allforthegirl
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Not sure what to say really...
Started bleeding and cramping on Friday night/Saturday morning so I made an appointment with the doctor on call. Was in lots of pain so I was sent to the hospital to be checked and when they did a scan, I was told that I had miscarried. They thought the miscarriage was incomplete because they could still see bits of material in my uterus so I had a D&C a few hours later... I was given the option to wait for a few days to see if things passed on there own but I was in so much pain that I decided to get it over and done with. Thankfully they sedated me for the procedure so I didn't have to witness it. Was hospitalised for a few hours but then I was sent home with antibiotics and pain killers.
Feel so incredibly guilty because I had considered having an abortion and although I know its irrational... I somehow feel like I am being punished. Haven't spoken to my (ex) SO - I sent him a text to fill him in and he replied once but I haven't heard from him since... he appears to be ignoring me. No doubt he's delighted but there are no words to describe how sad I feel.
Wishing ye a happy and healthy nine months. Hope to be back here again some day.
I'm so very sorry you have gone through this. I am right here for you. Please PM any time if you want to talk, I will be able to relate as I am still cramping and bleeding. A constant reminder what I don't have anymore.
I'm very sorry to hear about your loss as well. I've stopped bleeding (for the moment anyway) but I'm still cramping. I was told each could last for 10-14 days. Wish I could fast forward the next few weeks of my life. Knowing my ex is happy with someone else is killing me as well. Ugh
Well the one thing that is getting me through is that everything happens for a reason. So maybe it happened because my endo is plugging my tubes and they need to be fixed first or maybe it just wasn't my time. If this guy was so awful maybe he is not meant to be a dad. I KNOW in my heart of hearts you ARE meant to be a mom. A really great mom! You need to vent any time message me, I'll be there!