first cycle actively trying (June 2015)

[Velathria]

gina- mmmh i was thinking too that i might have ovulated already... I don't know though.. It's so confusing the chart XD it kept going down.. Guess i'll see how my temp looks tomorrow.
If this cycle doesnt work i'll def have enough opks to test early on. So thank god for that. Sucks i only got them today.. I am still having ovulation cramps though on both ovaries but besides i only have watery cm.. So don't know really. Hope my bloodwork is done soon maybe i am not ovulating... Gonna go look what a annovulatory chart looks like...

Now i am not having such a positive outlook for this month.. Oh i just don't know anymore what to do.
And thanks about my book .^^ i got inspired by a teacher i once had hahaha

Gag- I'm glad you got your CH ^^ that means you are officially now in tww. FX that that you caught that egg ^^

 

[Velathria]

well i just googled annovulatory charts and actually found something else. It showed a chart for estrogen deficiency and mine looks the same as that atleast up till now.. That makes sense cause i looked up before because of my lack of CM and it said it can be a symptom of estrogen deficiency...

Oh man i hope i don't have that... I really need those bloodresults. I am driving myself crazy here now -.-

 

[Gagrlinpitt]

gina- mmmh i was thinking too that i might have ovulated already... I don't know though.. It's so confusing the chart XD it kept going down.. Guess i'll see how my temp looks tomorrow.
If this cycle doesnt work i'll def have enough opks to test early on. So thank god for that. Sucks i only got them today.. I am still having ovulation cramps though on both ovaries but besides i only have watery cm.. So don't know really. Hope my bloodwork is done soon maybe i am not ovulating... Gonna go look what a annovulatory chart looks like...

Now i am not having such a positive outlook for this month.. Oh i just don't know anymore what to do.
And thanks about my book .^^ i got inspired by a teacher i once had hahaha

Gag- I'm glad you got your CH ^^ that means you are officially now in tww. FX that that you caught that egg ^^

Thanks! How are you feeling today..

 

[gina236]

Vel, if it is that I feel like it could be easily treated with medication. I don't understand why it is taking so long to get your bloods back. Have you tried calling them? Maybe they forgot to call or something.

Just got back from my appointment. It was very quick and I didn't ask much of anything because she didn't really give me a chance lol. I have 2 orders for bloods CD 4 and 21 and am getting an hsg next week. And i got a pap today even though i have AF (ewww). DH also got a goodie bag. he has to do a SA. So overall she seems very proactive just very rushed.

 

[wifeybby]

I missed quite a bit here! That was fast!

Thinking of you, Gina. I know you're at the doctors at this very moment, being strong and facing a hard moment of getting help with this. It took a lot to get you here and I really believe it will only get better from here. I hope it goes perfectly, you get some answers or hints and are on your way to clearing up whatever may be the holdback. You'll do just fine I think the increased Clomid dosage is more effective, still feeling a lot of "activity" like heaviness and pin pokes and general uncomfortableness in a gentle way. It's odd lol but I'll take it as it's working.. Lots of hot flashes all day and all night, it's a bit ridiculous lol and higher anxiety today that may or may not be related.

Lovely lines, Jez. FRERs are my fave line porn haha I agree with Gina, I believe this is your forever baby. I know it might sound weird, but don't let lines freak you out over the next couple weeks. Some girls on here keep testing forever and get so stressed. I'd leave it to your doctor now, except maybe other than the weeks estimator one, I think that'd be sweet to do along the way. Just an idea though -- so if you keep testing, share the fun with us via line porn

Gagrl - Yay for CH!! I hope your TWW flies by with distractions. I hope you caught that egg! The weekend is almost here at least, so your business trip is a good start to the distractions

Lesondemavie, we miss you here

AFM, a lot of anxiety today. Nervously cleaning and trying to stay busy being home alone. I tend to get more anxiety come spring time for some reason, it always seems like that's when things go haywire wrong and we end up with a few huge bills for crappy stuff. So much stuff going through my mind all day. I just want DH to come home already, so I can make us some chicken fried rice and watch Nurse Jackie all night. It's our new Netflix binge show haha we're addicted! TMI, CM seems to be becoming more fertile appearing, is a mix of EW and creamy; very stretchy but not clear yet. Hoping to just BD daily/every other day from here on out. I took this Wednesday (the 6th) off for my next follie tracking. So totally hoping for that trigger shot and strong O. Staying positive and hoping it's not all in my head.

