sweetpea, i'm rooting (sp?) for you guys and missing you but i'm so SAD!! I was supposed to be 12 weeks today. I found out my neighbor is due in December a couple weeks after I was supposed to be (they asked me to keep my dog quiet cause she's prego) and literally every house surrounding me and about halfway down the street either has a newborn or they are pregnant. Blah blah blah, I'm having a hard time. But honestly, it is not as much of a mindfack as the first mc, which was a chemical. Maybe cause I didn't talk about that one with anyone. I had a d&c two weeks ago and the actual procedure and hospital visit were better than I expected but the recovery was worse. I'm still scared I had the d&c and my head keeps going to a scary place where I fear being one of the people who keeps having one mc after another... My mom said some messed up stuff right before the d&c of course, and I know she doesn't understand. She says give it a break till after my wedding next summer. ...I know I'm going to try again but I don't want to risk going through a miscarriage at my wedding...... I just want to know that there's a happy ending eventually, but one can't know! Damn you mother nature!!!!! Oh the irony!!! I stayed away from the site for a ittle while, now i'm stalking you guys and being dramatic and morose on the mc support threads. i logged the mc in fertility friend just now and was remembering how when i got my bfp, i compared it to other charts and noticed a similarity in some other mc charts... creepy how i had signs from the beginning, was trying to be positive but didn't succeed. i told myelf the d&c was a good idea largely because i'd be able to see if there was a genetic reason the pregnancy didn't work out, but sadly, after the d&c, the labs came back negative for pregnancy tissue! and super tmi, three chunks came out in the following week, one which i was sure was a baby, but i told myself i was nuts for wanting to fish it out of the potty and look........ after learning they didnt get the prego tissue out, now i'm sure that was it...... anyway!!
i am stalking and cheering you on
and more to the topic of cycle buddies thread, here's a neato graph and report from fertility friend on how long the average period lasts. good to know! cause i always wondered if maybe mine was too long. it's a heavy five days and trails off usually until the 8th day.
Menstrual Period Length Stats Study
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Menstrual Period Length Stats Study
How long does the typical menstrual period last?
We analyzed the duration of menstrual periods of roughly 19000 fertility/ovulation charts on FertilityFriend.com.
Average: 5.15 Days.
Median: 5 Days.
We found that 66% of the sample's charts include one or more days of spotting mostly at the end of the period. Further analysis showed that the median number of days of spotting is 1 day.
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xoxxoxoxoo love you guys. thanks sweetpea for calling me out. i feel wierd sometimes talking cause i'm a drama queen but dont wanna be.
how do you guys make the link to your ff charts have the preview image? i wanna set it up and get back to charting soon so i can tell how long it takes for my body to make sense again. i think it will take me 7 months to conceive again if i decide to try 100 percent.......... it's getting past 8 weeks that i'm worried about now. by the way, i have some friends who r like, you biotch, at least ur getting prego. : ( ....but i want to be a mom to an ALIVE baby, not the manufacturer of pain and expensive, out of pocket, gory tragedy!!! it's a real kick in the figurative balls that i've racked up massive medical bills to top off the saddest chapter of my life. it would have been much nicer to be in a financially horrible situation with a lovely milkball of sunshine to give it all meaning and create motivation.
i hope we all get our babies soon, and that we are lucky enough that they are healthy and happy or at least geniuses.