An update ladies... went into hospital at 1000am yesterday, was put on a gynae ward with a load of old biddies laughing about xmas and the snow etc - totally did my head in. My nurse wasn't even a midwife and waffled a load of crap when I was asking her questions! I didn't get taken down to theatre til 1500hrs, despite being told 1200,1300, 1400 so as you can imagine it was a very long morning and I was a nervous wreck. So got down to theatre was put on theatre bed and had to wait a further 20 mins whilst they found the consultant who'd gone aWOL - and that's when I totally freaked and broke down - was wanting to get of the table and just let it happen naturally but they managed to calm me down. Anyway when I came round after the EVAC (as they called it - not very nice IMO), I was extremely sorry - was rolling about the bed in pain so they had to give me morphine! By the time I got back upstairs, my OH was going off his head as they hadn't told him why a 40 min procedure turned in 1hr 40mins! So they said I'd have to wait a good few hrs before they'd let me home. Then I couldn't pee despite having drunk 5 mugs of tea, 2 litres of water -so they were planning to catheterise me! however after the pressure of a bladder scan I managed a few trickles and persuaded them to let me home. So I got to leave at 2200hrs - so was there for 12hrs instead of 4!
Unfortunately I haven't managed to sleep a wink though - every time I close my eyes I keep on seeing the orange clinical waste bags and can't get it out of my head that my ruby might have been put in one of them like tulips - even though they did tell me that she would be cremated...
The pain is bearable today as got tramadol, paracetamol and some buscopan from the them. The bleeding isn't to heavy now either - was bad last night though. But my heart is breaking still - I just feel so numb and empty.