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Good morning everyone. It's 5:50am here. I woke up at 5:30 and couldn't fall back asleep. All of the realities of my life started flooding into my brain. For a brief moment in sleep I was able to go back to a land of being pregnant and happy. When I woke up, I was stung by the reality of it all. I'm so so sad. They say 3 times is so rare. Well I feel like I should play the lottery given my luck with odds. Maybe I would hit the jackpot.
I was feeling strength last night. Now I'm wondering if I was in shock. I feel heavier this morning and much more fragile. I'm writing this through my tears. I don't know how I'm going to pick myself up and move on. How do we all do it? I know I have twice already, but I can't remember how to do it. Do any of you remember?
Uuuggh, I have to go to work today and meet with a client. My eyes are practically swollen shut. In truth, it will be better than staying at home and dwelling on this, but it still won't be easy. I just got a new boss 2 weeks ago and I'm trying to figure out if I should tell her. If it were my old boss, I would have told her 2 weeks ago when I found out I was pregnant. She went through my last 2 losses with me. I wish she was still here, she's like my surrogate mother. Do I tell the new boss? She's very kind, but she's my age. She's a social worker (all of my colleagues are social workers and therapists) so she'll be understanding, I'm sure. It just feels awkward to tell a stranger. I don't know. Any thoughts would be appreciated. I'm lost...
I was feeling strength last night. Now I'm wondering if I was in shock. I feel heavier this morning and much more fragile. I'm writing this through my tears. I don't know how I'm going to pick myself up and move on. How do we all do it? I know I have twice already, but I can't remember how to do it. Do any of you remember?
Uuuggh, I have to go to work today and meet with a client. My eyes are practically swollen shut. In truth, it will be better than staying at home and dwelling on this, but it still won't be easy. I just got a new boss 2 weeks ago and I'm trying to figure out if I should tell her. If it were my old boss, I would have told her 2 weeks ago when I found out I was pregnant. She went through my last 2 losses with me. I wish she was still here, she's like my surrogate mother. Do I tell the new boss? She's very kind, but she's my age. She's a social worker (all of my colleagues are social workers and therapists) so she'll be understanding, I'm sure. It just feels awkward to tell a stranger. I don't know. Any thoughts would be appreciated. I'm lost...