Bonjour everyone!
Welcome back, Vicky! So glad everything went so well and you've got your baby safe and sound!
I slept until 6:30 am today! Huzzah!
I am still wretchedly ill, but I have way more energy in the morning. By evening I am ready to keel over and the fevery feeling returns. I was getting earaches and it hurt to swallow yesterday, too, so I was freaking out that I was getting just a massive, generalized head infection. One in which every orifice is inflamed, infected and miserable. But no! A very good night's sleep seems to have done a lot of healing.
I have myself to blame for feeling worse yesterday. I couldn't just sit and rest. I felt like it was absolutely necessary to go out and do errands, and then come home and scour the house.
I had my girlfriend and her 15-month-old over for a visit yesterday afternoon, so I sort of panicked that nothing was clean enough and went crazy.
I was so tired by the time they got here and the little one was so energetic....
Um, it actually made me a bit dismayed. We couldn't have a conservation. The toddler was careening around the house, grabbing at everything, so we spent lots of time chasing after her. I know I was too tired for a visit, but I couldn't help but stare at the situation and think, "Oh my god. This will be me next year. What have I done?"
I'm not naive. I know how much work kids are, but I had one of those hit-it-home moments of the less appealing side of parenthood. A simple conversation is no longer guaranteed. You are constantly distracted by baby and don't finish your sentences. It is sort of tedious to be the non-parent in that situation.
And that unsettled me a bit.
I think I need to just trust that by the time next year rolls around, I'll be ready to handle an energetic toddler.
And I know being sick and exhausted made the situation worse. I was looking forward to a visit with my friend and instead I got a session of nutty kid at full speed!
And that'll be me soon. AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!