So I am a very private person. I have always felt I had everything in control. Now that I have been TTC for 3 years with no success I feel very out of control. I try my best to hide this "failure" to those who know me by pretending that it doesn't bother me that it hasn't happend yet.But it does bother me and I hate that I can't seem to make it happen. Anyway I guess joining this website is a way for me to "talk" about my fears and feelings. It is a little comforting to see that so many other women are in this as well.