{CLOSED GROUP} Journey to BFP and Beyond!

[coucou11]

Thanks Fleur! I am feeling better. I know it’s also related to my mental state. There are days that I feel like, everything is fine, this is just a bump in the road and we will get there eventually. And then there are days that I feel like, ugh, this is never going to happen, I should just be happy with what we have and embrace it and let go of having another baby.

I would be interested to hear what contradictory research you read about Co10Q? Always good to know both sides.

Hope everyone else is doing well!

 

[tcinks]

Found out we are having a little princess!

 

[NDH]

Wonderful news

I'm still spotting a bit but I think its finally just about done.

My sister is here for 3 weeks as of yesterday and has brought my 4 month old nephew. Cuddling him has been both hard and healing. My due date is 12 days away.

 

[tcinks]

Oh Natalie Are you going to do anything on your due date in baby's memory?

 

[coucou11]

Congrats Terrissa!!! How wonderful!

Natalie I'm sure that is hard, though also lovely to see your sister and nephew. I am also approaching my due date, not sure yet how I will mark the day.

 

[Fleur828815]

Leigh, sorry, I wasn’t very clear about the Co10Q. I read that there’s one form of ubiquinone which is better, and that you need high doses of the other for it to work so it got too confusing, especially as it was pretty expensive! I think there’s been more research done on its effects on male fertility compared to female fertility, I’ll try to find the articles. How are you doing?

Terrissa, congrats on your little girl !!!

Natalie, it must be really bittersweet to have your nephew staying with you

Sending you ladies lots of thoughts and hugs for your approaching due dates.

 

[coucou11]

Thanks Fleur! Yes, I read that too actually - the book says you have to purchase the "ubiquinol" form instead of the "ubiquinone". We'll see! Yeah I might have DH start taking it too after he finishes the L-arginine - I don't think I can convince him to take three supplements at once! I'm doing ok, just waiting, waiting for July. It's nice not to be actively trying, but tbh we haven't really been dtd at all, which is not very fun, and now I'm probably entering my fertile period so I kind of don't want to even since I want to at least take this cycle off. It's always something!

 

[jlw617]

Hi ladies, it has been busy as usual for us! We are in Idaho visiting family so I probably won't be on to often.

Congrats on the girl Terissa!!!! I am so happy for you!

I hope everyone is doing good, I will check in with you all periodically

 

[kdmalk]

It's my due date today. A bit bittersweet. I am 9+5 today, which is how far along I was when I had my d&c with that pregnancy. I am glad to be pregnant again, but sad that I am not holding/about to be holding a sweet little one.

Having a pretty sick day today... even through the medicine the doctor gave me. I have mostly good days since I have gotten the medicine, but I have the occasional rough day and today just happens to be one of them. Currently sucking on a "preggie pop" sucker and trying not to think about eating. But I know I'm hungry because I haven't really been able to stomach much today. We are in Alabama visiting dh's family and I was really looking forward to some good BBQ. Hoping tomorrow is a better day. We are here through Sunday!

Hope everyone is having a good week!

Edit: Just realized I posted this on the PAL forum and not on here! Message repeat! Update: STILL FEELING HORRIBLE!

 

[kdmalk]

Feeling much better now. Just lost my dinner for the first time! Lol

 

[Fleur828815]

Leigh, yes, that’s what I read about the ubiquinone. Could you use condoms while waiting for July?

Jamie, enjoy your stay with your family.

Kylee, how’s the nausea?

Natalie, any updates? Hope you’re doing ok.

Katie, thinking of you too.

zaycain, do come and update us sometimes if you feel up to it.

 

[coucou11]

Kylee, big hugs on your due date - I'm sure it is very bittersweet. You will be holding your baby soon! I remarked to my husband the other day that I was sad our due date was coming up, and he said "We'll have another due date." Still no plans to mark mine, I probably won't think about it much. Maybe I'll write something in the new journal / book I got on loss.

Fleur, wow, condoms... I haven't thought about those in so many years! I'll see if I can convince DH haha.

I've finished reading the egg book, it's fascinating. Great stuff on supplements and other things to help your eggs be healthier. Super scary stuff on BPA and phthalates and how terrible they are for you (and how they are everywhere). Yikes!

I'm also reading up some on diminished ovarian reserve. I'm going to ask my doctor about it. There is a blood test that can be done that gives a good indication of it, I might even do it prior to going to meet with her. We shall see.

 

[Fleur828815]

Leigh, there are so many things in our food and environment that is bad for our bodies... I get paranoid when I read too much about that!

