Could use a buddy

[countrygirl86]

Good luck Sashimi! We'll be waiting for the news

 

[preg_pilot]

preg- is your scan today as well? I wanna knowwww!

Yep, had my scan yesterday
Team Blue it is


Sorry I didn´t post sooner, I´ve been sick at home, and trying to do everything at once.
I´ve solved just about every problem I had, both bird cage issues, bought the apartment today, and talked to the customs office

Blood test is negative iam so confused

I hope your´s is just shy like mine

That makes sense. But beings how I am 15 DEPO why would a blood test be neg. and still be??? I don't know. I think I am just scared to hope right now. I really thought the blood test would be positive. It crushed me when it wasn't

 

[SashimiMimi]

Preg what bird cage issue? Do you have a bird?

 

[preg_pilot]

Preg what bird cage issue? Do you have a bird?

Yes, I have a parrot. We moved her to Denmark in January this year, and are moving her back to Iceland now.
We need an acrylic cage to transport her back in (as Icelandic vets don´t accept wood cages for quarantine reasons), and I need to rent a cage for the quarantine here, as it would cost too much to transport her large cage back to Iceland via air-transport.

I´m building the acrylic cage these days myself (can´t buy one small enough).

 

[Pino6161]

Well I was all excited this morning cause my temp was high. Then it hit me like a bus a wave of nausea and horrible back ache and cramps. The witch is on her way. TMI-there is nothing when I wipe, but I used a tampon, and I was right, bright red blood.

I feel crushed! Like I was ran over by a bus and then hit by a plane and fed to hungry wolves.

 

[lxb]

good luck sashimi~~~

pino!!!!! I'm sooo confused! This is wrong!!

preg - looooovee the scan pic!

 

[SashimiMimi]

I'm so sorry Pino. I remember once how I had a 35 day cycle (usually 29) and I was so hopeful. The disappointment crushed me. There isn't anything we can say to make you feel better.

I do hope that you can somehow see a fertility doctor before March and get to the bottom of the issue. So often when even the slightest thing is off it prevents conception. And until you and DH get a full analysis done you won't know what that issue might be. Trust me seeing a specialist is not scary. They have solutions for the most severe issues right down to the little things.

 

[lauren26]

Pino Those misleading and long cycles are awful. I have had charts that looked SO great and ended up being BFNs. I am sorry.

 

[countrygirl86]

Pino

 

[Pino6161]

So I am really disappointed, and confused. I am trying my best to not to wallow but the cramps reminding me constant it is difficult.

Near where I live there is a health center with a sliding fee scale so me and my mother in-law went down and applied. As of right now our fee will only be $15 and after my OH's residency is done it will go up to $50, but still it's cheap. I am going to get a new primary put all the tests I have done behind me and start over. I think it is what I need. I can not wait until March. I am so frustrated and confused. I need answers. Preferable now.

This past cycle was really hard on me, and my relationship with my husband. We both let our hopes sore for really the 1st time since my last MC. We were crushed. My OH tries to be as strong as he can, and I just shut down. We need answers. I am hoping it is a simple fix, but either way we have to do something.

 

[treasured]

Pino- im so sorry this has happend at this time to you! you have waited so long for this and this stupid late AF has just made it worse! I remember a few months ago while on holiday my AF was 3 days late and I got so excited, and had the BFNS too. It was horrible!
I think it is a good idea to restart your tests, there MUST be some reason as to why this isnt working for you! I know its not good to hear, and it makes me worry too, but I read that only between 5-7% of people in their 20s stuggle with infertility... This is why Im going to see a doctor soon too I think because it just cant be right. What were your doctors like the first time you decided to go? Mine was very judgemental when I asked about TTC because of my young age.

I just got AF today too so Im not feeling very good either... but I know having your hopes built up and shattered is even worse. Atleast we can be cycle buddies this month...

 

[lauren26]

Pino I'm so glad you're getting a new doc so that you don't have to suffer through any more BFNs without answers!!!

 

[countrygirl86]

Pino - I agree with lauren, I want answers for you!

treasured - sorry AF got you too. Best to look on the positive side of having a cycle buddy! The cycle I got my BFP I started out as cycle buddies with Sleepy and it was so nice (but she ended up having 2 AFs before I tested lol)

 

[lxb]

pino - hope you get those answers! March is just way too far away....

treasured - ahh! that witch! it's always great to have cycle buddies~ and hopefully that will turn into bump buddies!

