Depressing start to the weekend :(

[cutsiecubbie]

*WARNING*WARNING* I'm feeling pretty dang depressed about AF showing up early (if that's what this is). This was my 4th month TTC #1. Everything went perfect, so I thought, and I was extremely happy. Loads of , first positive OPK, a few promising symptoms, spotting which I thought was implantation...yada, yada, yada. WELL, now (3rd day) the spotting seems it may be getting a little more prominent. AF is supposed to still be 3 days away and she's NEVER early! So what in the heck IS THIS?? Got a BFN yesterday and now all symptoms have disappeared, even ones related to AF. I really don't know if I can go thru all the trying again this next cycle. It's a lot of work all for a and some depression. I know a lot of you ladies have been trying WAY longer than me and I need to know how you do it . How do you stay positive? I was so upset this morning that I just "plugged it" and said "oh just come and get me, ruin my weekend!" And of course as I've said before, preggos are busting out everywhere...friends, co-workers, family members, strangers... I'm sick of it...grrrrr! I've never had any general health or cycle problems in my life. So why is it not happening? Sorry to go off on a tangent, but I'm at work trying to be upbeat and not show my emotions and I had to get this off my back. I know I'll come out of my funk but right now I'm just depressed, angry, sad, exhausted and on and on...oh yeah...it must be PMS not preggers, right?

 

[Dan'ls Wifey]

Oh you poor thing I'm sorry dear I know how you feel though, BFN again this morning for me. We'll be together this next cycle though!

 

[Smitty]

Aw, sorry, hun, sounds like you're having a rough time. I understand being upset after trying after 4 months. I have been trying for 9 cycles now (about to go into my 10th) and I have cried every single time it didn't work. So I understand that it's frustrating at any point even if you haven't tried that long. I have a million pregnant friends too, so I get that as well.

It is tricky to stay positive month after month. I think it's good to allow yourself a couple days to cry, rant, and feel sorry for yourself. For me, it's theraputic and then once I get it out of my system I feel better and then I turn my attitude around. I guess I just have to because I can't give up on my dream of being a mom.

Hang in there! It will happen for you! Try to remember that it takes many healthy couples a year to conceive. It will happen for you!!!

 

[Kaede351]

I had a bfn this morning too, and this is my 15th cycle... I have no idea how I stay positive! I thin kI just say to myslef... it will be this cycle... it will be this cycle.

I know how you feel though, about millions of people being pregnant. I went with my aunty to pick my little cousin up from his first week of school ( can only pick him up on friday's cuz of work), and there must have been at least 4 other mums who were pregnant. I went to Asda... and there were like a million pregnant women... one of my co-workers (who I was ecstatic was going on maternity leave so I wouldn't have to be depressed at work anymore) is back everyday because she's "bored" at home... there are a couple of the mum's of the kids at work who are pregnant... my aunty is pregnant again for the 2nd time in like 12 months... I just want to cry >.<

We will get it though babe. Every single one of us will get it

XxX

 

[Nat0619]

I completely understand all you ladies. I'm only 4dpo this month yet so guess I can't count myself out but not got much PMA today

All of my friends seem to be able to fall pregnant at the drop of a hat. Two of them have one child each, both 18 months old, and last time I saw them both they were both planning on starting to ttc their 2nd. So I'm just waiting for the news that one or both of them is pregnant and has beat me to it when I haven't even managed my first yet

I'm seeing one of them on Monday and she knows I am ttc and I just know the question will come up. Why oh why did I bother telling anyone I am trying?! Big mistake. Plus she may well be pregnant herself already of course!

x

 

[Kaede351]

I know how you feel Nat... it's heart breaking isn't it I would go to the doctors and ask them if there could be something wrong, but they will say they can't do anything because I have been g at least once in the last 12 months... even if it did end in mc. I have to wait another 6 months before they will do anything, And even then I'm sure they will just say "you need to lose weight" etc... all the normal things they say to fob you off.

We'll get there though, I have to keep telling ymself that or I'll cry lol

XxX

 

[cutsiecubbie]

Thanks so much for the support ladies. I'll get over it after awhile. Just so upsetting. And I agree with Nat, it's hard to not tell people you're trying because it's exciting when you get to that point in life, but then you have to listen to all the "you're not pregnent yet?" comments! I guess my baby just wasn't supposed to be born next May. But maybe June FX!!

 

[Nat0619]

June is a fab month to be born (I'm a June birthday)! x

 

[luckybeans17]

I know exactly how you feel...just got AF this morning and it wasnt due tll Sunday...i hate her. So upset today i just need to cry. I thought this would be the month too. I also know how you feel with everyone else being preggo...i work in a school and it feels like every teacher is pregnant. Plus my friends are getting pregnant on the frst try and im happy for them but it kills me inside. I gues we will be trying together again in 2 weeks. I will prolly O sometme between 9/24 and 9/26...this is my 6th cycle trying and it doesn't get easier but like nat0619 said...june is a great month to have a birthday

 

[cutsiecubbie]

Hi luckybeans, sorry AF got you too it's really hard to deal with after having hope for a month and feeling that you could be preggers. Yep, I'll be trying again with you in a few weeks. Let's keep in touch.

 

[Kaede351]

It's not very often I go a whole 2ww convinced I'm pg... Actually, I don't think I've ever THOUGHT I was pg... Even the month I was I didn't really feel it. But this month everything was so different! My boobs were sore from 4dpo, I've felt nauseous, fatigued to the point of nearly falling asleep at work... I obviously don't know my body at all!!!

AF isn't here yet, but it's only a matter of time now. I'm due today and my temp took a dive, so on to month 16 I go

XxX

 

[Nat0619]

It's not over until she arrives! x

 

[hch]

hugs hun x

 

[Kaede351]

Thanks girls, I feel like I'm whining, but I'm gutted lol.

XxX