first cycle actively trying (June 2015)

[gina236]

That's where I see the line, and edited to try to show it more. I definitely see a line there!! Eeek!!!

Eta: damn it looks like bnb killed the quality on the pic. Not as clear now.

 

[Gagrlinpitt]

I guess we will see on Saturday when I test again.

 

[wifeybby]

Vel, yay for TWW! Hope this is it for you! Come on, bump buddy! I agree with everyone, your temps look like you O'd and I'd go with that. I think the digis are weird -- did you test with FMU like it instructs? I've only used FMU since there were not many test sticks in a pack for $30, but I've always read to test in the early afternoon and before bed with four hour hold. OPKs can be so stressful.

Les - So happy to see you around again! Hope you're doing okay and feeling good about this cycle. Wish I had the OPK experience you do, I have never seen a positive. I thank PCOS for that, though lol

Gina, so glad your HSG was clear!! I've heard that too, better chances 3 months after that. Same applies for laparoscopy, so hopefully I have that on my side too since that was Feb 12th. Hope your tx plan is short and sweet theres soooo many success stories on Clomid it's ridiculous! Of course no one wants to takes meds they don't need, and since you O on your own it's probably not necessary -- but I think it would give you a perfectly mature egg and possibly more than one egg. So maybe the culprit is that you O before the egg is totally ready? I of course have no clue, but just a thought. If it would help with egg quality I'd give it a shot. It was only like $9 for me, its a very inexpensive drug. FX for you!

GaGrl, I'm so sorry I don't see it I know how hard it is to capture in a photo though, and how different it is in person. Can't wait to see Saturday's test with a darker line! what symptoms are you having? FX FX FX!!

AFM, negative OPK today which is awesome news for me. There is a second line, but not as strong as control line. I'm so very happy to see that though, I was afraid I would O and not get the trigger shot. I really have faith in these medications to do the dirty work for me I feel like I have a better chance with the trigger by far. FX this works!! Ahh!! Excited to test out the trigger!

 

[Gagrlinpitt]

Wifey,
When I look at it now I don't see anything unless I zoom in.

Symptoms- congested, very gassy and bloated, nipple soreness which is much less then my usual LP, nauseated sometimes, my back is sore, crampy, and I'm very very tired this week.

Now granted all those can also been symptoms of impending AF too.

 

[gina236]

I hate how af and early pg symptoms are the same! It's maddening.

Wifey I've had that thought too about the egg not being fully mature. It's possible. I was talking to my mom and realized with almost all my chemicals it was when I O'd early (CD12) so maybe that's the issue. I also heard of being "super fertile" where basically your uterus lets any egg implant whether it's good or not causing a chemical when your body figures out its bad or not mature or whatever. I O regularly so I never thought of taking clomid or soy but the more I think about it, the more I'd be willing to give it a try just to see if it helps. I figure it's either egg quality or lining issue. 1 monitored cycle would tell me either of those so hopefully I won't need to but at least that would be an easy answer.

 

[Velathria]

It's crazy how for years we have pretty normal cycles and then suddenly when we decide to ttc we find out our eggs aren't good enough, or the environment isn't good enough down there or the lining isn't or yadayadayada.. it is the worst!! I have had it.. Why can't everything just be normal and then BOOM and viola the baby pops out and everyone is happy oh wouldn't that be wonderful but alas the women that deserve it have to work with basically no chance and the ones that don't care just pop them out like daisies!! It's not fair!! We must've done some horrible things in our past life to have to go through this..

(vent over)

I wish there was like a clear sign right after ovulation where you just know. Like in sims when the baby song used to play right after.. that's when i used to know that my sims had made a baby now wouldn't that be just amazeballs! XD

Gina- I'd say do what the doc recommends. She really sounds like the knows what she is doing. ^^ and hopefully you don't need that much more testing and that after this hsg, you will get that miracle baby ^^

Gag- i'm gonna be the downer here but sadly i don't see a line. Now, i squinted my eyes like a mad person i think i am cross eyed now XD but couldn't for the life of me see anything... but i think pics don't do the lines justice so i do think there is a line ^^ and i hope on saturday it will be super duper dark

Wifey- yeah the digis are kind of annoying.. here i thought "Hey. Those are more expensive and not some dodgey chinese brand so they must be good''