 

[Pino6161]

Treasured--- MY doctors were HORRIBLE from the get go. They kept telling me the opinions on how I still haven't lived my life and having kids would ruin it etc. I am glad we are cycle buddies, but you may lap me

 

[SleepyOwl]

Pino - so sorry about AF. I agree with the other ladies about maybe restarting your fertility test. I hope you are feeling better

Sashimi - any word back from the doctor?

Country and Preg - congrats!!!! How fun to finally know

Treasured - sorry about AF friend. How are you feeling?

Haribo - my bday is next Wednesday. You were close though!!

Afm, still on work travel heading back home tomorrow. My temp went up today but I think maybe that was because my hotel room was hot. I'm exhausted from this trip. I'm going to try to sneak a nap in before dinner!

 

[SashimiMimi]

The Doctor's office called so late in the day. My beta levels are at 273 up from 169. They said that was good but I was told intially they were looking to have it double. I did hear that it takes 48-72 hours for the levels to double completely and they said the "levels were rising nicely."

I've been so anxious all day and need to go back for 2 more rounds of beta testing. One on Saturday and another 2-4 days later. I wonder if there will ever be a time where I can just rest and not be a nervous wreck!

 

[Pino6161]

I am sure everything will go fine, and you will have a sigh of relief when the tests come out great. Just breath and let the little one grow!

 

[countrygirl86]

Sleepy - yes, maybe it's that your hotel room is hot. OR maybe it's that you have a BFP waiting when you get back home!

Sashimi - I went to the doctor 3 days after getting my first pos. test and they didn't do any bloods, just sent me on my way saying so early there's nothing we can do to prevent any bad things, see me in 4 weeks! Glad your results are good, it's almost more stressful having those tests! Now that you are going to be a Mom, there will NEVER be a time you aren't worried but it's a good feeling

I know you ladies love a good MIL rant so here's one from me! Let's just say MIL was less than happy about the inside of the cupcake being blue, I couldn't believe it! I would think the news that there's a healthy baby carrying your genes growing would be fantastic but apparently because he has a weenie it's disappointing! I hadn't seen her in almost 2 months and she never asked how I was feeling, actually she didn't talk to ME at all, just DH (which I guess I should be happy about). Sorry to vent ladies, I just couldn't believe her reaction and am NOT letting it bring me down AT ALL! A healthy baby boy is amazing!

 

[lauren26]

Country - Yay! A MIL rant! They can be such pains when it comes to this stuff and really show their attachment to our DH's and their baby preferences! But good for you--you have a miraculous little boy growing inside you and no one can take that from you and DH! I think that our MILs (and moms...don't even get me started on my mom!!) do a little re-hashing of their pasts as moms and maybe a little bit of living vicariously through us and our DH's during times like these. My MIL was just shocked when their first grandchild was born because she was an accident, but now that she's awaiting #4 I think her parenting opinions are fully re-formed!! She and FIL actually told DH and I a couple of years ago that it was 'so nice' that it was just the two of us without any loud kids--and that they thought we could wait a while! Not what I'd expect to hear from PIL! Anyway, like I said in your journal, I LOVE the cupcakes and I'm glad the rest of your family was happy

Sleepy - Girl your chart looks good any way you slice it! Fx that it's looking good for a reason

Sashimi - Don't let anyone scare you--I agree with country that the tests are almost too much. I am happy that I've had them but at first I thought my numbers weren't rising fast enough, then I thought they rose too fast and all of it was within normal range. The important thing is that your docs said they're happy with the results! It's a pain that you have to go through two more of those, but you will feel better seeing the full range of your results and knowing you're doing great!

Afm, last night was #2 of losing my dinner (so yuck) and I woke up in the middle of the night feeling soooo nauseous with a pounding headache! I suppose I'm grateful still for the symptoms because they make me think things are happening, but the cold is still here too so I'm ready for a weekend of sleep I am about to have my review at work and am praying that I got a bigger raise than the cost of living increase I already knew about, but I'm not getting my hopes up! Happy Friday, crazy ladies!