Sorry, I haven't really been keeping up on things in here as I've just been so sick and tired the past week or so. I travel long hours for work (6 hours total per day, 3 hours up to my office and 3 hours back) 3 days a week and then the other days I work from home. And then my husband has also been really busy (we run a family business), so the days when I haven't spent 6 hours on a train from the crack of dawn, he's been working til 10pm. So just no time to ever get caught up on life and I've been so drained! I hope you all are doing well.
I'm 7+2 today and I have my private scan this morning. I'd found out I'd had a mmc at 5 weeks in my last pregnancy at this scan, so it was very emotional. Even just going back into the same building, I literally wanted to turn around and run out the door! But I have always felt very differently about this pregnancy. I feel pregnant, with even more symptoms I think than with my daughter (which was 5 years ago, so maybe I just don't remember but anyway). I didn't really feel like this with my mc. So I was pretty sure everything would be fine, but still very overwhelming to have the scan. But all went well. Baby is measuring 7+3 (1 day ahead of my dates by LMP, but who knows how that will change by my actual dating scan), but it's still one day closer to my daughter's birthday! Her birthday is the 8th of Feb and baby is due 13th of Feb by that measurement. I went early with her though, so I'll gladly take the extra day if that's how it turns out! We saw the heart just beating away (at 140) which was amazing. When we had the scan with my mc, there was just nothing really there that looked like much of anything. But here was a little baby shaped blob and I could see his/her heart really easily. It was amazing. Here's a photo, though obviously not a whole lot to see at this point still.
Still feeling very emotional about it all. It feels like it's starting to really set in now after feeling like we were in limbo for so long. The baby clothes and the new car seat I bought before my miscarriage and then put away because I didn't want to look at them, I feel like I can get them out again. So it's making the fact I feel like absolute rubbish and sick 24 hours a day without any relief seem worth it. I have my first midwife appointment on Wednesday as well. I need to clean the house this weekend before she comes because it's a tip!