PFF Naaaw!! It's not ovulating all over again with those stupid things.. i think i'll go back to the IC's they seem to atleast look a bit like i ovulated.. I'll use up the digi ones next cycle and then i'll buy IC's again.
And temping all the way ^^ I'm sooo glad i started that ^^ Now if my CM would work the way it's supposed to then maybe i'll have a chance ^^

AND FX FOR BUMP BUDDIES!! That be sooo cool ^^

les- hope everything is going well for you ^^ your so lucky to get such amazing lines on opks wish i had that. lol oh well we all have our own little problems don't we? And we all gather here to cry it out XD

Let's just hope your next AF doesn't show for all of us. FX FX FX

 

[wifeybby]

Alert!! This is a flashing smiley alert!! This is not a drill!

this is huge for me right now!! Finally. The whole pack was negative until this last one.

Trigger shot in 6 hours -- BD last night, then going with when re says to.

Happy Friday, y'all!

 

[Gagrlinpitt]

Yay wifey! Now go catch that egg.

Afm, with the temp drop this morning I'm thinking more and more like I was just seeing things.. But hey this was a great first cycle.

 

[gina236]

Yay wifey!!! Get that egg girl!!

Gag your not out until AF shows. FX.

Vel I agree completely with your rant. This horrible person I know just announced she's having her 3rd (after saying she never ever wants another). She announced it on April fools day so of course people freaked out. One girl I know who had twins at 23 week had to pull the plug on one of them (the other did survive!) But she got very upset by what she thought was a prank and deleted the girl. The pregnant girl then went on to message the one that had lost her daughter saying she used the "benefits" from her daughters death to get her hair and nails done and rubbed it in her face that she is pregnant with her "3rd healthy baby" how in the world can she have 3 unplanned kids but people like us have to struggle?! How is that fair?! Ugh. It so bothers me!!

 

[wifeybby]

I couldn't agree more, guys. It's total crap.

Vel, you crack me up! I WISH the baby song would play to let you know! Hahaha! That'd be great! Isn't there some kind of ape or something that a spot on its belly gets red when it ovulates to signal fertility to a mate? Why don't we have that?! Lmao!

 

[Velathria]

gina- I totally agree!! waaah!!! our neighbor seriously has 6 children!! Six!! and she doesnt care at all about them! one is 2, the other i think 1 year old now and she just had another one! Like what the effing hell! you should see how she treats them and especially out in this cold rainy weather you can see the 1 year old and 2 year old just running around outside in onesies and nothing else on.. and on the street. I just think this is unfair!! So unfair.. and if i hear one more person telling me about how i should relax and that everything is fine and i will get pregnant someday.. i don't want someday *pout* ..

Gag- Gina is right... you are out when AF is here but at least you are prepared for it if she does come so thats good ^^ but i think for the first month after coming off of bc your temping and cycles looks good ^^

wifey- OMG wouldn't that be epic !! XD it be so easy then!

 

[Velathria]

btw still have no crosshairs yet.. but my temp keeps going up and down again.. although i think this morning when i did my temp it should've been higher.. I did it earlier then usual and my son kept moving the blanket before i tested so maybe i got colder through that.. who knows.

 

[Gagrlinpitt]

btw still have no crosshairs yet.. but my temp keeps going up and down again.. although i think this morning when i did my temp it should've been higher.. I did it earlier then usual and my son kept moving the blanket before i tested so maybe i got colder through that.. who knows.

From your chart is looks like you ovulated on CD 14

 

[gina236]

Vel I think it's not giving you CH just because of the open circles. FF is picky about when you temp. I definitely think you did though.

And I agree. Can't we just have a clear sign saying your ovulating and then right after be like "sucess" and then another when the baby inplants?! There has got to be some technology out there that could do that!

 

[Velathria]

yeah i know we have so much technologie and still nothing for that XD so i have a question about temping... when would it be that i ovulate.. on the day where the temp was the lowest or is it the day after? Cause i'm confused about that. Some charts i've seen its on the lowest and then some after.. Seems like you are all pretty experienced tempers

Also gina you said you knew by your chart that you were low on progestrone.. does mine look like it could be?

