first cycle actively trying (June 2015)

[gina236]

Fertile I did bleed. For 2 days. Didn't test until 20 dpo because after bleeding at 15 dpo I figured I was out. I was planning to drink Saturday night (20 dpo) so I tested just as a make sure because the bleed didn't have any cramping and only 2 small clots so it was a little weird. It was a definite bfp. So there is still hope hun!!

 

[FertileFlower]

Well, guess I don't have to pick up a FRER.
My period just started full force. There is no mistaking it.

So I guess that was a chemical then? Because the brown discharge with EWCM I had when my period first was due was definitely old blood, didn't hurt. So maybe it implanted, but not good enough to stick?

At least I have had my first ever for sure confirmed positive hpt. The other time I had a positive it came up after the time limit and I had no second pair of eyes. This time, it came up during the right time, and it was and is definitely pink and very clear, no squinter. I tried to take pics, and you can see it in them too, but as a squinter. Not that it matters anymore I guess.

So both yesterday and today turned out to be the happiest moments I've had, even though it didn't last that long.

But Leson and Gina, you ladies are still blessed! So not all is sadness.

 

[Hopingsomeday]

What do you ladies think? I'm 5 to 7 dpo. I'm going crazy

 

[FertileFlower]

I see a line, Hopingsomeday.
FC

 

[lesondemavie]

Hoping I see mb a shadow of something. FX that it gets darker and pinker.

Ah fertile sorry the witch showed, but still promising that it can and will happen for you and soon I hope . You're so sweet. I'm doing well for now. Only mild symptoms that come and go. So far it seems the little sprout is doing well. Just trying to remember and treasure each day. Still a bit in disbelief. First scan on Friday. Both nervous and super excited.

 

[FertileFlower]

Leson, so happy for you!!! I know the feeling of disbelief and surrealism now.
But yours is real, and that makes the world a bit brighter.

Yes, I had pretty much given up. So even though this was a loss, there was someone there that was trying to come through. Maybe next month.

The 45 minutes yesterday when I still thought the positive opk was a hpt was the happiest minutes of my life! Today was happy too, but I had a feeling today that it wouldn't last. But for a few brief hours I got to experience what it would feel like. I am so happy for you and Gina that you get the full experience. ))
I'm still going to go cry for myself for a little while.

 

[BabyForIris]

The 45 minutes yesterday when I still thought the positive opk was a hpt was the happiest minutes of my life! Today was happy too, but I had a feeling today that it wouldn't last. But for a few brief hours I got to experience what it would feel like. I am so happy for you and Gina that you get the full experience. ))
I'm still going to go cry for myself for a little while.

I'm so sorry hun. I can't imagine the disappointment and frustration. Hang in there.

 

[gina236]

So sorry fertile Hopefully next month will be better. Maybe this is a sign to not give up. There is a baby just waiting for the perfect time to make its appearance. Take some time and grieve and then get ready to give it another go. FX it happens soon

Hoping, I definitely see something there. FX it gets darker.

 

[FertileFlower]

BabyForIris, thank you! Also, nice to meet you! I used to be on this thread quite a bit, but needed a break because I was going a little nutty.

Gina, yes, I feel surprisingly good! I had another faint, (very faint this time) bfp tonight on another dollar$ cheapy. But it was with less of a hold. I'm now sure it was a chemical and just implanted way too late. But, that is more progress than I ever had! At least I was pregnant for a tiny little bit....

Did you have any hormonal (think depression/sadness) after your chemicals? Just braising myself for what might come in a day or two. Right now I still kinda feel pregnant and happy. Weird, as I'm having a super heavy period and there is no doubt I'm out. Nothing could survive this flood. heh

 

[FertileFlower]

https://www.countdowntopregnancy.com/pregnancy-test-gallery/my-pregnancy-test511011

 

[gina236]

The day after a chemical I did tend to have a pity party. But it usually only lasted a day. And it was mostly only when my dh was at work. I am prone to depression as it is so it would just get to me when I was home alone. Everyone processes different but I did have at least a day of feeling depressed.

 

[Velathria]

Hey ladies ^^ I just read up again with what has happened... just been staying away for a little bit cause I've just been very emotional about all this.. especially this month.. I don't know why.. yesterday I had cramps and then slime with spotting so I'm pretty sure af is going to come just on time today again.... so I broke down and cried in my DF arms... I just couldn't stop crying... I just always expected it to happen fast not take so long... been trying for 6 months now so was hoping that something might have happened till now.... I had a son already once and my fiance hasn't had any yet so he is worried it's his fault but I don't know... I'm hoping not... I hope it's just bad luck and bad timing..

Gina how are you? Feeling tired and exhausted suddenly sounds like promising symptoms that it will stick so still got my fingers crossed. Did you do another test? I read once that with ectopic pregnancy you have cramps now and then and like twinges or stabbing feeling... do you have any of that?

Fertileflower looks like me and you are still going? Or did you have another bfp?

Leson I'm happy your still doing good and the little bean is still sticking in there nice and tight I wish you all the luck and a healthy pregnancy.

