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[lxb]

treasured - First of all, CONGRATULATIONS!!!! So great to hear about your job opportunity and what a great difference you'll make in someone's life! ahh.. i hope those are just bfp's brown cm. And yes, I do get AF type cramp before my BFP. I got them on the day AF was due (I tested since my temp was up on the day AF was due but got a clear bfn! And got cramps afterward and thought I was out). FX AF is a no show for you! I think the only "symptoms" I had was sore BBs & stomach cramps (which is the same for all cycles!)

lauren - ah... not liking your temp this morning! FRER is not as sensitive for me as it claims! I tested bfn on the day AF was due and it was supposedly able to detect as early as 6 days before we missed period~~

sleepy - yay!! temp update!!!!

pino - argh... it sounds so frustrating!! And that's the last thing you need for TTC! Seems like your temp is going back up again?

 

[lxb]

Oh and treasured ... Like lauren said, all of the OHs are like that at some point during TTC journey. They just can't understand what we're going through everyday. We BREATHE ttc every minute of the day.. symptom spotting... google whatever we see/think. That's why we're here to support each other as we know how it's like

 

[Pino6161]

lxb--- I hope it is going back up!! but IDK cause I took it 45 min. later than usual cause I slept through my alarm!! IDK. How are you feeling today?

 

[lxb]

pino - I'm feeling good~~ Think I should stay away from chocolate milk!! (Milk or Hot Cocoa are just fine though~). TWO more days 'til scan! Hopefully everything will be okay.

 

[Pino6161]

Sleepy--- I know what you mean!! I have been slightly cramping for about a week on and off, but I think it might be in my head! my right nipple is slightly sensitive, but again IDK. The only reason I don't think I have O'd yet is that every cycle before I ovulate I like it when my OH plays with my breasts. After O I can NOT stand it! So I have no idea what is going on.

 

[Pino6161]

So my mo just texted me and told me my ass hole little brother's wife is being induced today. I didn't think it would hurt this bad knowing she is getting what she really doesn't deserve. The jealousy is tearing me up badly. I can't be happy for him, I just can't. I am crying because it is just not fair. He is so screwed up, and his FIL gives them everything. I have fought for what I have I have tryed so hard, and my little brother gets what I have fought for tooth and nail. It hurts

 

[SashimiMimi]

Hi Ladies I'm back and really wishing I'd taken the day off work today. I think I have discovered the true meaning of jet-lagged! It was a long journey home and we have a bit of post vacation depression going on, but we had a fantastic trip! We did so many cool things I Hawaii but most importantly I feel like OH and I connected in a way we haven't been able to in a long time. We have been so caught up in the chaos and emotional rollercoaster of fertility appointments, we forgot what it was like to essentially relax and have fun.

We had a long talk about the lap surgery and I've decided to hold off. Not only is if just too soon to ask for more time off work, I just feel in my gut that I should wait. Neither OH or I really understandy why the doctor wants to do the lap. We have just gone along with a lot of expensive procedures that have failed without asking any questions along the way.

Cycle monitoring appointments are extremely rushed and it's easy to feel like just another number at that clinic. I think we need a proper consultation with the doctor to get a lot of questions answered. Why the lap? What possible problems could be discovered? How long will it take to recover and ttc again? What will be next steps, ivf??

One thing OH brought up is that the doctor randomly said something during our last failed IUI about perhaps the sperm is swimming right past the egg... Both of us were kind of like huh?? So I think we just want to enjoy the summer, take a ttc break and then do surgery or whatever in the fall. I'm still emotionally recovering from our last failure and my mind and body need a break.

I haven't had a chance to catch up on the board. I'm on my phone now but will do a full BnB review tonight and get the latest on everyone's news!!

AF is due this Friday and Im worried the fertility I injections last month destroyed my 15 day luteal phase!! I think I Oed day 14 or 15, then at the end of last week on day 22 I randomly had EWCM with a bit of brown blood in it. Then had brown cm the next day and have had beige cm on and off since. My initial reaction is that AF is already in the works, but it's been so long since I've done any natural TTC I've forgotten what normal is for me!!

 

[SashimiMimi]

Ahhh Pino we posted at the same time !!! I know it's frustrating to see bfps go to those who don't try or don't deserve them. I read in the paper this morning that the former wife of a notorious Canadian serial killer was tracked down in the carribean and is now a mom... She assisted in some brutal killings of teenage girls in the 90s and all I could think was wow... Even serial killers get BFPs!!

