't stay pregnant...plenty of chemicals though. I have an appointment for the 24th which is ironically my best friend's due date...my dr will be doing further testing and perhaps trying a different medication for a cycle or two. My AF should be due right around then which will work out well for timing in regards to a new cycle.

I hope your dr can find something that makes that bean stick -there's something, someway, somehow. You just gotta keep holding out Always just keep saying, "Well, I'll try this one more thing..." but say it every time

 

[Breaking Dawn]

Big big hugs ladies

Reading your past few threads...i can feel your pain of seeing others get that bfp.

I'm praying so much for all of us... its not fair that we try so hard...medicine Dr appts tests etc..re arrange our lives to have a baby and it doesn't work

On Friday I learned of yet another bfp....due in nov.

My goal this year was to have a baby by december....thats not happening but now others who have reached the 2nd tri are announcing it..

I'm also not getting any younger..

And I soooo badly want to give my DH a child...he has such love to give...came from a difficult home and turned out amazing despite odds...and has always wanted his "own family " to make things right for himself give babies what he never had.

Be strong...we are on this journey because we are strong and can handle it...each day each cycle only shows that.

I'm on an unmedicated cycle praying its a bfp....bc if it's not... its back to meds, Dr appts. follie scans....

 

[DecemberWait]

to everyone. We are all deserving of a BFP that sticks and results in a healthy baby...I know it is just a "matter of time" but sometimes the wait and the disappointment just really gets to me. One of my friends keeps complaining about everything in regards to her pregnancy and I finally just told her to keep quiet about it because it is insensitive to whine and complain about it to me when she knows about my infertility. She even complained that she can't drink alcohol...ugh. I feel like a lot of my friends don't even want babies they just forget a pill once or a condom once and get pregnant and then just "deal with it." Just seems unfair that people who don't even want kids can have a bunch and those that would love a child deal with infertility.

Anyway...I am CD10 today so still quite a ways to go on this cycle. My cycles seem to be 32 days in length pretty consistently but the spotting varies a lot and now it seems my lining might be thin because my actual period not counting spotting only lasts for two days. I know I am probably in store for loads of testing in the future and it upsets and scares me...part of me just wants to keep trying without any assistance but then I also don't want to waste time...if only it was as easy to get pregnant as my 12th grade health teacher made it sound, LOL.

Trying to keep positive and enjoy this day Not even going to ovulate for at least 9 more days so just gotta keep focused on the good stuff...

 

[jcr1988]

Big big hugs ladies

Reading your past few threads...i can feel your pain of seeing others get that bfp.

I'm praying so much for all of us... its not fair that we try so hard...medicine Dr appts tests etc..re arrange our lives to have a baby and it doesn't work

On Friday I learned of yet another bfp....due in nov.

My goal this year was to have a baby by december....thats not happening but now others who have reached the 2nd tri are announcing it..

I'm also not getting any younger..

And I soooo badly want to give my DH a child...he has such love to give...came from a difficult home and turned out amazing despite odds...and has always wanted his "own family " to make things right for himself give babies what he never had.

Be strong...we are on this journey because we are strong and can handle it...each day each cycle only shows that.

I'm on an unmedicated cycle praying its a bfp....bc if it's not... its back to meds, Dr appts. follie scans....

i used to say that my new years resolution was to get pregnant, every mothers day i said would be the last one i'd deal with before being a mom. and every time that wasn't true i took it harder then before. my new goal is that SOMEDAY i'll be a mom, and i think that every cycle could be the last but i still try to not get my hopes up. I really had to try to not set myself up for failure. sending you babydust!!
p.s. it's the same for my DH, horrible childhood, horrible parents and yet somehow he's very compassionate and full of love

 

[Hopin4ABump]

Just popping in to say ! Hope everyone is doing ok

 

[Breaking Dawn]

Yay Hopin. Thanks for the drop in....

 

[DecemberWait]

Have you tested yet, Breaking Dawn?

 

[DecemberWait]

I had mid-cycle bleeding yesterday Never had this before and I don't think it is from ovulation because I have never ovulated this early. Between this and my increase in pre-AF spotting I am wondering if I might have a cyst. Blah.