 

[gina236]

FF looks for a .4 degree jump for ovulation (well in F at least, no idea for C. Lol) so ovulation would be the day before the jump. The jump is caused by increases progesterone after ovulation. To me your chart looks fine for that. I notice for me some months are great and others arent. When progesterone is low, you tend to have a shorter LP, spot before AF, and your temp will slowly climb, not all of a sudden jump up like yours did. I would guess you O'd CD16 or 17 but because you didn't have solid temps not sure which one. But there is definitely a trend of lower temps and then higher temps. That's what you are looking for. It's the trend, not each specific temp. Okay done rambling now

 

[Jezika]

Hi lovely ladies. Only had a chance to catch up with the past couple of pages so sorry if I missed something. Been a little AWOL with school and also trying to distract myself from obsessing with pregnancy stuff.

Vel - your temps are looking good! I definitely reckon you O'd. I remember it seemingly took FF forever to retroactively put CH in on my first temping cycle. I'm sure you'll see it in the next few days.

Gina - I think I missed if you're definitely be going to be doing a monitored cycle, but if it does happen, it sounds like a great way to see what's going on. Btw you have some crazy knowledge on fertility - I always learn so much from your posts. I bet you give REs a run for their money! I do hope my slow-rising temps aren't an issue, though. I find anything to worry about these days.

Gag - I actually definitely thought I saw some faint pink in your HPT pic! FX it's good news, but either way it sounds like you're in a good spot. Can't wait to see your test tomorrow.

Wifey - Congrats on the definite O! Woo hoo! Get your rocks off, lady friend! (Do you guys say that in North America?)

AFM, I'm just taking each day as it comes. I go between optimistic and 100% certain of impending MC dozens of times throughout each day. My wondfos stopped picking up any darker lines since 18DPO (the test and control lines are about the same when dry) and even though it seems that that's the darkness at which wondfos max out for other people too, I worry. I ran out of FRERs at 20DPO, at which point my test line was darker than control, but when I see other people's FRER progressions being a lot faster or the control line being much fainter than mine at 20DPO, I worry. When my sore boobs disappear for a bit I worry. I worry about the sharp pains that I intermittently feel mostly on the right side of my uterus (or ovary?) but also sometimes on my left. I haven't spotted yet, thank goodness, but I still worry worry worry. Argh! I am DEFINITELY up for a bit of technology that clearly confirms when every step is completed properly. Of course I'm very happy to be pg, but it kind of sucks not to let myself properly **feel** pg because of all the worry. Still, I have a doc appt on Monday and hopefully be sent for bloods and maybe a u/s... but that makes me so nervous!

 

[Jezika]

In case anyone is interested, here are my progression pics. Bear in mind there are several days between most of the tests.

 

[gina236]

Nice to hear from you jez. I really think you have nothing to worry about (not that that's going to stop you from worrying). Unfortunately having a loss takes all the fun out of early pregnancy. I hope you can find a way to enjoy it. I tried to be in the mindset of "today you are pregnant" or "pregnant until proven otherwise". Everything you have described sounds perfectly normal to me. In 2 days you are out of "chemical territory" so I hope you can relax a little. Chemicals are unfortunately very common and if you weren't trying you probably wouldn't have even realized it happened last time. You are so much farther along now and your tests look perfect. I hope your doctors appointment Monday can put your mind at ease a little. Sometimes just having a doctor say "yup you're pregnant" is all it takes to believe it and relax. Sending your way.

And I'm glad I can teach you something I just do A LOT of research. After a year of trying (and one or two years of thinking about it) i have had alot of time to look things up as of right now I am not doing a monitored cycle. Just blood tests throughout the cycle and the hsg yesterday. If this month doesn't work I will sit down with my doctor and see what she recommends. At this point my deductible is almost met so I feel like now is the time to get all sorts of testing done just for the heck of it

 

[Jezika]

Thanks for the kind words, Gina. You're always so sweet. And definitely max out that deductible! Are you feeling more optimistic at the moment?

And I just remembered the posts about how some people just have kids so easily without even wanting them. TELL me about it. I sometimes do assessments for parents involved in Children's Aid Society cases and I'm often astounded by the sheer number of kids some of these people have. At that's fine and dandy when they're wanted and treated well, but a lot of the time these kids have clearly been abused or neglected. I find it not only so, so sad but also incredibly unfair, as you guys said too. not that I'm judging these people because I know sometimes their circumstances are difficult and the parents themselves are very distressed, but it's hard to reconcile how one young woman can have 3-4 kids in foster care with another on the way, and how another woman who wants nothing more than to have even just one child to give a wonderful home to can spend years trying and trying.