 

[wifeybby]

Oh, Gina, you posted while I was still composing mine lol - that's basically how my first appointment went with my RE. Talked about my history, ordered testing and went home with that cup. The fun part is driving it back to them lol it was a really cute time for us in a funny TTC way.

And Vel, your novel sounds amazing! It'll be a hot one I'm sure haha I hope you're not having annov cycles, I for one know how much that totally sucks. I'd keep calling and nagging for my results! I would think an estrogen deficiency would be treated easily with meds; I haven't read into it but it seems like it wouldn't be the worst possible scenario. FX they figure you out quickly and easily.

 

[Gagrlinpitt]

Gina- hopefully even though a bit rushed this will get you I the right track to figuring out what's going on.. Please keep us updated!

Wifey- you know your body and hey if you have fertile cm out what appears to be.. Use it to your advantage.

Afm, I'm excited about this weekend and getting my mind off of things.. Since I'm only 3dpo, FF told me not to even test until the 16.. I don't see myself lasting that long... But miracles happen lol.

 

[lesondemavie]

Yes sorry for my absence. I've just been in such a mood since Sunday. Still rooting for you all! Thought I was out for sure yesterday with a temp drop, but then this morning it was way back up, now this evening I'm feeling kinda crampy on and off and my cm is tinged a bit. Gina - I think you've mentioned you get tinged cm before AF. Is that right? So yea thinking AF is imminent afterall...I'm totally ok with that. Just want to know.

*Update* AF arrived late tonight just before bed. Glad to be out of limbo. On to the next chance.

All the best for your test results Gina and Vel

Wifey so hoping this cycle works out for you! Hang in there and I'm sure all you're feeling is totally normal.

 

[gina236]

Yes les I get tinged CM before AF. Kinda a moot point by now tho. Lol. sorry AF showed

 

[Velathria]

Hey ladies so called my doc this morning and apparently they tried calling me but didn't get through.. didn't have a missed call but whatever. Went in this morning to the doc and got another check up and blood taken for hormone lvls..
Found out i have thrush.. so now i know why my CM has been so weird... Got some meds and should be cleared up soon ^^
So found out i am one of the healthiest people she's tested XD everything is better then average so apparently my diet is super healthy.. Lol even though i don't go crazy over veggies.. i love them but i don't eat it like crazy.. But i'm glad it's fine ^^ now on to my hormone lvls ^^

Also should have an app. for a fertility specialist soon so can't wait for her insight.

And on another note-- I GOT A BLINKING SMILEY FACE ON MY OPK!!!

Gonna jump my DF's bones tonight

I can't believe i am ovulating.. That is such a relief.. ^^ But is it weird of me that i am also kind of disappointed that nothing is wrong with me?
Now i'm thinking it could have something to do with my DF's spermies.. which means he might have to take pills and yeah he doesnt take medication.. He is one of those men that would have to spraying blood all over the place or be close to dying before he even thinks of going to the doc and taking something -.-

well they are taking hormones lvls now so we'll see what comes then ^^

 

[Velathria]

Gina- Your doc might seem rushed but that's good though ^^ atleast she is not wasting any time and is showing that she wants to get this done quickly for you.. The sooner the better right? I'm so happy that she is doing everything.. Now i feel like it won't take long until you have that baby finally ^^

Wifey- I'm happy you are still feeling activity and EWCM sounds good doesnt matter if its a little creamy.. ^^ i'd still jump DH's bones if i were you . ^^ and i think the next doc app will show nice and big eggys ^^ FX it goes well. When is your app again? Totally forgot lol sorry

Les- Sorry AF showed but it sounds like you are relieved that she did, hopefully next month will work out then ^^

Gag- hahah it's so hard not to test early ^^ my DF always helps me not to test early.. During the day i am too busy to take it.. And then later the day he is home and keeps an eye on me lol i can't keep anything a secret from him he knows me too well. Lol

 

[Gagrlinpitt]

