duckytwins
3 boys and 3 angels
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We have 6 year old twin boys at home and I was thrilled when DH decided he was ready to try for a third! We got pg in October and were so excited!! I had some bleeding issues early on (had the same with the boys), and was checked and checked and everything was fine. We finally decided it was okay to tell people that we were pregnant and began telling work, family and friends on Thanksgiving that we were having a baby!!
I went in for my NT scan just before 13 weeks and was lead to believe everything was fine.... until I got a phone call from my Dr. that afternoon. He said he thought the baby's facial structure looked a little off and told me to go to the hospital for another scan. DH went with me the next day and we got the news...
There was a definite facial and head structure abnormality and the Dr. said there was too much fluid in the brain. She suspected trisomy 13 and asked me to get a CVS done. DH and I were devastated. After 3 months, we might lose the baby.
We went in for the CVS on Friday afternoon and it was horrible. I couldn't stop crying, knowing there was something wrong and the stupid sonographer made us listen to the heartbeat and said, "It sounds good!"
It's only been three days since the test and I can't stop crying. All I can think about it that my baby will die. I am pregnant with a baby who won't live. I know we haven't gotten the test results back yet (those will come either tomorrow or Wednesday), but the problems were so clear on the ultrasound, I can't imagine the outcome will be a good one.
I want so badly to pray for a miracle or for news that they were wrong, but I know it won't come. I have never been so devastated in my life. All I can think about over and over in my head is, "my baby will die. It's less than two weeks from Christmas and my baby will die." How am I supposed to handle this??
I feel so alone and scared and confused, and a little angry. Please help me. Please tell me it will be okay and I'm not being punished.
And oh God, how do we tell the boys? How do you tell 6 year olds, who know there's a baby in mommy's tummy, that the baby won't live? How do you explain that???
OMG, I can't do this. It's just too hard...
I went in for my NT scan just before 13 weeks and was lead to believe everything was fine.... until I got a phone call from my Dr. that afternoon. He said he thought the baby's facial structure looked a little off and told me to go to the hospital for another scan. DH went with me the next day and we got the news...
There was a definite facial and head structure abnormality and the Dr. said there was too much fluid in the brain. She suspected trisomy 13 and asked me to get a CVS done. DH and I were devastated. After 3 months, we might lose the baby.
We went in for the CVS on Friday afternoon and it was horrible. I couldn't stop crying, knowing there was something wrong and the stupid sonographer made us listen to the heartbeat and said, "It sounds good!"
It's only been three days since the test and I can't stop crying. All I can think about it that my baby will die. I am pregnant with a baby who won't live. I know we haven't gotten the test results back yet (those will come either tomorrow or Wednesday), but the problems were so clear on the ultrasound, I can't imagine the outcome will be a good one.
I want so badly to pray for a miracle or for news that they were wrong, but I know it won't come. I have never been so devastated in my life. All I can think about over and over in my head is, "my baby will die. It's less than two weeks from Christmas and my baby will die." How am I supposed to handle this??
I feel so alone and scared and confused, and a little angry. Please help me. Please tell me it will be okay and I'm not being punished.
And oh God, how do we tell the boys? How do you tell 6 year olds, who know there's a baby in mommy's tummy, that the baby won't live? How do you explain that???
OMG, I can't do this. It's just too hard...