And hello to all our newcomers. Lots if babydust to you we might be sharing our ttc time together

 

[wifeybby]

Oh Vel, I'm sorry sweetie. I know how it feels. TTC is insanely hard mentally and physically. I know how you feel. I've had my most uncontrollable crying moments here lately too. I just want it so bad and I feel like a failure. It sucks. Massive, massive hugs your way. Come vent whenever you need to if it helps.

I'm anxious to see how you're doing, Gina! Dr. Appt tomorrow, right? What time?! And happy 7 weeks!

I'm expecting AF tomorrow but ny temps are starting to go up so idk if I'm going to get AF on time or if my temps are inaccurate. I really can't take another long cycle. I just want to get it done and over with, have this lap done and start Clomid. Please God, don't let this be harder than it already is.. Agh.

 

[gina236]

Hi ladies! I'm doing okay. Really nervous for my appointment tomorrow. It's at noon. Really hope I get answers. Vel, I did have pains like that at first but they have gone away. I think they were just stretching pains. I might take a test tomorrow morning but not sure. I'll get one at the doctor that I am pretty sure I'll fail so idk.

Sorry your feeling so down. I know we hear it all the time but it's normal for it to take awhile. Doesn't make it any easier, I know. we are always here to vent to if you need it.

Wifey hoping for a quick and painless af for you so you can get onto your procedure and move on with ttc.

Hugs and baby dust!!

 

[Jezika]

Welcome back, Vel. Sorry to hear you're having a tough time. Perhaps it helps to know you're not alone and that you have plenty of support here. Also, I saw this once and it made me feel better about re-evaluating my expectations of being able to conceive instantly.

"Of all couples trying to conceive:

30 percent get pregnant within the first cycle (about one month)
59 percent get pregnant within three cycles (about three months)
80 percent get pregnant within six cycles (about six months)
85 percent get pregnant within 12 cycles (about one year)
91 percent get pregnant within 36 cycles (about three years)
93 to 95 percent get pregnant within 48 cycles (about four years)"

You can take it as meaning your chances increase as every cycle goes by!

Gina, good luck tomorrow. I have fingers and toes crossed for you.

 

[BabyForIris]

Welcome back, Vel. Sorry to hear you're having a tough time. Perhaps it helps to know you're not alone and that you have plenty of support here. Also, I saw this once and it made me feel better about re-evaluating my expectations of being able to conceive instantly.

"Of all couples trying to conceive:

30 percent get pregnant within the first cycle (about one month)
59 percent get pregnant within three cycles (about three months)
80 percent get pregnant within six cycles (about six months)
85 percent get pregnant within 12 cycles (about one year)
91 percent get pregnant within 36 cycles (about three years)
93 to 95 percent get pregnant within 48 cycles (about four years)"

You can take it as meaning your chances increase as every cycle goes by!

Gina, good luck tomorrow. I have fingers and toes crossed for you.

I can't tell if this makes me feel better ..or worse. Ha ha

 

[Jezika]

BabyForIris - Yeah, I guess it's definitely how you choose to look at it! I usually go straight for the negative so I get more frustrated each time a cycle goes by (listen to me; I've had one cycle!), but I'm really going to try to see it more positively. I mean, one thing that's true is that as long as I am physically able to have kids and I keep trying, I *am* one step closer to the BFP with every cycle. But perhaps that's like that saying that your keys are always in the last place you look... because you stop looking once you find them :$

 

[BabyForIris]

Welcome back, Vel. Sorry to hear you're having a tough time. Perhaps it helps to know you're not alone and that you have plenty of support here. Also, I saw this once and it made me feel better about re-evaluating my expectations of being able to conceive instantly.

"Of all couples trying to conceive:

30 percent get pregnant within the first cycle (about one month)
59 percent get pregnant within three cycles (about three months)
80 percent get pregnant within six cycles (about six months)
85 percent get pregnant within 12 cycles (about one year)
91 percent get pregnant within 36 cycles (about three years)
93 to 95 percent get pregnant within 48 cycles (about four years)"

You can take it as meaning your chances increase as every cycle goes by!

Gina, good luck tomorrow. I have fingers and toes crossed for you.

I can't tell if this makes me feel better ..or worse. Ha ha

 

[RexMom2Be]

Whew! I've missed quite a bit!

Gina- this is so exciting, how did the test go?! I hope this is your BFP!

Fertile and Vel- your time is coming, I feel it.

Hi to everyone else!

AFM: 9dpo, not really "in" this cycle. Had horrible timing and stress, so wasn't focused. Although I did try to temp as much as possible. Not feeling like testing since I'm pretty sure I can't count this as an active TTC cycle. Bleh, needed the break!

 

[Velathria]

Thanks ladies. I feel better today... got my AF on time and nice and painful like always (damn you Witch *shakes fist*) but I am ready for another cycle.. me and the DF had a long talk about everything.. he is worried it's him... but I guess it's too early to know.

I agree with BabyForIris lol don't know if that makes me feel any better... to have a 90 something % chance of getting pregnant but only after 4 years doesn't make me wanna go yippie-yay xD but thanks anyway... I guess it makes sense

Gina I think this is it..I bet you'll find out tomorrow that it's finally your moment I believe it.

Fertile how are you doing?

Rex happy to hear from you again. I'm sorry it didn't work out this month. It sucks when that happens... hope it works out next month. FX for you that next month is it.