Gina- Your doc might seem rushed but that's good though ^^ atleast she is not wasting any time and is showing that she wants to get this done quickly for you.. The sooner the better right? I'm so happy that she is doing everything.. Now i feel like it won't take long until you have that baby finally ^^

Wifey- I'm happy you are still feeling activity and EWCM sounds good doesnt matter if its a little creamy.. ^^ i'd still jump DH's bones if i were you . ^^ and i think the next doc app will show nice and big eggys ^^ FX it goes well. When is your app again? Totally forgot lol sorry

Les- Sorry AF showed but it sounds like you are relieved that she did, hopefully next month will work out then ^^

Gag- hahah it's so hard not to test early ^^ my DF always helps me not to test early.. During the day i am too busy to take it.. And then later the day he is home and keeps an eye on me lol i can't keep anything a secret from him he knows me too well. Lol

I Usually have to wake my dh up on the morning so that's when I would test. Whenever we do get pregnant I've already figured out how I want to tell him and I'll for sure video it..

 

[Velathria]

how would you tell him?

 

[Gagrlinpitt]

how would you tell him?

My husband is a workout freak so there are times after work Ill make him a protein shake.. So when I find out I'm going to make him a protein shake in a baby bottle and tape the test to the front of it and tell my husband his shake is in the fridge.

 

[Velathria]

Hahha that sounds amazing... so I totally suck xD I forgot that a blinking smiley on the test means high fertility and the smiley just being there means peak... so I only have high fertility.. lol not ovulating yet which means maybe I can get rid of this thrush in time ^^

 

[kiki1234]

I've been completely MIA for the past 2 weeks - but I am all caught up on everyone!...

SO excited for you Gina that you got in for the appt. The first step is done!

Jez: so happy that you got your BFP! I have a good feeling about this one for you

I feel like I am getting ready to O. Hoping it holds out a couple more days as hubby doesn't get home until tomorrow! OPKs have been negative so far but are definitely getting darker, ovulation pains started - and for last cycle this started 2 days prior to getting a positive OPK.. FX for everyone!

 

[Velathria]

Kiki -I hope ovulation waits till your dh arrives ^^ it sucks when you want to ttc and the key component isn't there. Ovulation wait just a few days!! hope you still end up catching that egg. ^^

 

[kiki1234]

Well... I got a positive this late afternoon. And hubby returned yesterday so let the begin.

 

[gina236]

Perfect timing kiki!! Get going girl!!

Vel looks like you ovulated?! Yay tww! Odd question but are you near Dublin at all? I'm trying to plan a trip to italy for my 2 year anniversary and the flights I found have long layovers in Dublin and I know you live in Ireland but I am a stupid American and have no idea how big Ireland even is geography is not my stong suit. Lol.

 

[wifeybby]

Super cute idea, GaGrl! You'll def have to video it to get his face/reaction! Haha! How adorable Can't wait for that moment.

Follicle tracking scan tomorrow. It will be 5 days after my second round of Clomid. Ahh. Wish I could say I'm feeling positive but I just have a gut feeling he's going to say - and either cancel and talk about the next idea; or have me come back in a few days to rescan. Either way, I'll be upset.. If Clomid doesn't work, we decided we just might have to be done with TTC for a while. I can't afford to go with injections, or IVF. I really can't even afford to go on with seeing him, really. The bills have started coming in for everything I've done and its enough to cause a panic attack. Remember that anxiety day I had on Clomid? About how shit hits the fan this time of year? This year, it's infertility bills. (and taxes) Since the dreaded word, "infertility" is now on my paperwork it's not covered at all. I can't afford more scans, more meds, more appointments, more time off work, more stress. It will absolutely kill me to "give up" for now but I have no other option. If this doesn't work...

If this does work, and I have follies big enough to trigger tomorrow - it will be a miracle! I will have a chance for once in my life. I know you guys don't have the ovulation problem that I do, but bear with me - imagine not even O'ing. No TWW. No what if.. Just zero chances at all, whatsoever. I mean, yes, I have some cycles I O, some I don't - but I could go 100+ days without AF on my own and no chance in sight. It just really sucks. And I hate it.

Please ladies, say your prayers for me, send your good vibes, best wishes -- whatever you believe, please think of me. I can't stand the thought of giving up TTC without our baby. I just really need this to work, and stick.