Don't despair Pino. I have an inspiring story for you. OH played golf with someone in Hawaii who was told he and his wife had no hope of having kids, they did every fertility procedure and drug under the sun and all of them failed. They conceived two kids naturally when they stopped trying, then the husband had a vasectomy and they got a bfp after that!!! A one in a million chance of that happening!

I know what it's like to see everyone get bfps around you and feel like you're left in the dust. You're not alone! Just remember we are all here for each other!!

 

[lauren26]

lxb - Me neither!! Dang temps! Yes I was VERY hopeful but I could tell last night that this morning's would be lower. I had that cold feeling in my mouth I get before AF . I know that I'm 'not out until AF shows' but pretty sure I'm out! That said, I don't think that FRERs are as sensitive as they claim, either.

Sleepy - Yes, I will probably discontinue after tonight. I am 12dpo today....I don't know if I should do it one more night or not. I think I will just stop it today. Seems like if that eggy got caught it's already had time to implant. Plus I'm having some slight lower back cramps today and that makes me feel like she's coming. My CP is still low and hard but I think it's because I'm still on the hormone. I'm not hopeful anymore! Hope your temps stay nice and high

Sashimi - Welcome back!!! Good move on the lap. I think that you will know when it's time.

Pino - I'm sorry--it doesn't feel fair! Your time will come girl

 

[treasured]

lauren- sorry for your bfn too are you going to continue with the progesterone? I dont quite undertand it, like if you keep taking it will AF never come?

lxb- thank youu! still no AF, brown CM is gone as have my cramps. still have tender boobs... damnn all these positive symptoms but still BFN! surely by 12/13 dpo it shoud be bfp if i was preg? how many dpo did you get yours?

sashimi- that ewcm with brown could be IB? maybe you just needed a natural month and this might be it!!! FX For you! and I think that taking the summer off to enjoy it is a great idea!

pino- LOL at your O telling tactics of OH playing with boobs hehe! made me giggle! sorry about your BIL its so annoying when you cant have somthing that you waant so much and others that dont even deserve it get it so easily... ugh.

sooo you gals will be proud, OH parents are on holiday so he has their house atm so I popped round after work, got into his bed naked and suprised him LOL, it was hilarious but also great cause he had no option but to accept hehe. this is what will have to be done at O in future! I also thought that it might help to speed up AF cause aparently it can make it come quicker... its annoying that Im getting BFNS but no AF, i just wanna start the next cycle

 

[haribo813]

I haven't been up to much, mostly catching up with friends over weekend, going to a 30th birthday party and yesterday we bought some nice antiques and pottered around the house.

Feeling pretty low though as normally have 28 day cycle, I got AF and lower temp this morning on day 32. Just when you think you're getting a break and some good news, nooooo!

I also received my blood test results today. The Dr called and said everything was normal which I was pleased about. Then I asked her if I had high or low progesterone levels as I had trouble working out what day to do the test on yada yada. She said we don't look at the levels, we just check if there's a shift and you're ovulating. Well l I already knew that thanks very much! Couldn't help but think what a waste of time it was shuffling to the awful hospital and clinic twice in the last month...

The Dr did also offer to book me in tomorrow to see a nurse to discuss next steps and possibly IVF. And then I cried when I heard that. I don't know why really, it's not like a complete bolt out of the blue.

Tomorrow I can apparently be referred to a fertility specialist and am wondering now what the next step is for us now. OH's sperm test came back fine, my pelvic scan fine, have 28 day cycles and this is our 12th month now TTC. Anyone know what the next tests are? I wonder if I have blocker CM like Sashimi? Sorry to rant, I don't think my 5.45am start helped this morning.

Rant over, thanks girls.

Am really pleased about Lauren and Treasured's news. Pino sorry you're having a rough time, those Clearblue fertility monitors are a bit funny. The 1st month I tried it I went from low to medium then straight to peak (missing out high) so think they take a while to get used to things. The 2nd month I used it I moved through all the phases so hoping you've just had a dud month with it. Any news Sleepy?