Hope everyone's doing ok, this thread has been quiet lately.

 

[zaycain]

Hi Ladies,

Sorry for being MIA.. I had to get away from the TTC mindset. I also tried posting on here this morning but I accidentally closed the window and ..well you know how frustrating that is!

• All of my friends, co-workers and inlaws are pregnant. One right after the other.
  
• My due date came and went. It was hard.. but it was harder the weeks before. Maybe the body knew it was supposed to have the baby then? Hard to tell. I met a woman who lost her twin babies at 6 months. Sometimes I feel like I shouldn't be down about it.. but the pain and sadness is real.
  
• My husband had normal physical blood test done and it turns out he has high estrogen. Since then he (and I) have been working out and eating right. Turns out.. that might have done it.. cause..
  
• I got a VERY FAINT BFP this morning. I'm 9 dpo. Strange.. I'm obsessed, but numb. I'm worried this is a chemical. I haven't told him yet.. I'm not ready.. cause we found out last night his sister was pregnant... I was super down about that.
  
• And of course this happens when I was signing up for a triathlon in a month.

Thanks Fleur for your concern.. it's very sweet of you.

For all the bumps in the group: Time flies FAST. Can't believe you know the sex already!

Natalie and Leigh - Sorry I'm late on all of this. It's devastating just getting AF every month... let alone getting hopes up even higher. I pray for healing an wisdom.

T - Your graduation pic is adorable. Congrats!

 

[tcinks]

Yay yay yay! So happy for you! I know it's still early, but I am getting excited for you! Really hoping this is it for you! How long do you plan to wait to tell him?

 

[Fleur828815]

Congratulations zaycain, I'm so happy that you finally have your BFP after going through hard times! I know it's hard but please try to stay positive about this pregnancy/baby. Don't worry about the triathlon, it seems that lots of women finally fall pregnant when they least expect it.

Have you thought about when/how you'll tell DH?

We're here for hand-holding if you need it.

 

[coucou11]

Congrats Zay!! That is really wonderful news! So thrilled for you I'm sure DH will be equally excited, definitely tell him soon!

Nothing much new here. I'm still on my new supplement regime and trying to be healthier / reduce sugar (with varied levels of success). I spoke to DH and depending on when my next O happens, we will probably try next cycle. I don't want to wait if it ends up being just before my doctor's appt. I also think I will call my doctor and request an FSH test on my next CD3 (I think I ovulated yesterday). That is the test they do for diminished ovarian reserve, and that way we'll have the results for my appt.

I found a miscarriage support group here in LA and went to the first meeting last night. It was really nice. It is run by a therapist, and it was just nice to be able to share a safe space with other women who have experienced losses, and know that I didn't have to hide my feelings or try to pretend like everything was ok.

Hope everyone has a lovely weekend!

 

[tcinks]

Oh Leigh, that sounds wonderful. I wish I found a place like that! Was it free? How often will you go?

 

[NDH]

So good to hear from you Zay - even more so with such awesome news! really hopeful that this is your rainbow!

Leah I'm glad you've found such a great sounding support group.

My first due date is Monday. Not sure how/if we'll mark it, but I have this week taken the teddy bear I got from the hospital out again and put him on the dashboard of my car.

And I'm still spotting off and on pretty much... have gone a day or two without any spotting at all, and some days its literally just when I wipe and others I actually need a pad. I give up trying to make sense of it...

 

[kdmalk]

Congrats Zay! I hope this is it for you! Glad to hear from you.

Leigh, I have been feeling awful the past week and haven't made it to the post office with the vitex yet. I am so sorry. I am feeling decent today. Still trying to take it easy though. There is a post office right by my office, so I will try to drop it in the mail on Monday. I am glad to hear you found a support group! I bet you will make some great friends.

Sorry to hear you are still bleeding Nat. Hopefully your body is finally trying to really clear everything out and start fresh.

I ordered a Doppler a few days ago and it arrived this morning. After some searching, we were able to find baby's heartbeat. That was our first time hearing it. I am definitely relieved to know that I am not in the midst of another mmc (that was my worst fear), but also now a little obsessed. I told hubby to hide it from me until Monday. I really wanted to shoot a little video of the hb so the family could hear it. So I'll give it a go on Monday. If we find it again on Monday and manage to get it on video, I will ask him to hide the stupid Doppler from me and only let me use it once a week until I can feel kicks and won't need it anymore. Guess that's about it for me.