smidgen
Mummy 2 Finlay & 4 angels
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Hi Ladies
Looking for some support as finding it incredibly hard to speak with OH. Went to hospital yesterday for second early scan - should have been 8+3 weeks but had abdo/back pain and brown discharge over weekend. They couldn't find a heartbeat and said baby only measuring 6+3 weeks so baby must have died 2 days after first scan. So they have sent me home with my dead baby still inside and have me down for D & C on Thurs. It's freaking me out - I am struggling to walk around knowing I am carrying my dead baby around with me - its seems so inhumane! They said the sac was deformed that the walls had started to cave in but I have some niggling feeling - what if the sonographer got it wrong - will they scan me on Thur before the D & C - what if my baby is alive and they kill her???
I am so messed up in the head -this is the 3rd baby I've lost. The first in 2005, the second in Sept this year and now another bubba gone. My heart feels like its broken. Life sucks. How do you guys cope? Someone please give me some strength. x
Looking for some support as finding it incredibly hard to speak with OH. Went to hospital yesterday for second early scan - should have been 8+3 weeks but had abdo/back pain and brown discharge over weekend. They couldn't find a heartbeat and said baby only measuring 6+3 weeks so baby must have died 2 days after first scan. So they have sent me home with my dead baby still inside and have me down for D & C on Thurs. It's freaking me out - I am struggling to walk around knowing I am carrying my dead baby around with me - its seems so inhumane! They said the sac was deformed that the walls had started to cave in but I have some niggling feeling - what if the sonographer got it wrong - will they scan me on Thur before the D & C - what if my baby is alive and they kill her???
I am so messed up in the head -this is the 3rd baby I've lost. The first in 2005, the second in Sept this year and now another bubba gone. My heart feels like its broken. Life sucks. How do you guys cope? Someone please give me some strength. x