 

[Pino6161]

Thanks everyone! I had a moment of severe craziness. So it turns out that my brother called my Dad and told him about the induction of SIL today. SO my mom found out about this yesterday when she also found out she is not invited to go to the hospital. My Dad went alone. She is so upset, not cause she can not go but because my Dad went without her. He chose my brother over my mom.

 

[lxb]

treasured - I tested bfn on 12dpo (my avg lp is 12 -- that is with FRER!). Didn't test on 13 and 14dpo. Got a faint line on 15dpo and darker line on 16dpo~ great job on popping in to your OH naked! hahaha... I'm sure there's NO way he can resist~~~

haribo - so sorry to hear the dr.'s visit wasn't helpful. did you make appointment with the specialist yet?

pino - ah... sorry to hear about your dad choosing your brother over your mom. your mom definitely has the right to be upset about not being invited to the hospital. But i think your dad is in a tough position though... having to choose between seeing his grandkid or staying home with his wife.

 

[Pino6161]

lxb--- thats exactly it... me and my brother are born from a different mother. My mom adopted us when she married my dad. My brother has always been very disrespectful towards her. My brother has always looked at things very differently. For me my step mom is my mom. My brother doesn't see it that way. Now my dad has to choose between HIS wife or HIS son, cause as much as my mom tried my mom has struggled embracing my brother cause of the way he treats her. I take my mom's side on this mostly because coupe of years ago my dad was a different person he used to stand up for my mom and not let my brother treat her badly. e did not tolerate disrespect, as my mom gave up everything for me and my brother. She was a stay at home mom for kids that were technically not her own. After I moved out he changed, he just pretends eveything is fine, and when mom tells him what is going on he tells her to drop it. He is a very differrent person and I think that is why mom Mom has the hardest time.

 

[lauren26]

treasured - I will probably stop tonight...If I thought I was pg I'd continue, but those temps are sucking a butt right now. Lol. Plus I got a little EWCM this afternoon It just goes to show that a chart that starts to look really nice doesn't always end up being the one, and charts that look 'bad' are sometimes the winners! Ugh. Anyway, I don't know that AF would stay away forever. Probably not, but last month she held off until a day after I stopped progesterone. I am getting some little cramps today so I think she's knocking at the door...

haribo - The next steps might involve an HSG and possibly a lap to see if there is anything that's invisible on the ultrasound that might be hindering your progress. I wouldn't jump to IVF yet--I'd have those tests run first! I am with you, though. This is cycle 12 for us and is looking to be another BFN. GL.

Pino - Family stuff is hard!! Hang in there, girl. Try not to let others' conflicts bring you down.

 

[lauren26]

Hey ladies, I mean to ask you all this every cycle--maybe I have already! For tempers, if you don't get three hours straight of sleep, do you temp when you wake up before or after your normal time? I have woken up at 5:14 on the dot almost every day this cycle, to get up and pee. So I temp then! But for the last few days I've woken at around 4 and then again at 6...times equally close to 5 and I havent gotten three full hours before either of those times (have also been waking up at 2 and 3 some nights yuck). So of course to confuse things I've temped twice on these days. I know! I'm not supposed to. Is the general rule that you take the earlier temp? Thanks gals. I need to stop obsessing...

 

[treasured]

Hiii girls! Just a quick post from the train down south, still no show of af :s im confused, cd 29 which is very odd for me, no cramping at all :s trying nit to get hopes up but also wish she would come if she is coming so that I can drink without worrying this trip! Goddd knows what tooo think :s x

 

[Pino6161]

Lauren--- I would take the first temp cause the 2nd you don't sleep at least 3 hours. It might make your chart look funny, but it's the most accurate. Your chart looks great so far though so don't worry too much!!

Treasured--- I have a tendency to look at your ticker to see where you are before reading your post, so I was confused for a minute Try to relax, and let's not scare AF into coming LOL FX FX


So my temp shot up today, but my monitor is still on high fertility. I am starting to think it was a waste of a hundred and some dollars so I am kinda ticked off. I didn't have any EWCM either (I never really had it, but I hoped these pills would help that) And I didn't have sex yesterday cause me and OH got into a bit of a argument. So I can't help but think that I am out.

 

[treasured]

Ohhhh im out af snuck up on me! 28 day cycle now tho atleast I guess... Good luck everyone else x

 

[Pino6161]

Treasured--- I am sorry stupid witch!!